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Hello, im a 21ye old male. All of my life i was always atrscted to girls, even if it was only a hug by a girl i liked i got a boner. I always fantasised about doing fun stuff (not onyl sex) with my gf. Had a gf for almost two years. Two months ago i fell into severe anxiety about my sexuality changing. It happened to me 2 years ago bit then i had my gf and i did not need to worry if i will find a girl i love or will i be able to because i already had her. The toughts were realy intense but they faded and for 2 years i did not experience any doubts or fears about it. Then it happened again in december. For 2-3 weeks i was realy down...constant toughts about doing things with men i never wanted to do, fear that i liked someone, fear of denial...but them bc of getting back with my girlfriend it was okay for three weeks almosf. Then we broke up again and after a few days i had the worst days of my life. I felt like i actually changed, i did not know what to do. Then after a week I went out with a girl and when she laid on me when we wafched a show I got aroused like i always did with my ex. I felt such relief and i could handle my fears and anxiety for almost a month. Then a week ago the fear returned and i am again in a very bad spot, i dont know what else to do, i have no girl that i love, i am afraid i will never be able to experience those same feelings and moment that i had with my ex and then again the toughts of being in denial came back. I dont know what to do. My psychiatrist said i dont have ocd but onyl simptoms and that my anxiety is the proboem. Any one experienced something similar? Thanks

Sexual Orientation OCD

Anonymous

Date posted: 41w

Felt this exact way I broke up with my now wife because of the feelings of denial or lack of feelings that I love ocd doesn’t make sense what can I say But the more that you check for those feelings of love or connection the less you will have them bc your trying to find them what I would say is find a girl that aligns with your morales and accept that those feelings will be there the truth is everyone will feel like that at some point in a relationship it’s just that ocd amplifies it by 10 I’m not saying it will ever go away completely but with therapy and work you can have a very loving relationship

ntr

Date posted: 41w

@Anonymous Thank you, but the problem is that she has moved on and im stuck in this cycle of trying to prove to myself that im not homosexual. Never in 21yrs of my life did it think of something like that except 2yrs ago i had a simmilar fear but it went away after a month or two and bc i had i girlfriend that i realy loved and enjoyed being with it was easier to deal with since i did not need to worry about wether ill feel love for another girl. These toughts are so intense sometimes that i feel like im trully in denial and i dont know what fo do anymore since that proof doesnt work anymore.

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