- Username
- RedMax
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Of course you can. Please do. When you go to a therapist, don't hold back. Forget about the fesr that your thought's might be "too dark" or "dirty". It's OCD. If they knoe a bit about it, they won't be surprised. And being honest will be very important tfor your recovery. So I mean it. Don't hold back. whatever bothhers you. Let them know
Never thought of that, thanks I’ll give it a shot
Hey Redmax- Well done!!!!! Good luck.
I'm happy for you Redmax ?
I understand it's personal. Doing homework is vital. In fact I need to do script erp ( which is hard!) I'm glad your seeing improvement! I live in Los Angeles I'm taking a mindful classes affiliated with UCLA. If you check your local colleges they'll probably have mindful meditation classes. Off to the gym. I like to keep in touch with you. ❤✌
Hopefully, will a psychiatrist be fine to talk to? I have hocd and little pocd
Yes it helps Gummydrop. They are qualified too :)
Can I talk to them about my hocd and my pocd?
I feel like I can’t ignore the thoughts
They are hard to ignore :( So do I... but we'll get better :)
The trick isn’t to ignore the thoughts , it’s to slowly becoming okay with them being there, like okay I have this fear of whatever stuck in my head fine Ill let it make me feel uncomfortable but I’m still gonna get on with my day, it’s so hard at first but it gets easier
@RedMax You're right :)
It is tricky. Just trying to sit with awful tboughts is so painful. I can see improvement. Part of me still can't quite believe I have this disorder! It's do bizarre. ?
Even though I "knew it". I was diagnosed a little over a month ago. That's when it seriously dawned on me the seriousness of this. I've suffered a lot just accepting that I'll have to live with this, that a dementor (harry potter jajaj) will be following me all my life.
SAME ITS DO HARD TO BELIEVE
Yes! I'm happy as well. Gosh you found out a month ago? It took me a couple months my friend told me to pray awful thoughts away it was the devil! I knew my brain was misfiring and I was on a loop. We should be grateful so much information and support is available. My ocd came out 9 months ago from a stressful event. I'm not surprised my brain explpded!!!! I heard a great statement: my distress surpassed my coping skills. Yep. This has been quite a year for me.
Hi Janietay. Well, I've had it for 11 years. And my first terrible episode was when I was 16 years of age. But I got diagnosed 1 month ago and since then I've learned about how treatment goes and about what I should expect... it's so scary I must admit. And also so sad to know that I'll have to live with this ?
Oh boy at least you got diagnosed. I'm working with an ocd specialists which is amazing. Truly we need to do the work. I started meditating and am taking mindful meditation classes. What's your theme BTW?
Pure O, HOCD. I'd like to take mindfulness classes too. I think it could help a bit at least.
Me too with A little pocd. For a while i thought I was a criminal but that's basically faded. The mindful classes help. In fact is like to get certified so I can facilitate mindful groups. It's challenging with ocd sufferers. I think the most jarring is violent thoughts especially since I'm a gentle non violent person. It's cruel ocd, attacking what's important to us.
Yeah... that's so true. It's not just about making you think you're not the person you think you are or the orientation you have always identified with. It' also about not letting you enjoy things you have always enjoyed. You know, it's not only you're mind you "you might also like guys" (in my case), it's more your mind telling you" you like guys and you'll never get to enjoy sex and have a happy relationshio with your girlfriend. You'll lose all your attraction to girls and you have to accept it". It's so unfair and relentless...
Horrific!! I can't imagine. I'm sorry..may i ask what state your in?
I've definitely improved from where I was 2-3 months ago. I still do compulsions all the time and my thoughts are present constantly. But just getting to better accept that this is my reality, that I must do my homework and commit myself is a step forward to me. Also, some of my fears from 3 months ago have slowly been fading. New ones come, but it helps in understanding that OCD will come at you with many things, so the content is not that important. To me it's harder in some aspects because my obsession is not the typical HOCD one. But I prefer not to talk about it now. :)
That's a bit confusing to me, you know? The script part of ERP. Im currently developing my imaginal exposures m, like literally just started to write them down. But I don't feel "too triggered" by them. Not as much as the thought thought that they contain, which do scare me. I don't know if I'm doing them wrong or something. What is the scary part of doing your scripts? F.ex. is it writing them, reading them, visualizing them, the way you describe them or what? Sorry if the question doesn't make sense, I really want to understand better how to improve my imaginal exposures :( Makes me feel like I won't get over this if I can't tackle my fears head first.
