- Username
- minfoy
- Date posted
- 5y ago
SUCKS RIGHT LOL I didn't Want to be normal anyways. I didn't want to be like this but I'll soon find the middle ground. As will you
We are in the same exact situation! Question if I hear things or if I’m about to as well as have these “fake delusion”. I’m still kind of trying to figure out how to manage it. I just remind myself that if I was actually delusional, I would be trying to convince people that what I believed was real. I also say to myself I wouldn’t know if I was crazy or delusional. I definitely wouldn’t be anxious about it because it would feel like it was totally natural. Most likely when I have those thoughts they produce anxiety and that’s how I know it’s my OCD. I also just tell myself, if I’m really going crazy I can’t control it but I’ll figure out how to manage it so I can live normally or something like that. I sit with the anxiety and accept that my brain made a weird thought and let it pass. (It’s so hard to do and I have failed and tried ruminating) but I’m working on it. The more our brains senses that we fear it, the more it’s gonna make up much more weirder scenarios in our heads. Kind of like our own personal horror film no one else sees lol. Our brains are trying to protect us by remind us that we don’t want to lose our minds so it shows us thoughts to “stay away from” when we have to teach our brains that the thoughts aren’t real and they won’t cause us harm. The probability of our thoughts coming true is so rare. Not trying to give a lot of reassure cause I know they only offers temporary relief but I know what it’s like to feel alone with this. I have wondered if I was going crazy just because I felt no one else thought this way. Some of my thoughts are really strange lol, but there just thoughts. Sending you positive thoughts and prayers. we will get through this. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone, but it’s nice to not feel alone.
As much as you feel like you are gonna go Mad or are Mad, You’re not. It’s so convincing, you feel like you are and it’s so real. It’s just the OCD doing what it does best. You’re worried about being mad, so you’re brains gonna come up with more scenarios to make you feel like you could. Take some time to do some self care things. Deep breathing as well as eating clean and taking brisk walks. Let the thoughts come and try not to argue. They are just thoughts. People who go mad don’t question it. They feel like it’s a normal part of life. They feel everyone around them are crazy and what they feel is very real. The fact that you question it is good. These are things I have been told to help me. Yes, they could be used as reassurance and I don’t want to do to much but this will pass. I have the same fear as you and I can promise that it’s just our minds working over time. We got this??. Thinking of you.
Thank you so much for this reply. Still struggling, had an IT that someone was in the fan... I know there isn’t but keep thinking maybe there is. Completely lost in this fear. X
@minfoy I’m struggling with very similar intrusive thoughts. I know how irrational and bizarre they are but it’s like for a split second I question it. It’s just OCD trying to trick you. I have had really random and very odd thoughts that have caused me to momentarily panic because I thought I was really going insane. What we have to realize is that our brains can literally think of anything! Everyone else I’m sure have had some type of random thought like this, the only difference is we sit and question and ruminating and then try to find reasons as to why we are losing it. Try to separate yourself from intrusive thoughts by saying “oh I’m having an obsession, I might be schizophrenic or I’m having an obsession about someone in the fan” that kind of helps separate you from the OCD. We have a brain that has a little glitch in it so we over process when we don’t need too. Take a deep breathe, remind yourself that you have had many similar thoughts and have not gone crazy.remind yourself OCD is good at tricking and move your focus to something else. When the thoughts comes back, tell yourself that’s it’s welcomed and just say ok, brain thanks for bringing this to my attention, your so creative or soemthing silly. I have just been working on this and it has helped a little. It doesn’t take it all away and my anxiety is still high but it’s helping me take baby steps into managing the intrusive thoughts. Thinking of you. You will get through this and it will pass❤️
YAS a million times yes!! I have the exact same obsession. I’m terrified of psychosis and schizophrenia! My obsession are so weird like I feel like they are delusions but I know how strange they are if that make sense. So it gives me anxiety cause I think I’m losing it lol. I have read forum on people who struggle with schizophrenia and sometimes I think my intrusive thoughts mock their symptoms and try to convince me I’m gonna slip into madness.
Omg thank you! Like sometimes I’ll listen to see if I can hear voices or I’ll get a weird thought like what if someone does have a camera??? And I’m like NO!! it’s so strange. Any advice on how to maybe combate this?
Oh my gosh sorry it took so long to get back. Our situations are so similar, I feel a bit mad.
Ok.. so another one of my fears is the fear of being schizophrenic or psychotic. I’m 9 weeks post partum and I read about psychosis and it freaked me out!! I’m 29 years old and I know schizophrenia happens in your teens or early 20s. My therapist told me that as long as I don’t have a voice telling me to act on my intrusive images or thoughts that it’s not psychotic. Once she said that later that day the words “do it” kept repeating in my mind. I have 0 desire to harm anyone and I’ve never been a violent person. If anyone has experienced something similar please share! I feel like my mind loves to switch things up and play tricks on me.
Not looking for reassurance, just venting about how stupid OCD gets. Having a wild time with existential OCD at the moment. It started with me obsessing about what is going on in other people's minds. Not that I want to know what they are thinking, just how they are thinking - what it's like inside a head without OCD, is it quieter? Is that why other people like daydreaming and getting lost in thought? Then all of that philosophising lead me down a bad path and now my OCD is trying really hard to convince me that nothing exists outside my line of sight, the horizon is just an elaborate drawing and behind it is a black void. Obviously I know that's just ridiculous but it's hard not to feel like I'm losing my mind when I know that there is a world beyond my current line of sight but my OCD brain is trying it's hardest to convince me that there's not. Usually when existential obsessions come up it's because I'm going through a major life event but that's not the case right now so it beats me why this particular brand of obsessions has made an appearance again. Oh well.
Anybody struggle with thinking you have schizophrenia or are slowly developing it? Mine just kinda popped up out of the blue today. Idk why I have a sudden feeling that I might hear or see something that nobody else will hear or see. I just feel like I’m stuck in my own head and I might act out of impulse. It’s making me feel anxious, uncomfortable, and worried that something might be wrong with me. I even feel like covering my ears so I can calm myself down with some piece and quiet. Please tell me someone else knows what I’m talking about
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