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I have this theme, these thoughts, and these doubts. It’s so hard, but the only thing that worked for me was intense ERP and accepting the unknown. You’ve got this. ❤️
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@Breanna thank you!!
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I have these exact thoughts!I wouldn’t go near rope, or anything that could potentially harm. I wrapped myself in blankets to feel safe from myself and eventually like yours made me question my entire mental health. I would ask myself if I am depressed etc, even though I knew I was not. Besides the point, you have to be super patient with yourself with this form of ocd. It took me six months to get close to stopping these thoughts which developed into existential ocd. But honestly taking about sui** was the most helpful thing. Talking about every thought, and taking in day by day. Maybe you are suic**** maybe your not, but what you do know is that you are still alive right now.
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@Anais V thank you sooo very much. i’m currently and have been for a while with what you were.
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I deal with this exact thing!!! Many, other than this community, don’t understand the reality of living with these thoughts 95% of the time. It’s exhausting to live it and even more exhausting to explain!! I’m in ERP working on this (and3000 other thoughts 😅) which helps to know I simply have an outlet. Talking about it and sharing it with others has made me feel not alone, not like an anomaly who was meant to d*e. Something I rarely see people mention as a skill is journaling both when I feel these thoughts, but more importantly when I feel my best. When I’m at my worst, I look back at the moments I’ve journaled and felt true happiness. It helps me to understand that I WILL have happy thoughts again and these s*****al thoughts WILL pass.
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@Anonymous YES YES!! thank you!! i hope all is well
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- 25w
Hi, I believe you when you say you treasure your life because OCD preys on anything that we value! What would it take you you to get back into treatment? You deserve to have peace in your life. Try replacing urges to ruminate on the with accepting uncertainty. For ex, instead of ruminating, think "maybe this is true, maybe not" or "I can accept the uncertainty of these thoughts." We are here for you at treatmyocd.com, and I hope you will reach out!
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- 25w
Starting in high school, I became very suicidal, and it became my “safety net” of all went wrong. I know it’s dark, but I was in a really bad head space and I saw suicide as my escape if I couldn’t fix my life. It got to the point where I was constantly thinking about suicide (literally every day, multiple times a day). Over the last year, I’ve gotten better and I think about it less. But then my OCD grabbed hold of it…. Now, if I do something wrong or embarrassing or if I struggle in a social situation (which is often 😅), my mind says “kys”, “jump off a bridge”, and so on. It’s like an automatic response with my OCD and it makes me so uncomfortable… I’m trying to get better. I don’t want to die. Sure, I still get pretty low, but I always push the thoughts away now instead of welcoming them like I used to. But with the intrusive thoughts being nearly constant now, it’s kind of scary. I dont know what to do to make them stop since the intrusive thoughts are just so automatic at the slightest feeling of discomfort. I have a therapist, but I dont know how to bring this up with her. I’m too nervous to even admit to suicidal thoughts, not to mention the intrusive thoughts they’ve turned into. It kind of feels like it’ll never go away.
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Hello, I’m in undergrad and recently was diagnosed with OCD. Its a very new diagnosis and it’s both been stressful and relieving to receive it. Looking back at my past I’ve been able to explain a lot of behavioral issues that I thought were simply attributed to me being “crazy”. It’s comforting to know it’s something that others struggle with and that there are set coping mechanisms and treatments for it. There are a number of thing of which I obsessively think about, and it’s been getting really hard to deal with all of them. The most troubling are my thoughts toward suicide. I can’t stop thinking about it. There’s not really any intent, it’s just like my brain has tuned into a frequency that plays in the background at all times. Usually though this leads to more dangerous behaviors, and so I always try to do any preventative work to keep myself safe. As for the asking for advice portion of this post, what do you all do to combat unending loops of thought? Because I’m so new to my diagnosis, my therapist and I haven’t found good strategies for me yet, outside of just labeling those thoughts as OCD in an attempt to delegitimize them.
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does anyone else with this theme feel like their suic. ocd skyrockets when something in your life happens?? i’ve been doing so good managing these thoughts and not panicking, but i had a event happen in my life and all of them are back hitting hard. i’m arguing with myself on whether im actually depressed or not and “what if this means my thoughts are real”, it’s all what if thoughts, but because ive been doing so good with them, what if they are real this time? like im panicking again because im scared they are real? like i’m not depressed im just going through a few things right now. idk what it is. but i really need tips on how to help with setbacks and what to do to stop myself from arguing with my mind when i already know the truth.
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