I’m afraid that these false attractions/feelings and my thoughts are real

You experience it too? How have you been!

@advice? I used to experience it and it made me really anxious and depressed , but I’m so much better now :) I’ve recovered since then and I know you can too ❤️ I support you 100% , if you ever need anything feel free to hmu on snap

@xiiiandreww Thank you, Do you still get intrusive thoughts here and there?

@advice? Sadly yeah :(( especially lately

@xiiiandreww You recovered?

@GummyDrop I did !

@xiiiandreww But intrusive thoughts relating to hocd?

@advice? Yeah

@advice? Not doubts but images that make me wild uncomfortable ??‍♂️

@xiiiandreww Ohh okay

@advice? Yeah I’m good atm though. How are you atm

@xiiiandreww Bad, it just feels like I am attracted to them. But I have no desire not do I want to do anything with them. It’s just the thoughts are makes me think I like it.

@xiiiandreww Yeah sometimes I make up the images to test myself

@advice? It wouldn’t be OCD if it didn’t feel like you liked them , I know that feeling absolutely sucks. But feelings are deceiving and can change , try your hardest to welcome the thoughts and doubts , because by doing that you’re brain is becoming used to not fighting against them so the misfiring in it won’t be as intense as time goes on

@xiiiandreww I don’t like the images but I make myself think of the images to test myself

@GummyDrop Never a good idea. That’s how the fear is reinforced , and even if you get the reassurance you want , your fear will just shift to something else. The cycle isn’t broken , it’s just transformed. What you really have to try to do is accept the thoughts as just thoughts and not engage with them

@xiiiandreww What do you mean by “ it wouldn’t be ocd if it didn’t feel like you liked it?”

@GummyDrop thinking you like or enjoy the intrusive thoughts is one of the major symptoms of OCD. I don’t know of anyone with OCD who knows for sure they don’t like them ... most people with it are convinced they like the images.

@xiiiandreww Yeah same I get convinced that I like the images but when my mind is calm and I feel better then I for sure know I don’t like those thoughts( I hope I don’t enjoy these thoughts)

@GummyDrop Yeah that’s usually how it works ?? you’re gonna get through this , keep on persevering and be kind to yourself always

@xiiiandreww I hate myself and I’m starting to have a negative mindset and I’m started to realize I’m meaner to others, I want things to change, this is not who I want to become

@GummyDrop You have to forgive yourself , everyone is mean or rude at some point in their life. Are you sure you’re actually mean or could it be your OCD making you think you are ? Either way it doesn’t have to define you :)

@xiiiandreww Ocd is making me sad and everytime someone bothers me I get mad

@advice? Do you ever see a picture of someone naked of the same sex? It makes me like it and it’s making me look over and over to see if it’s true

@GummyDrop Try not to look at anymore pictures , that only gives you relief for a little until your brain moves onto another doubt. No amount of reassurance will ever work

@xiiiandreww No I looked at it by accident, it popped up by itself and now I’m trigger cause this I causeing so much distressing and it makes me seem like I like it and idk if i do or not

@GummyDrop Oh ok , the result will be the same every time when you do that. Which is that you’ll never be 100% certain.

@xiiiandreww And that causes distress cause I’ve never wanted to be gay

Same what?

@GummyDrop That i am afraid my the false attractions/feelings and my thoughts are real. But i still know they are not

@Asnku Yeah this is messing my life up, before I’ve never even called a girl pretty and had a huge crush on a boy, now I make lesbian stuff up to test if I like it or not, it’s worry’s me when I see a girl in a bikini my brain makes me think I like it but I make a cringe face as if my thoughts don’t match my emotions. That’s is annoying