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Stop going on reddit. Yes that's certainly your ocd. Maybe it's not and i guess that's what acceptance is. But i've noticed that reddit is going to increase my catastrophic thinking bc ppl over there are not aware of ocd and anxiety. I feel les anxious by not going over there and i can say that even if i'm trans i would not be ok with how reddit ppl treat ocd sufferers.
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I’m pretty sure it’s a compulsion because if I was actually trans I wouldn’t be on this app, I would be on that subreddit. I’m avoiding it right now but my hands are aching to search it again. The posts get stuck in my head and ocd holds them against me. I’ve calmed down now but it did make me cry a bit
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I never ever felt nauseous at the sight of my own boobs but now I do. Do I keep wanting to go back to that subreddit because it’s relatable? I didn’t even know it existed before this shit. At the start of my obsession my brain always said stuff like “do this or you’re trans” like my brain would conjure up some weird shit like “step on that leaf or you’re trans” or “jump over that like with both feet or you’re trans” and I’d have to do it. But I’m still doubting it so much. I’m so scared
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But it’s like I’m beginning to realize how different my symptoms are to ocd sufferers. I think this is the ocd tricking me? Or something?
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You wouldn’t be so scared about being trans if you actually legitimately wanted to be trans
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True, but some of the posts said stuff like “I’m too scared to admit I’m trans that’s why I’m in denial” and shit like that. I should stop going on that subreddit and freaking myself out lol
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@margo1 Yeah but that’s other people that’s not you
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I just recently developed this OCD, I have suffered with so many types, harming myself & others, HOCD, scares about dying, now this. I feel you. I have been a girl my entire life in and out. I saw an article online about transgenders and I questioned it and now my OCD kicked in and is in full force. I have been trying to combat it but it certainly just does not work. I am glad I found someone that also has this so it makes me feel less like a lunatic. It’s your mind, thoughts are not reality. That’s what I have to keep telling myself through these various spouts of OCD. It sucks!
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Im a 21 year old female in a straight relationship with the best guy a girl could ever ask for. About 2 months ago, I went to get coffee with a friend and as I dropped her off, I got a “weird” vibe from her and the look she gave me which lead to the thought of “should I kiss her”….Ive never had a thought like that before and I never have ever wanted to kiss another girl. I have also never had a desire to be with another girl (sexually or romantically). Now though, I have had one other experience of being with a different friend going to get lunch and it felt weird. Ever since then I have been on google non stop with hundreds of different searches, questioning if im lying to myself of my boyfriend, wondering about my past relationships even though Ive only dated boys, been attracted to boys, crushed on boys, etc… boy crazy! Reading on other forums has been a big thing too or doing quizzes. I believe its SO-OCD but im so scared that what if its not. I am in therapy and actually had two weeks of not even thinking about it or googling it until yesterday. I dont know what to do.
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- 23w
This is so extremely difficult, i’ve never experienced having thoughts of being a different gender. i’ve always been comfortable being a girl. i’ve always been a girly girl. this all started a couple months ago and it’s increasingly getting worse. i’ve had times where i didn’t like my body but i always thought i could just go to the gym and fix it, never did i think i wanted to be a man. ever since these thoughts started i hate looking at myself in the mirror, i hate looking at my body, i’m aware of my breasts all day everyday, i can’t look at pictures/ videos of myself. from the moment i wake up to the second i go to sleep i have these thoughts. i’m in a panic EVERYDAY. i don’t want to be trans but my thoughts are convincing me i do. i’ve never bat an eye when someone calls me a girl but now it’s like i’m aware of it which i hate. i hate that i’m having these thoughts & it’s convincing me that i want them & that i have to just come out and change. i want to be able to go back to being comfortable as a girl. this has left me feeling so hopeless and depressed, i can’t help but cry every day. has anyone else felt like their whole world was turned upside down?
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- 19w
I cant do anything anymore without my brain dregdging up proof from my past that I was actually trans and didn't know it, and it all seems so plausible. like I said in my last post its unearthing memories that I didn't even know I have. ik this is just ocd tricking me but I feel like I need to review every moment thoroughly bc I have questioned my gender in the past but always concluded that'd I'd happier as a girl (which is true). everything feels so real and it feels like I am just super in denial. also, how do I tell people about this? I made the mistake of confessing to a teacher on a note and only a couple friends of mine understand the thoughts I get, but I don't tell them everything. however its very hard for me to do basic responsibilities like school work and I always end up overwhelmed, so I'm thinking I may need accomdations. I need to get in touch with my counselor but i'm unsure how to explain all of this to her, being that I don't have a diagnosis....also I feel like I can't talk about this with the majority of my friends because gender ocd is rare to have (increasing my doubts) and, at least school-wise, i'm in very accepting environment for lgbtq and I'm afraid they're just gonna tell me to accept myself. I'm scared of doing erp for this because what if I like it (also cant afford therapy). ive also felt very apprehensive around some of my trans friends and classmates because my brain is going crazy asking "what if you're like them?" and I feel so bad and transphobic for these thoughts. i'm genuinely so tired. one of my closest friends died last year, but my father pointed out that my recent mood has been even worse than it was during that time. i tend to bottle up my emotions a lot, so everyone's just telling me to "let it go" and tell people, but if I do that I feel like i'll end up confessing. i'm so tired and lost.
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