I feel like I’m losing my mind. Just a genuine question, not looking for reassurance just wondering if anyone has ever experienced a similar thing. You ever get (depending on current obsessions... mine is currently psychosis) thoughts like, what if there’s somebody in the wall if you hear a sound? I know there isn’t... I just get the thoughts. It’s very strange and some times I have to laugh.

"Pure" OCD

Reptarrox

Date posted: 5y

SUCKS RIGHT LOL I didn't Want to be normal anyways. I didn't want to be like this but I'll soon find the middle ground. As will you

hannie

Date posted: 5y

We are in the same exact situation! Question if I hear things or if I’m about to as well as have these “fake delusion”. I’m still kind of trying to figure out how to manage it. I just remind myself that if I was actually delusional, I would be trying to convince people that what I believed was real. I also say to myself I wouldn’t know if I was crazy or delusional. I definitely wouldn’t be anxious about it because it would feel like it was totally natural. Most likely when I have those thoughts they produce anxiety and that’s how I know it’s my OCD. I also just tell myself, if I’m really going crazy I can’t control it but I’ll figure out how to manage it so I can live normally or something like that. I sit with the anxiety and accept that my brain made a weird thought and let it pass. (It’s so hard to do and I have failed and tried ruminating) but I’m working on it. The more our brains senses that we fear it, the more it’s gonna make up much more weirder scenarios in our heads. Kind of like our own personal horror film no one else sees lol. Our brains are trying to protect us by remind us that we don’t want to lose our minds so it shows us thoughts to “stay away from” when we have to teach our brains that the thoughts aren’t real and they won’t cause us harm. The probability of our thoughts coming true is so rare. Not trying to give a lot of reassure cause I know they only offers temporary relief but I know what it’s like to feel alone with this. I have wondered if I was going crazy just because I felt no one else thought this way. Some of my thoughts are really strange lol, but there just thoughts. Sending you positive thoughts and prayers. we will get through this. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone, but it’s nice to not feel alone.

hannie

Date posted: 5y

As much as you feel like you are gonna go Mad or are Mad, You’re not. It’s so convincing, you feel like you are and it’s so real. It’s just the OCD doing what it does best. You’re worried about being mad, so you’re brains gonna come up with more scenarios to make you feel like you could. Take some time to do some self care things. Deep breathing as well as eating clean and taking brisk walks. Let the thoughts come and try not to argue. They are just thoughts. People who go mad don’t question it. They feel like it’s a normal part of life. They feel everyone around them are crazy and what they feel is very real. The fact that you question it is good. These are things I have been told to help me. Yes, they could be used as reassurance and I don’t want to do to much but this will pass. I have the same fear as you and I can promise that it’s just our minds working over time. We got this??. Thinking of you.

minfoy

Date posted: 5y

Thank you so much for this reply. Still struggling, had an IT that someone was in the fan... I know there isn’t but keep thinking maybe there is. Completely lost in this fear. X

hannie

Date posted: 5y

@minfoy I’m struggling with very similar intrusive thoughts. I know how irrational and bizarre they are but it’s like for a split second I question it. It’s just OCD trying to trick you. I have had really random and very odd thoughts that have caused me to momentarily panic because I thought I was really going insane. What we have to realize is that our brains can literally think of anything! Everyone else I’m sure have had some type of random thought like this, the only difference is we sit and question and ruminating and then try to find reasons as to why we are losing it. Try to separate yourself from intrusive thoughts by saying “oh I’m having an obsession, I might be schizophrenic or I’m having an obsession about someone in the fan” that kind of helps separate you from the OCD. We have a brain that has a little glitch in it so we over process when we don’t need too. Take a deep breathe, remind yourself that you have had many similar thoughts and have not gone crazy.remind yourself OCD is good at tricking and move your focus to something else. When the thoughts comes back, tell yourself that’s it’s welcomed and just say ok, brain thanks for bringing this to my attention, your so creative or soemthing silly. I have just been working on this and it has helped a little. It doesn’t take it all away and my anxiety is still high but it’s helping me take baby steps into managing the intrusive thoughts. Thinking of you. You will get through this and it will pass❤️

hannie

Date posted: 5y

YAS a million times yes!! I have the exact same obsession. I’m terrified of psychosis and schizophrenia! My obsession are so weird like I feel like they are delusions but I know how strange they are if that make sense. So it gives me anxiety cause I think I’m losing it lol. I have read forum on people who struggle with schizophrenia and sometimes I think my intrusive thoughts mock their symptoms and try to convince me I’m gonna slip into madness.

minfoy

Date posted: 5y

Omg thank you! Like sometimes I’ll listen to see if I can hear voices or I’ll get a weird thought like what if someone does have a camera??? And I’m like NO!! it’s so strange. Any advice on how to maybe combate this?

minfoy

Date posted: 5y

Oh my gosh sorry it took so long to get back. Our situations are so similar, I feel a bit mad.

nae nae

Date posted: 23w

New intrusive thoughts

So, if I'm retelling a story or relaying information to someone, after I'm done speaking, my brain will send me thoughts like, "What if you lied? You might have told the story wrong! You're lying!" I've started second-guessing myself, even when I know I'm not lying or telling the story wrong😭 This has also bled into twisting my intentions behind certain actions... For example, the other day, I'd been babysitting my younger brothers. I'd gone to use the restroom and thought, "What if the door isn't locked or closed all the way?" Because this has happened once in the past. Turns out, it didn't lock correctly, and one of my little brothers almost walked in on me, but luckily, I shut the door in time, and we laughed it off. But then, I kept getting thoughts like, "You knew that would happen, and you didn't double-check! You wanted that to happen and for him to walk in!" :( I know this isn't true, but it's so annoying! Has anyone dealt with this? If you have, do you have any advice on how to deal with these thoughts?

Chels0212

Date posted: 23w

Intrusive thoughts

I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅

Young adults with OCD

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 18w

Maybe this is obvious but I need some insight pls

There’s something that happens that keeps me stuck in a thought, it’s when I can see some part of myself agreeing with or relating to it in some way. That’s when the doubt creeps in. If I can understand *why* the thought is there, doesn’t that mean it’s not just random? Doesn’t that mean it actually reflects something about me? For example **(TMI/TW)**: I had the thought, *“I wonder what other people’s kinks are (including friends, family, even teenagers).”* And then I caught myself thinking, *“Well, I guess that could be interesting information… maybe I wouldn’t even stop someone from sharing it with me. Does that mean I actually want to know? Wait—does that make me perverted or incestuous for even having this curiosity?”* The same thing has happened with other thoughts, like wondering what someone’s privates might look like. I recognize that, on some level, that could be interesting—but does that mean the thought is truly mine? Maybe the answer is super obvious and I just can’t see through my OCD smoke. This was a bit embarrassing for me to write 🥲, but can anyone provide some insight?

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