I have to always repeat to myself that I’m not trans

yes same!

Nope it doesnt indeed but she doesnt feel boyish from the start. Like if she, since she was a young girl was into boys stuff thats all cool and i think she would call herself a tomboy. But ocd makes u doubt deeply to the point u just start questioning everything but u mean it. So im pretty sure she never thoughr of being trans before and that it didnt fit with her. There is nothing wrong with it but its more thst she doesnt feel comfortable with being something shes not. Her brain is forcing her into believing shes something shes not. Like imagine a trans person forcing themselves to be a certain gender, it aint healthy and it aint natural. Its jusr like that with her but the other way around. She aint trans but shes forcing it upon herself and she believes it which makes her anxious. Thats why she keeps reassuring herself with im not trans. Its not that shes actually closeted as trans its just that she doesnt want to fall for the lies her brain keep telling her. This girl probably is not a tomboy and even if she is she used to be proud to be a girl. Deep down she still is but right now her ocd is taking control over her telling that she might be a boy. She is anxious because she feels like everything she knew suddenly changes into something she aint used to. Its very similar to what i experience so i know what she feels. Its a very uncomfortable position to be in.

@hocdgirlsummer Hello! Thanks for the support. I was really really girly as a child and when I turned 11 I had this idea that I had to be as boyish as I possibly can. I even used 2 tell people I was a boy (I cut my hair short) and I was very proud to be a tomboy (even though I knew I was faking it). I went to the EXTREME to prove to people I was a tomboy. I used to always imagine myself as a woman in the future. I didn’t exactly like my boobs and I didn’t like being in swimsuits but I feel like that was a body hair thing. I wanna be a girl but I feel like I have to transition. I can’t tell if I’ve secretly accepted that I’m trans or that I’ve just accepted uncertainty :/

@margo1 I get u! I notice alot of people also got ocd from something we used to do when we were young u know. it makes me realize that we just put so much meaning to it while other people let go of it. I hope one day we will able to do that

@hocdgirlsummer I feel like I got tocd because it was an easy target

@margo1 Because you were an easy target? How do u mean, were u not that mentally stable before?

My mind says the opposite