squirrelobsessed

Date posted: 7w ago

Panicking and feel back at stage one

Earlier I posted about trying to get back to sitting on my sofa without a blanket covering it. And I did it, but now my day has been ruined. I left for two seconds and my cat decided to sit there, so now it's not clean anymore. This is because sometimes she's had number two stuck to her and no longer trust that she's clean. It took so much for me to just do that and sit without a blanket and now I'm just so done. I'm also scared to walk anywhere in my house. We sometimes get slugs in our conservatory and I don't walk in there anymore because there can be slug slime trails (it's carpet). The thing is, my mum regularly goes in there, my dad too. And then they proceed to walk around the rest of the house without changing shoes or anything. I'm just panicking because I was having a good day and now I feel like I'm isolated to my bedroom.

Contamination OCD

Meryn

Date posted: 7w ago

There’s many spots in my house that I don’t sit, touch, go to anymore. Because they are “contaminated” in my eyes. My mind will make up little stories of things that could happen in those places and I play out the scenes of those things happening for example. My sister clipped her toe nails in my bathroom the other day and obviously she put her nails in the trash afterwards, but my mind made me believe she clipped her nails over the toilet and if I went in there to use the toilet I would get nails on my … you know where… and I would get some freaky unknown skin disorder. So I had to go in there and clean the whole toilet before I used it…. It’s crazy and these scenarios that play in my mind are crazy.. I also just isolate myself in my room because of it cause my room is always clean and safe to me.

squirrelobse...

Date posted: 7w ago

This really resonates with me, I also often clean the toilet and bathroom before I go in, and it's exhausting 😞

🖤SavageGirl🖤

Date posted: 7w ago

Number one, YOU'RE BRITISH????? Sorry, that's just really cool to me <3

squirrelobse...

Date posted: 7w ago

Haha I am, thank you that cheered me up ☺️😭

🖤SavageGirl🖤

Date posted: 7w ago

@squirrelobsessed - Awwwww <3 I'm- bleh- American ><

squirrelobse...

Date posted: 7w ago

@SavageGirl Ahh that's so cool I love meeting people from other places! Best wishes from england ☺️☺️☺️☺️

🖤SavageGirl🖤

Date posted: 7w ago

@squirrelobsessed - Best of wishes from Midwest America I've been to almost all 50 states

🖤SavageGirl🖤

Date posted: 7w ago

@squirrelobsessed - If you ever wanna know more about America, I got ya. <3

squirrelobse...

Date posted: 7w ago

@SavageGirl Ahh I love learning about America! I've got a kind of story thing that I've written that I've set in America (don't ask why I did that 😭😭) and I'm obsessed with everything about it 😭😭 which state are you from? ☺️☺️

🖤SavageGirl🖤

Date posted: 7w ago

@squirrelobsessed - I'M WRITING A FANTASY BOOK!!!! Illinois

🖤SavageGirl🖤

Date posted: 7w ago

@squirrelobsessed - You wanna email??

🖤SavageGirl🖤

Date posted: 7w ago

@squirrelobsessed - If not, no problem

🖤SavageGirl🖤

Date posted: 7w ago

@squirrelobsessed - I'll probably be off in about 10 min

squirrelobse...

Date posted: 7w ago

@SavageGirl OMG FANTASY BOOK SOUNDS SO COOL! Sure we can email :)

🖤SavageGirl🖤

Date posted: 7w ago

@squirrelobsessed - It's about a prince and a siren (she has bpd, like me <3). He is the only one that can talk with her because of his royal blood.

🖤SavageGirl🖤

Date posted: 7w ago

@squirrelobsessed - I just realized it's almost 9:30 for you (3:30 here), so if you're going to/are in bed, I pray that you sleep well <3

squirrelobse...

Date posted: 7w ago

@🖤SavageGirl🖤 That sounds like such a cool story!

🖤SavageGirl🖤

Date posted: 7w ago

@squirrelobsessed - Thank you! Did I get the time right? I looked up what it was in London at the time.

🖤SavageGirl🖤

Date posted: 7w ago

@squirrelobsessed - I did put my email in the comments

squirrelobse...

