Mod22
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AnonymousAnonymous
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It's your ocd! Not your fault. Try to take a deep breath and think about all the things you accomplished this week. You're fighting, keep going ?
Mod22Mod22
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Thank you it’s so hard for me today when I’m on Instagram I Just get triggered by every single guy on there it’s bad today and I had a awesome week last week but I think I’m relapsing and can’t control it I’ve been doing so well :(
AnonymousAnonymous
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@Mod22 A bad week can happen! We all have bad weeks. Just try to take it easy and think what you can do to help yourself, like exercises. And for the rest, are you stressed lately? That may cause the fact you get triggered a lot. Keep trying, you're doing great ❤️
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Yes I got triggered once and got stressed plus I got exams too but I do feel like this is taking a huge chunk of my life from me
AnonymousAnonymous
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Yeah I get that. I think the stress may cause the fact its a bit worse at the moment. And ocd is just a huge chunk of our lives, sadly. But we're trying and fighting and that's all we can do, it sounds to me like you're really trying. Wait a bit maybe till exams are over? Take a small break for yourself? Then you can clearly see if it's a relapse or if you were really stressed and that caused more ocd
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@Nolan I really try and never really give up I have a great psychologist and I often fill like I would not be happy sometimes because even if I recover what would happen if I get the thought again that’s why i ask myself
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@Mod22 And I often feel sad and depressed not just about the whole situation but by also looking back at pictures I took before this whole thing and seeing how happy I am in them and comparing with my recent ones I just want my old chilled happy a guy who always makes people laugh self not this guy who’s always analyzing depressed guy who has hocd
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Yeah Thing is when you have a great week and and a even better weekend and then relapse it sort of feels like you just shot yourself on the foot I also need to learn to trust the process and not rush it it’s been bad today I look at girls and try to analyze if they look a bit like boys and I’m extra cautious when looking at pictures or people because I don’t want to be attracted to a transgender or a guy
AnonymousAnonymous
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Yeah it kind of feels like a bummer. But maybe tomorrow will be better? Maybe next week? You sound like you are aware of it all though. Trust the process indeed. You're gonna be fine
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@Nolan True I do study psychology so I’m a bit aware of how the brain works etc and methods so yeah I try but accepting the thoughts does feel like suicide on bad days
IdkIdk
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I do this with my boyfriend, I keep think he looks like a girl to me and I hate it
Mod22Mod22
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This is really bad I just wanna be happy and I feel like I’m just not getting where I want to be if I could tell yall about plans I had this year, planned on starting a business etc but due to this I ate the money and I basically gave up on life I’m only starting to fight now I feel like I lost all of my confidence and all the qualities people liked about me I’m just in shit and scared that I’ll someday go through with this and actually date a guy which makes me want to cry I’m 21 years old and all of my life I loved women and still do but these thoughts are killing me my mom keeps telling me about stories of me as a child wanting a girl who used to come to our supermarket and now I feel all of these stupid things
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