lukeharrison28

Date posted: 29w

Help!

I’m really struggling with suicidal theme ocd, it started off with what if thoughts then it moved on too commands and now I’m getting thoughts like ‘ im going to _____’ I can’t get them out off my head and I’m struggling as I think this is actually my true thoughts right now and I feel so panicky I don’t want these too be true but they feel so real since I have been getting the I am going to it’s been replying in my head all day all night can’t stop it Please can someone help me if this is still ocd I’m really getting frightened

cows12465

Date posted: 29w

UGH i feel the same way right now. but my medication has been helping a bit with the anxiety, but that panics me more because then my OCD thinks it’s real because im not as anxious

lukeharrison28

Date posted: 29w

@cows12465 Yeah I know, im now starting to take them, have you had the commands and I am thoughts they are horrible, need to just know its you’re ocd talking

cows12465

Date posted: 28w

@lukeharrison28 it is definitely your OCD. mine have mainly been commands and that’s the scariest part. just know the stress and anxiety comes with ocd.

lukeharrison28

Date posted: 28w

@cows12465 Thank you, I’m glad you said it’s defo ocd as when you get them thoughts it seems so real and they are from you

hellokitty1

Date posted: 29w

Hey! This definitely seems like OCD, and that’s ok! OCD is something you can overcome if you work on it. The more you try to “fix” your intrusive thoughts, the more stressed you become, which will only make them worse. The key is to try to ignore them, ignore them as hard as you can. The fact that you are so frightened about harming yourself just proves that you would never do such a thing, even though it feels real in your head. OCD gets alot worse when you are stressed, so try to hang out with friends or family, relax, and know that you are not your thoughts. You will be okay.

lukeharrison28

Date posted: 29w

@hellokitty1 Thank you, you defo think ocd can change to the first person commands like ‘I am’ as these are the worst and making the most panicked I feel like they are convincing me they are real!

hellokitty1

Date posted: 29w

@lukeharrison28 That’s exactly what OCD does! It makes you believe things about yourself that aren’t true. That’s what’s so frustrating about it. So yes OCD can 100% come in the form of “I am going to…” or “I think this..”

lukeharrison28

Date posted: 29w

@hellokitty1 Okay then thank you, have you been diagnosed with ocd, have you had any therapy or been on medication

hellokitty1

Date posted: 29w

@lukeharrison28 yes I have a lot of different kinds of OCD lol. it feeds off of anxiety and stress. I have not tried meds or therapy yet but I may try therapy soon, wbu?

lukeharrison28

Date posted: 29w

@hellokitty1 Okay then thanks, I’m waiting for therapist i have been giving medication but I’m worried in case it makes me worse now

hellokitty1

Date posted: 29w

@lukeharrison28 Is it an anxiety medication like Prozac or Lexapro? Or is it one specifically for OCD?

lukeharrison28

Date posted: 29w

@hellokitty1 Think it’s anxiety medication

artsygirl

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 29w

I have this theme and exact same situation. I try to remind myself “what resists, persists” and the least I can resist the better off. Allow those thoughts to be there as much as you can. Try to be present. You’re strong. Keep working with your therapist. It won’t always be this hard. This is temporary.

lu22

Date posted: 24w

I really need advice harm ocd

I know we’re not meant to ask for reassurance but I’m currently not in therapy and I need help, it feels scarily real and I feel like I’m not anxious or worried over the thoughts. I had stabbing thoughts about someone I care about and I started deliberately imagining them to test myself to see if I hate it or not but instead it felt like I knew how it feels to stab someone and like the feeling of doing that physical action and I swear it is the worst thing I have ever experienced as well I had moments where it felt like It was about to happen or I keep getting this really sick ‘happy’ feeling that I want to do that and I don’t know what that is but it feels incredibly real almost like I was getting a happy feeling or wanted to do that thing and jsut wasn’t giving into it and now I’m thinking I’m actually evil and it feels like I get a pleasurable feeling over the thought of doing that and would want to do it?? Because I ‘like’ the feeling of doing it or it would ‘feel’ good I swear I really don’t know what to do it feels incredibly real I feel like I can’t even say that I’m worried or scared because I feel like I’m lying and actually want it and have evil desires I’m really concerned, I have never done anything bad in my life, I feel like what if through experimenting and imagining the thoughts to test myself I have suddenly discovered I like it because it feels extremely real that I would ‘enjoy’ or like Doing that evil thing and it’s really concerning, i don’t understand I was fine a few days ago and suddenly I’m experiencing this? Is it possible to suddenly become evil i don’t want to be evil, but what if i like it and my desire to not be evil isn’t as strong as this ‘happy feeling’ i wish I can be normal I don’t want any of this please but I swear I feel like there is something wrong with me, I think this is the worst I’ve ever felt, like it feels like I want it and would enjoy it and it’s making me feel really worried but at the same time I don’t even know if I’m worried please help I need advice

lu22

Date posted: 23w

Suffering a lot, need advice, have no therapy 🙁🙁

I feel like this time I can’t pick myself back up. It felt too real like I don’t even belive it wasn’t real I fully feel like it was my own feeling and I genuinely felt that. I had stabbing intrusive thoughts, I imaginined it on purpose to test my reaction and then it felt like I know how it feels to physically do that action (stab someone) and I like how it feels then I was getting these urge feelings and it felt like I wanted it and then I was imagining the thoughts again about stabbing someoneI care about multiple times and then It suddenly felt like I was really happy about the thought and almost like I really enjoyed it and realised why evil people enjoy doing these things like I felt what they felt like I’ve discovered a ‘thrill’ feeling of doing that evil thing and I can’t get over it I can’t figure out why it felt like that and now I’m thinking because it felt like I liked it and it felt good I will be curious about being evil or want to be evil to feel that feeling again and it’s really messed up and I don’t know what to do everytime I think about it it feels like there is actually something wrong with me I no longer have anxiety or feel really worried about the thoughts I feel numb and that feeling is really making me feel bad like I can’t live normally now it feels like I am actually evil now and I don’t even know if I have morals or if i would be evil or not. Normally with my thoughts no matter how real it’s felt I’ve managed to convince myself why I had a certain feeling and why it’s not real and why I’m a good person but this time it actually feels like that feeling was from me and I actually felt really happy and enjoyed or got a thrill from the idea of doing that horrible thing like I can’t even say it feels real because I’m thinking it is real I don’t know what to do 🙁🙁I’ve had ocd for a few years but don’t get anxious anymore and this feels like I’m actually bad or would want to do it because of that feeling

Astjtoju13!

Date posted: 23w

Harm ocd

Someone please help me I’m having intrusive thoughts of hurting my pets and I’m really scared of myself and I want these thoughts to go away. Can someone please help me I’m scared and I don’t know if I’m a monster

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