Lately I have been struggling with binge eating in an odd way I haven’t experienced before. I have been eating a bunch more each night because “it could be my last meal” and I’m not sure how to break the cycle. I’m not hungry, but I force myself because my brain is telling me I’ll never get to experience that again. Has anyone else experienced anything similar?
I’ve dealt with food OCD too. Why do you need to eat more if it’s your last meal?
@dono98 I need to take advantage of it being my last meal so I eat whatever I can find until I feel sick and gross. I weighed myself today and realized I’ve gained 13 pounds in the last month.
@thegooeydisk Are you trying to make sure you’re not wasting any food? Like use it all and get your money’s worth?
@dono98 Not necessarily, I just eat so much because I feel like I’ll never get to eat in that way again. Which isn’t true because I am fortunate enough to eat what I want at any time, but I can’t stop myself.
Hi Thegooeydisk, thank you for sharing this—it’s very brave of you to be so vulnerable. I can relate to this a lot. OCD and eating disorders can be comorbid, and I experienced something similar with just-right OCD. If I ate too much, I would feel bad, which triggered an eating disorder. I worked with a therapist to help me navigate this. Have you seen anyone for support?
@AnonymityK I’m so sorry to hear that, but I do feel better knowing I’m not the only one and there is help. I haven’t gotten with a therapist yet, but that is the next step I want to take!
@thegooeydisk That’s great next step. 💕 I wish you luck in your journey!
@AnonymityK Thank you so much! 🤗
Hi thegooeydisk, OCD and eating issues are really common. I am going to link an article that may help you have a better understanding of what is going on. Have you tried using non-engagement around the thoughts of it being your last meal? Here is the article: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/the-relationship-between-ocd-and-eating-disorders
@Shawna Ecklind I have not! Thank you so much for this!
I definitely deal with this! I eat because of my anxiety. The more anxious I am, the more I eat.
@Anonymous2122 Is there anything that helps you deal with this?
@thegooeydisk Honestly no. I hope to find something to help; I really want to start being more active
@Anonymous2122 I hope you achieve that! I actually went to the gym this morning for the first time in almost a year. I had a tough night of self hate and reflection. If I do binge eat again at least I’m trying my best to stay active. I’m going to find a therapist on here soon before it gets worse.
Recently, I’ve been struggling a ton with what I eat/put into my body? I’m a first year college student with a few different health issues (including IBS), and lately it’s been hard for me to find food on campus that doesn’t upset my stomach. I also have pretty severe emetophobia, and feel extremely anxious when I feel sick. The ironic thing is that being anxious makes me feel even worse, so I end up sticking myself in an impossible loophole. My OCD has taken hold of these fears over the past few months, and it’s been such a struggle. Especially since people have been getting food poisoning from various dining halls on my campus lately. My OCD has gotten so bad that sometimes I’m too afraid to eat food other than what I buy myself. I feel so trapped. I don’t want my OCD to affect my physical health or prevent me from eating, bc I love eating!! It’s the fear of getting sick that’s the problem. And it’s even harder when everything is so unfamiliar. Just wondering if anyone could relate. Advice is appreciated!
Idk whats going on…my mental state hasnt been great these past two weeks. My eating is being affected in a neg way due to transition between therapists, school, and ignoring my sexuality….Ive been taking several different kinds of quizzes over the past week regarding mental health and ED and i realized that if i dont eat enough to feel full i’ll end up sick or worse dead. It doesn’t help that i also just started my period. And i just woke up in the middle of the night with food, hydration, and possibly not waking up in mind. And tried going back to sleep but then i realized that I might actually have a problem on my hands and that jolted me awake. Now im scared of sleeping and not making it through the night….i could easily get up and make myself an oatmeal even though im not hungry atm, but dont wanna wake family that are sleeping in the living room. Im scared of dropping more weight than I already have been and having my nutritionist intervene…. Im realizing that im fucking myself up from not eating well and being too picky and i wanna slap a bandaid on it and just eat everything to hopefully gain some weight before my next nutrition appt. I’m just scared of things getting worse….is this part of OCD or is it just me just plain out ignoring my body cos in feeling like it??? Idk what to believe about myself anymore….
Does any one else struggle with eating when on a ocd spiral ( that’s what I call them ) I go through periods where I can’t stand the feeling of food in my body but idk I smoke weed and that helps the thought to go purge everything I don’t know if that’s my ocd or a eating disorder 🫠
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