Date posted: 7w ago

@🖤SavageGirl🖤 Hi sorry! The time was about right yeah, and I don't see any comment with email, maybe it didn't let it post :(

🖤SavageGirl🖤

Date posted: 7w ago

Honestly, I think this is just a long panic episode. I need you to breathe and remember how far you've come. Yes, you are scared, but this fear will pass.

Meryn

Date posted: 7w ago

^^^ but we gotta remember it’s all in the head and are body is made to withstand and fight possible things that get in us, touch us, infect us. Most of the time what we think won’t happen and we will be fine so I had to tell myself that and most of the places I “couldn’t go” In my house i started going and getting over the fear. And over time I realized it wasn’t all that bad.. I’m fine, my body’s fine. I’m not infected by the freaky skin eating disease my brain made up. All of us OCD Kings and Queens go through it and we will break this habits we just gotta go do what we fear and find out that in the end it wasn’t all that bad. ♥️♥️

🖤SavageGirl🖤

Date posted: 7w ago

HELL YEAH!!! BEAT THAT OCD'S ASS

holygrohly

Date posted: 7w ago

I've been where you are, literally I would have to put some barrier down wherever I sat and I started worrying about the floors being contaminated bc my family would walk around with their shoes on. I also have a dog and I was obsessed with accidentally touching her butt, so I stopped interacting with her. Through three months of therapy, I can now sit places without a barrier, I now let my dog jump on my bed with me sometimes, and I don't obsess about germs as much anymore. More like, it's easier to dismiss my thoughts and remember it's ocd. I never thought I would make it this far, but I have. I'm doing so much better. If I can do it, you can too. Things will get better ❤️

Kellymerellie

Date posted: 21w ago

Dog Urine

I have contamination OCD and sometimes I don't feel like cleaning. I have a huge pile of blankets on my floor that feel contaminated and I have two dogs and seven cats. I don't really touch them anymore like I used to since my OCD got worse. One of my dogs like to pee on my floor a lot and sometimes I'm too lazy to clean it, because I'd have to get the carpet shampooer out and actually clean. Sometimes I do it because I don't want to wash my hands over and over, so I just avoid it. Now I'm scared that the dry urine is on my feet and are now in my bed. I know that I should just say well maybe it did or maybe it didn't and just go about my day, but it's hard. For the people who conquered contamination OCD how did you get through stuff like this? Thank you in advance to anyone who answers my post.

nae nae

Date posted: 16w ago

I'm sorry. Just need to vent. :(

This might contain triggering content, but I'm also wondering if others have dealt with this similar thought, and if so, how to deal with it? Overall, I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm able to eat again, which I hadn't been able to do because of how much anxiety I'd been experiencing. I'm spending time around loved ones and not just rotting in my room, and I've been able to wake up without immediately being bombarded by intrusive thoughts. When things first got really bad, I'd wake my mom up every night for reassurance, but I haven't done that in a while either. I'm really proud of myself, but there's still this nagging thought in my mind... While looking through others posts on here, hoping to find advice that'd fit my situation, I ended up making things worse. Someone mentioned how they had a fear that they'd purposely search for illegal content (related to POCD). I panicked, and "what ifs" flooded my thoughts. "What if the intrusive thoughts affect who I am as a person, and I do that?" I'm terrified that I'll search for those things, which I know means I wouldn't do it. But then, another person on here said they'd actually looked for those things, and that freaked me out even more. Does that mean it's possible for that to happen to me? I don't want to do that, but I keep having intrusive thoughts surrounding it. I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm just... stuck. I don't know what to do. I've spoken with other people who have the same fears, but how do I manage this? It's not something I've even thought about before seeing those posts. I've been practicing accepting the uncertainty, but I'm really struggling with this one. I hate this. This morning, I woke up, and the intrusive thoughts were back. It's just disheartening.

Anonymous

Date posted: 12w ago

Can't be home alone. How can I over come ?

It's been a year since I've been able to stay home alone. I don't know how to fight this. I feel like the world will collapse on me. That the house will cave in. Or I'll just lose my mind and scream and run outside screaming and saying the world is falling type thing. I don't know how to help myself. I'm to scared to even try to be alone. I have to have my son 18 stay home with me or my aunt stay with me when my son does leave. It's horrible. I feel like I'm holding my son back from so much. I don't know how to beat this. Please help

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Share your thoughts so the Community can respond

Panicking and feel back at stage one

Related posts

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Be a part of the largest OCD Community