Afraid I’ll never be able to stop thinking

@Rhiannonkemmer This is the mother of all OCD loops, lol

@Anonymous This post made me feel less alone yk?

@Rhiannonkemmer You are definitely not alone. We can both get through this!! We are helping each other

@Patrick McGrath Thank you so much for replying. I have been actively leaning into my thoughts. It’s like I knew what to do the whole time but could not do it. It’s essentially made my thoughts very boring. It did cause a bit of de realization, I think that’s just a byproduct of so much change happening in my life. But ultimately, the anxiety that came with the thoughts, isn’t there anymore. If that makes sense. I am going on very little sleep, so! lol

@Patrick McGrath And you are so right in saying that not eating not sleeping is so much worse.

Iam sorry i hope you will get help ❤️

@jezabel2002 Have you had your session with the therapist? Do you have medications? I’m sorry you’re going through this.

@Anonymous nocd doesn’t accept my insurance unfortunately, so i’ve just been using the community tab. i’m on one medication right now pristiq which helped a lot. but i went through some triggering moments recently and it’s been really difficult to get over this episode, i struggle with existential and false memory ocd. it’s horrifying but i’m slowly getting better!

@jezabel2002 I’m having meta ocd. 😬

@CobraMan Oh really? Which medication? Right now I have a benzo for it but it’s done nothing.

@Anonymous I take Zoloft for the ocd and my doctor prescribed Vistaril and seroquel before bed. I’m not sure which of the three is having the biggest effect

@CobraMan I was prescribed Lexapro, but I’m scared to take it. Lol. I’m highly avoidant and would prefer mental fortitude, but admittedly, I may need medication.

@Anonymous I feel the same way but I went to the hospital last week and my fortitude went out the window

@CobraMan That’s where I’m at right now. I’m gonna take it. Hopefully no side effects. It’s very low dose. 5mg

@Ian Reeder I have an appointment tomorrow. Thankfully

@Anonymous Great job taking on your OCD!

@Speckles Hi, I’m sad to see that you’re hurting so bad. Today I went onto YouTube and found some pretty great videos. I started leaning in, hard, to my OCD thoughts. I validated my thoughts. I told myself these things were going to happen. The rest of the day I have been feeling a little derealization, but I am not perpetuating the OCD thoughts. They are there, I acknowledge them, but they do not play any part in my life because I am validating them. You need to tell your brain that this thought is boring essentially. Do it over and over and over again, even if it feels uncomfortable. Even if it feels like the worst thing ever. Just keep going. Tell yourself it will happen. Tell yourself it sucks. Don’t make yourself feel better. I hope everyone can see this and I hope it helps

@Anonymous Thank you for getting back to me. I'm sorry you are going thru this too, but glad to hear you are coping with the thoughts. I'm going to try what you suggested. I hope I can just tell myself the thoughts bore me, so I'm not so distressed.

@Speckles Let me know. It helped me within hours. I went on a walked, looped my OCD thoughts constantly while simultaneously telling myself “yes this is going to happen, oh well” For instance: for the past week, I’ve been really sad and low at night. So I told myself over and over that I would be sad tonight. And that it would totally suck. And that it might even eat me alive. I leaned into. Joked to myself about it. Within that hour walk it got better. I’m around 5 hours out and I’m totally comfortable. So far.

@Anonymous Thank you, but my husband wants me out by Sat. if I don't change. I'm having a hard time getting out of bed, so he said he's gonna take me to a home. I'm very scared. He said he can't deal with it anymore.

@Speckles It sounds like you don’t have a good support system. How long have things been like this? Is there anyone else you can reach out to?

@Speckles Do you feel like you were better in the hospital?

@Speckles Are you on medication?

@Speckles You are stronger than this. I promise.

@Anonymous I didn't feel that much better in the hospital. I'm on Lexapro and Wellbutrin. I don't feel strong at all right now, but thanks for getting back to me. I appreciate it!