i feel fake

@Someone99 not yet, i will have it later this day

@Someone99 southeastern europe, its 14:31 as im writing this comment

@Someone99 and my appointment is at 17:00

@Someone99 hi, im home now, she wanted to know more about my past and everything, i told her how it stared and things about my past childhood friendships, she told me its all about the fear i have. We didnt have that much time bc it was only 1 hour but she gave me some homework. to write in a book my thoughts and feelings and then read it and write a conclusion , some grounding techniques and some breathing exercises to do when i am calm. She didnt gave me a diagnostic on what i have but told me fear and the fear of the sensation that panic attacks its what gets to me. Also she asked me if i have thyroid problems which i had 2 years ago but i had a surgery and i am ok now

@Someone99 and she told me she want me to calm myself on my own without the help of anyone and anything, and everything i have is a big fear of it being true. But im still so scared i dont actually love him and that i lost feelings, in supe scared

@Someone99 thank you for this. i think he is a bit over all of this bc he is directly affected, he keeps telling me that the change is in me and i shall not depend on therapy, and says my problem is that, i am keep waiting for the time i am heal (heald??? idk how to spell lol) instead of taking action

@Someone99 im so scared and i am writing in my notebook and in scarrd in actually in denial and that i dont like him and that i am a liar and it feels real and im super scared