And yeah, of course you can keep in touch. Whenever you want. :)
Grrrrr.. I just wrote tons and it erased. Hey there. So I get you!!! I think were doing it right. It's about habituation. Writing it Everyday re reading focused and fully present. Now for a while I thought I was a criminal. I.watched crime shows and read articles. That theme diminished. This theme I hate!!! Doing erp doesn't bother me. It's the thought that keeps running through my head. Now I need to do hw. It hard because it affects me. I generally isolate a little because. The subject matter sucks. Am I making sense?
Yes you are making sense :) I isolate too. It hurts because this got me distant fromcmy girlfriend and that's what has hurt the most since she's the person I care for the most. Doing erp doesnt bother me much either, which confuses me even more. I have been triggered in some moments, but most of the times exposures actually make me feel even better, not worst.
It feels easier to do erp with no-one around. Thinking about it erp is easy sometimes I actually forget I'm putting my self in the triggering situation. I did notice that I can feel down a couple days after. I dislike script writing for obvious reasons. Do you want to set a goal? We both do erp for something super hard all week everyday.
Jum... actually script writing es easier than exposing to images or videos. That's interesting jejej And honestly, I'm thankful for your challenge. It's nice to have someone who wants to do something together with this. It means the world. But I'll have to pass for now. I'm following a rythm with my exposures and I'd prefer to stick to it. Most of the times I can handdle it well. But when I force myself, it has backfired terribly. So I prefer not to push myself too much jajaj. I hope you can understand ?
I get it no problem! It's so funny this is my nature knock it out go hard. ? what happens is then I have these huge expectations and get impatient and frustrated. The scripts make me cringe. But then I'm sure it all does.?
That's why I want to improve my scritpts. They are not triggering me like I think they should. I think I need to make them more "descriptive" and think them more "vividly". Im sure that would be very triggering...
Yes! Come to think of it your right. Hey do you have the book, Freedom from Obsessive compulsive disorder? By Jonathan Grayson.. He's pretty radical and has chapters on script writing.
No, I have like 2 others that are pretty good too. The Mindfulness Workbook for OCD is one of them. I'm interested in hour suggestion for the book though. I'll give it a look. Thank you very much?
Did shala nicely and Jon Hershfeld write it? I have it and their book. In fact a have a whole library in the subject!
Nice!! It was Hershfield and Tom Corboy. It actually pretty good. The mindfulness part seems like a goal I'd like to pursue. But I haven't gotten too commited into reading it and applying it yet.
take care of yourself. talk soon. ✌❤
Take care and resist compulsions (yeah, easier said than done, jajajaj)✌? ❤
Hahaha I'll try.
Learning to manage OCD is possible and its so freeing. I have my life back and I have tools that help me manage this when it tries to pop up. You’ll get there too! So worth it.
OCD hit me 12 years ago when I was in college, but I had no idea what was happening. I thought I might have been going crazy. I felt so lost, and I eventually fell into a deep depression. If you can relate to this, know that you’re not alone - I get it, and I can also tell you that there’s hope. Once you have the tools to manage OCD, things can become so much better! For me personally, getting effective treatment helped me get my life back, and still helps me manage OCD every day. From there, I began to find myself again. I felt like Allison again. I could start doing the things I love again. If you knew in 4 months from now you wouldn’t be as bothered by OCD, what would you do first?
So I’ve been struggling to write this down. The truth about OCD is that it sucks. I get weird thoughts and they stick. And because I can’t confirm their weird thoughts i get stuck in a cycle of rumination. That’s my compulsion. I avoid people and situations because I think I’m a bad person. Which ultimately drove me into depression and more. The verdict is this: you can’t make a thought go away. You can accept it as a thought even if you feel doubt about accepting it and letting it be there. Fake it till you make it. I’m faking it everyday and I’ve grown so much since staring my exposure therapies. Don’t avoid your exposures. They become so easy like water. The hardest part is starting. Rumination is a choice - believe it or not. I go, wait a minute wait a minute, I don’t want to keep figuring this out. And I feel the train tracks move and my mind goes else where. This is with therapy. This is with holding on to my last string of hope. And to make this easier for all of you. I’m a mother. My ocd has made my life harder because I have a tiny human who relies on me. I had a horrible childhood with the main billion still in my life. I’ve accepted it. Accept and move on. Work out for 5 min a day. Buy a new gym outfit that makes u feel hot!! Eat something different like a good quality chocolate bar ( a piece ) enjoy it!!!! Chew it slowly. Drink some water. Listen to your heart not your OCD . We don’t need compulsions, you will get there and one day believe it. Live with ocd like you don’t care! You’ve gotten this far. Rewrite your story this year. Start again everyday. And take it day by day… Build your peace and remember, nobody has the motivation to get out of bed, it’s about building good habits and discipline. Start preparing your meals for thanksgiving. Give charity, pray to god once a day. Tell him your letting him take over. Now get up and , 1,2, ready set GO.
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