I started having intrusive thoughts about my sexuality when I got into a relationship with my ex and I wondered if it would seemingly go away but it hasn’t and I find myself ruminating about it constantly especially before or during my period. Has anyone else felt with this?
My psychiatrist says it comes and goes. I know for me when it really started back up one day I was ok and the next it was like I got hit in the face with a sledgehammer and there was a troll goblin in my head screaming these horrible intrusive thoughts at me about something I didn’t have any doubts about leading up to it. Then klonopins became my best friends and I laid in bed for a month freaking out and staring at the wall with my husband trying to figure out how to help me. It was even more horrible than it sounds.
yes all the time! i constantly worry and check and ruminate about it. I also have never had a bf or really kissed anyone so i overthink it all the time
I relate to this so much omg! It's so difficult!
Hey there, thanks for your question! Like your fellow community Members already shared, this can be a common experience. Here's an article on the topic, https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/info/ocd-stats-and-science/can-a-hormone-imbalance-cause-intrusive-thoughts. Additionally, I'm going to link a few resources on challenging the rumination compulsion. I hope they help! https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/5-strategies-for-breaking-the-cycle-of-rumination https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UXIllLvRUZE&t=2s
Hi @Retta_712 , This can be a very hard thing to navigate and feel very isolating. Just by posting this here you have seen that you are not alone and you have helped others feel that as well. If you can think it, OCD can attack it. Transgender OCD is the spiraling of thoughts around trying to solve for gender, "am I male, female, nonbinary, and what if I feel different at some other point in the future..." When therapists work with someone with this expression of OCD we do not help them solve for their gender identity, instead, we turn down the volume and frequency of the questioning. Here's a good article on this https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/transgender-ocd-symptoms-and-treatment Please know you are not alone. We have therapists here ready to support you and groups even for folks who have OCD and in the LBTQIA+ community.
Hi everyone, I wanted to reach out to see if anyone else has experienced something similar with OCD and intrusive thoughts. I’ve been struggling during moments of intimacy because intrusive thoughts, particularly ones related to POCD, feel so ‘sticky’—like they’re all I can picture. Even though I really want the thoughts to go away, they persist, and I’ve been trying not to avoid intimacy because of them. However, that makes me feel like I’m somehow ‘enjoying’ the thoughts or images, which I really dislike. It’s like my brain is playing this awful trick, and it’s leaving me feeling confused and gross. I guess I’m supposed to not let the thoughts bother me and continue as if nothing’s wrong, but I’m scared that by doing so, I’m almost training myself to get off to them or something. This fear makes it so hard to trust myself in those moments, and it’s been overwhelming. If anyone else has been through this, how do you handle it?
I’m 25 and never ever thought this before my soocd relapse. I have a bf of 5 years. Never been a high libido kinda girl. Don’t get me wrong I do get turned on by my bf but not like every day you know? - That had always been in the back of my head, is this normal and ok? But my ocd has latched onto the most scariest what if EVER. My brain is now saying How do you know you won’t prefer to sleep and kiss girls if you haven’t tried it: and it’s that unknown that is scaring the shit out of me. I DONT AND NEVER HAVE wanted to sleep / kiss a girl. But now my intrusive thoughts is all I think about!!! I don’t want I don’t want I don’t want??? So why does my brain think BUT WHAT IF??? I know ocd thrives off uncertainty which is why I think this is happening? But I don’t wanna find out or work it out because all I want is to be with my bf and marry him!! Is this just the epitome of OCD?
I’ve been struggling with something that’s been really overwhelming, and I’m hoping to get some perspective from others here. I feel a lot of guilt about it, and I’m not sure if I’m alone in this experience. Lately, I’ve found myself daydreaming about romantic situations or getting caught up in ‘what if’ scenarios—where I wonder if I could develop feelings for someone else, or if someone develops feelings for me. The thing is, I’m in a relationship that I love, and I don’t want to act on these thoughts at all. What makes it even harder is that these thoughts often hyperfixate on one specific friend, and sometimes they feel entertaining or give me a dopamine rush. But then, of course, I feel even more guilty because it makes me feel like I’m betraying my boyfriend. These thoughts usually happen when I’m upset and looking for comfort, but then they morph into romantic scenarios, which makes me feel so disloyal. I’m constantly going back and forth between feeling curious or entertained by the thoughts and then feeling horrible for even allowing them to happen in the first place. I keep confessing these thoughts to my boyfriend, and he tries to be understanding. He’s just never been the type to daydream, so he doesn’t know if this is something other people experience or if it’s just me. I feel like such an awful girlfriend. Has anyone else dealt with something like this?
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