Intrusive thoughts during self intimacy

Today has been really hard I feel like I can’t even breathe I feel like a pedo for real :( whenever i think during my alone time i try and coexist with it? but when i decided to think and think i panic and panic more and more i start feel more guilty guys I can’t take this anymore bc when I kinda feel certain it fades aways i think logically i know i probably am ok :( but it’s so scary for me what if i did actually act on the thought and I didn’t realize? And now reflecting it ???

POCD

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 20w

Your OCD is trying to make you feel guilty for doing what ERP would encourage you to do, which is, carry on with your life no matter what thoughts pop up in your mind. That’s the only way to take the power away from the thoughts. It’s not fair to you to stop what you are doing just because certain thoughts arise, and that goes for anything you are doing. If the action was different, for example, you might feel differently. For example let’s say you were eating and you imagine you were eating something else (like something you shouldn’t) you would probably be able to keep eating. Part of it is about what you were doing, but here’s the thing, any thoughts are allowed to show up when you have private time. Keep that in mind. You also cannot stop any thoughts from showing up, it’s literally impossible. Your brain can produce anything it wants and that doesn’t automatically mean you agree with it, it just means our brains can throw a lot of random stuff at us especially at the worst times. Also, try to remind yourself that thoughts are not reality. It’s just a bunch of brain activity and nothing more. Try to get to a point where you treat letting the thoughts be there as the exposure. It might be too challenging to do right now and that’s okay but maybe you could work towards it. I’m sorry you are struggling so much with this, and I understand why you are, but you aren’t a bad person

andrea_sam730

Date posted: 20w

@andrewt_ Ty I think ur very 💗😓right this feeling sucks bc I don’t what to believe anymore like I keep questioning maybe I didn’t have morals for a split second 😃 idk why that feeling of certainty only lasts for a little bit …

andrea_sam730

Date posted: 20w

@andrewt_ And yesss cuz I’ve had similar experiences but just different actions but it’s easier for me to move on from less scary ones ig

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 20w

@andrea_sam730 I think all of us have felt like we lost our morals for a split second. There’s a reason why OCD attaches itself to things that happen quickly. We cannot rewind them and figure out exactly what happened and it’s easy to feel like the worst did since it happened so fast and you can’t analyze what actually went down. Just remember this is OCD tricking you. This isn’t a moral failing, it’s an OCD distortion

andrea_sam730

Date posted: 20w

@andrewt_ Thank you! 💗🙏🏽 I’ll try my best I don’t if it’s just me but this year I feel like I’m CHANGING 😭 but like you said it’s ocd messing with me 🥲

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 20w

@andrea_sam730 I always feel like I’m changing too like I’m morphing into someone unrecognizable but don’t forget that it’s just a lie. It isn’t based on facts. OCD can generate fake feelings super easily, that’s what makes it such a terrible disorder

Anonymousssssss

Date posted: 24w

Idk what to do

Hey yall, having a tough time. I’ve been struggling with intrusive thoughts while I self pleasure and it GENUIENLY feels like I enjoy them for whatever reason. And then now about half an hour later it’s like okay it’s a sexual thought but I might not actually like it. Idk I just really hate myself, because I basically genuinely liked it in the moment

grellen2000

Date posted: 20w

Intrusive thoughts (21+ please)

I need advice for intrusive thoughts. I used to feel like I could handle them. They weren’t nearly as bad as the things that related to my actual life. But now, I’m suffering. I haven’t had a sexual experience in over a year that didn’t involve constant intrusive thoughts. Most are somehow related to kids and I keep chasing off the thoughts but it’s so bad. I know you’re supposed to ignore them but I don’t know how I can just ignore that and continue what I’m doing. But they’re coming on stronger. I had one earlier I could not get rid of just as things finished so the thought came on strongly just before my orgasm hit and now I feel absolutely disgusting. I hated the thought and I know it’s not me and it was not enjoyable but it still feels like I was getting off to it. I feel sick. I’m so fucking tired of these thoughts. They’re in my every day life too and it’s all the time. I just want it to stop but ignoring it feels so wrong. What should I do?

Anonymousssssss

Date posted: 20w

Help

I deal pretty heavily with this. The last couple days, I’ve had what I think are urges. Something pops into my head intrusively and then what stems from that is me WANTING to just indulge in it even though it’s gross. I get worried bc I used to struggle w thoughts about my dad for a long time until eventually I just purposely thought of him while self pleasuring and got off to it. While that’s something I did, it is NOT me. It all stemmed from my mental health declining a couple years back, I was never this way before. So I get worried that it almost happened or might happen with my pocd cuz I could never live with myself if it did.

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