- Date posted
- 39w
For Straight women with sexual orientation OCD.
Not sure if anyone else has ever experienced this. For context I’m going through my first major OCD relapse after being well for a really long time- around 5 years or so. I first suffered from so-ocd when I was around 21. I got through it with therapy and antidepressants. Also I met my now husband at the time who I fell in love with and it kind of just went away. Anyway I had not had to deal with these thoughts for a significant amount of time. It’s now come back with a vengeance at the age of 28. I am going through exposure therapy. However it feels like because it’s come back that my OCD Is telling me that I was attracted to women all along. Like the recurrence of the theme is evidence that maybe I am gay. Has anyone else ever experienced this? It’s making me question whether I’ve been in denial all along. I was happily married up until 6 months ago. This is what is so annoying. I’ve only ever been intimate with my husband and I’ve only ever dated/ kissed men. I also hate how there are days where I will have non stop thoughts. I’ll wake up and I’ll be thinking about it and it will stop me from enjoying life. Even though I’m not actively doing compulsions, it’s just always there in the background. I guess my main question is 1. Has anyone dealt with this theme recurring and convincing them that this means it’s true? How do you deal with this. 2. How do you reduce the nonstop thoughts and rumination? Thanks.