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Harm
Does anyone feel like when they have a baby when there older that the want to hurt them abuse them or k!ll them?
Does anyone feel like when they have a baby when there older that the want to hurt them abuse them or k!ll them?
I’m recovering from this where I had a fear of being alone with my toddler, because I thought I would snap and hurt her. This isnt all the time but in high stress moments with work especially I get those thoughts. I was so ashamed because I never heard of harm ocd but researching it, which unfortunately is a compulsion of mine as well, helped me understand that it exists. I’m in therapy now which is also helpful along with medication. I make myself be alone with them to not give in to the fear. But when it’s happening it’s so so scary. I feel deeply for anyone experiencing this.
@Bingo4231! Exactly this and still on and off two years on . It’s truly horrible or when I say night to her a horrible I wish comes In so I’m bad again at the moment after few stressful months something so silly n simple has made me relapse x
Yes, I’m 30 and I’ve always wanted to be a mother and when we considered starting a family recently I was diagnosed with OCD. So we put that on hold for now. Just because I’m really in the thick of it at the moment. I don’t want to give you reassurance, as that is a big compulsion of many, myself included, but I will say that the OCD monster attacks what you care about most. It directly goes against your values and it will make your world smaller and smaller if you let it. I let my world get smaller before I realized I had OCD and now I’m working to fight back to where I was before. You’re not alone.
Hi Emma_cool! I second UUCM - This worry can be very common in OCD. Not only is it scary to consider, it’s also impossible to answer with the level of certainty that OCD demands (100%, absolute, unquestionable certainty.) It can be pretty easy to fall into a rumination trap trying to get reassurance around a fear like this, which is why it’s important to get some guidance and support in the process. If you’re not already in ERP treatment, I would encourage you to look into it and see if it sounds like a good fit. You can reach out to the NOCD care team and schedule a call through the homepage of this app :) Here are some articles that may be helpful - https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/fear-of-getting-pregnant-ocd https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/what-is-harm-ocd-guide-to-ocd-subtype
Yup! It's actually one of the main reasons I don't have kids (not the right answer because that's avoidance). I'm now at that "older" age of 38 and just genuinely don't want kids and neither does my wife. But if you want kids other than the worrying, then don't let OCD control your life and what you want.
Unfortunately yeah I have had this thought before but it’s the same as the other thoughts you have relating to harm OCD in my opinion.
I have all aspects of ocd and I won’t lie my has been horrific since my daughter for two years it’s really made it angry but please don’t put off having children if that’s what you want . It’s horrific and the guilt attached makes me suicidal but then I come out the other side it does happen lot since her tho x
Does anyone else experience this lingering fear and anxiety because they think they’re capable of hurting someone? It’s killing me. I feel like I’m such a danger. I feel like I’m a predator. I feel like this awful person and I can’t shake it. I want to carry on with my day but I can’t. I don’t feel like I deserve it. I feel like I’ve done awful things. I can’t stop crying.
Hey guys, I am having the worst HARM OCD episode I have had in a while. I am having disgusting, awful intrusive thoughts about harming others. It feels so real. It feels as if I am about to get up and just do it. The worst bit about it all Is I know I feel distressed and panicked. But where the thoughts are actually happening ( in my head) doesnt feel this feeling. This is making it feel worse as it really does feel like Im just going to do it. I am crying my eyes out because I know im petrified and dont want to hurt anyone im so scared. I have this terrible intrusive feeling in my that feels like its justifying the thoughts. Please can someone talk as I am scared Im crying I dont want know what to do I want this feeling gone I am so scared. I tell myself Id kill myself before hurting anyone else, but would i ? What if I actually do want to kill Please respond Im so scared
Does anyone imagine they are doing their harm thoughts during an action, making you feel like you acted on your thoughts? For example, someone gave me a hug and at the last second I imagined I was touching something I shouldn’t during the hug? I want to make it clear it’s something I have zero desire to do! But the problem is, I thought it on purpose and it makes me sick !! Obviously nothing happened but my mind is telling me that was me trying to do it. Even though it was physically impossible to do. Am I a monster or could this be OCD? I’m freaking out and don’t want to be here anymore. I feel like I’m the exception and that this isn’t OCD. I know I post about this stuff a lot but I’m struggling and don’t know what to do.
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