feeling like my thoughts are too unique

for the past few years i have been struggling with a certain theme of ocd as well as most of the other themes. but this one i have not figured out a good way to do my own form of erp or non-engaging responses. basically i will be daydreaming or thinking and have a very random thought. i wouldn’t call these thoughts intrusive thoughts because it’s not necessarily fear of the thoughts coming true, its just fear that my thoughts are too unique. my ocd will latch on to random or weird thoughts and may also add in that i was doing something weird while doing the thought. let’s say for example i thought of something random while i was rubbing my feet. then my ocd would be like “why are u having such a unique thought while doing something weird? nobody has ever thought about that specific thought while rubbing their feet before” (just an example). but basically it’s like my ocd bullies me for having thoughts that are too random and things i’ve never heard people talk about before if that makes sense. i am just trying to see if anyone relates even a little and how i can accept that everyone has unique thoughts.

djflorio

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 21w

If anyone were given the option to have their thoughts broadcasted on a loudspeaker, not a single person would take that offer 😂. You are most certainly not alone with this! It's estimated that the brain produces 2 novel's worth of thoughts every day, the vast majority of which are irrelevant and/or nonsensical. It's basically a thought-producing machine, designed to churn out thoughts completely subconsciously, in an attempt to make sense of the world around it. If you converted any human's thoughts to text and read it, it would look like completely incoherent babbling. The thoughts that make it to our conscious awareness are either relevant to our current situation, or they just randomly came to our attention for no particular reason. This happens to everyone, whether they have OCD or not. With OCD, the problem comes when we latch onto a thought and try to figure out what it means. As soon as you do that with any thought, you turn it into a threat, and you'll basically prime the brain to keep thinking that thought. Thus, intrusive thoughts are born. Hope this helps bring a different perspective.

jezabel2002

Date posted: 21w

i feel the exact same way omg i thought i was the only one!! it’s so frustrating when talking to other people about it

alex l

Date posted: 21w

@jezabel2002 i know it’s so frustrating to try and explain bc it’s not like intrusive thoughts that most people talk about related to ocd it’s like feeling bad about having super specific thoughts. so annoying

jezabel2002

Date posted: 21w

@alex l for me it feels very isolating, like i’m othered

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 25w

Maybe this is obvious but I need some insight pls

There’s something that happens that keeps me stuck in a thought, it’s when I can see some part of myself agreeing with or relating to it in some way. That’s when the doubt creeps in. If I can understand *why* the thought is there, doesn’t that mean it’s not just random? Doesn’t that mean it actually reflects something about me? For example **(TMI/TW)**: I had the thought, *“I wonder what other people’s kinks are (including friends, family, even teenagers).”* And then I caught myself thinking, *“Well, I guess that could be interesting information… maybe I wouldn’t even stop someone from sharing it with me. Does that mean I actually want to know? Wait—does that make me perverted or incestuous for even having this curiosity?”* The same thing has happened with other thoughts, like wondering what someone’s privates might look like. I recognize that, on some level, that could be interesting—but does that mean the thought is truly mine? Maybe the answer is super obvious and I just can’t see through my OCD smoke. This was a bit embarrassing for me to write 🥲, but can anyone provide some insight?

Anonymous

Date posted: 23w

Intrusive thoughts

I’ve had many types of OCD, but I gained control over them over the years, but a new one has started to arise. Do y’all ever have scary thoughts about something you might do? Recently I’ll get extremely uncomfortable no matter where I am because I can’t stop thinking about “what if I screamed really loud in my lecture class tomorrow?” And other stupid stuff like that. Also, this one is kind of funny, but sometimes when I use the bathroom I pause before because I think “what if I’m actually in class right now?” I also cannot control the thoughts about past embarrassing moments. I know everyone does, but I will become visibly uncomfortable and harp on something from years ago. This happens all throughout the day. Also, does anyone else do things that resemble tics when you get these thoughts. Like when they happen I’ll curse under my breath or like jerk my head a little bit. When I’m in public I keep it low key but when I’m alone sometimes I’ll physically get up and pace or something when those thoughts happen. Just curious if anyone has had these experiences

iLounge21

Date posted: 15w

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