Guys no no no I just searched something up on the trans subreddit and I saw a meme saying “it’s probably just ocd” and I’m panicking again. I’m not even sure it’s ocd. I’ve questioned my gender before and I’ve been a tomboy since I was like 11. I even once TOLD SOMEONE I wanted to be a boy. I’m freaking out because this HAS to be denial at this point. I knew I shouldn’t have looked on the subreddit. I’m so DUMB. I hate this I’m freaking out my stomach has turned over. I don’t know what this is anymore. I’m getting over it but it also feels like I’m “accepting” that I’m trans. I don’t know what to do because I wanna be a girl!! I don’t wanna come out and transition and everything. If I look back at my early days of my tocd I feel like it’s word for word symptoms of OCD but I also feel like when I found out it was ocd my symptoms became more like ocd. I dont wanna accept I’m trans! I was doing quite well until I went on the subreddit! I’m so scared because I think it’s not ocd at this point. I HAVE to stop going on that stupid website. The only time I had “dysphoria” is disliking my boobs, but I remember in the early stages of puberty I was so excited to wear a bra. I’m so confused help please. I sometimes feel like I’m forcing myself to do compulsions because I just want to think it’s ocd. I’m so stupid WHY DID I GO ON REDDITT

Stop going on reddit. Yes that's certainly your ocd. Maybe it's not and i guess that's what acceptance is. But i've noticed that reddit is going to increase my catastrophic thinking bc ppl over there are not aware of ocd and anxiety. I feel les anxious by not going over there and i can say that even if i'm trans i would not be ok with how reddit ppl treat ocd sufferers.

I never ever felt nauseous at the sight of my own boobs but now I do. Do I keep wanting to go back to that subreddit because it’s relatable? I didn’t even know it existed before this shit. At the start of my obsession my brain always said stuff like “do this or you’re trans” like my brain would conjure up some weird shit like “step on that leaf or you’re trans” or “jump over that like with both feet or you’re trans” and I’d have to do it. But I’m still doubting it so much. I’m so scared

You wouldn’t be so scared about being trans if you actually legitimately wanted to be trans

I just recently developed this OCD, I have suffered with so many types, harming myself & others, HOCD, scares about dying, now this. I feel you. I have been a girl my entire life in and out. I saw an article online about transgenders and I questioned it and now my OCD kicked in and is in full force. I have been trying to combat it but it certainly just does not work. I am glad I found someone that also has this so it makes me feel less like a lunatic. It’s your mind, thoughts are not reality. That’s what I have to keep telling myself through these various spouts of OCD. It sucks!