i can’t cope with the fact that i’m alive. i am currently 3 1/2 weeks into prozac 40mg feeling nothing with 0.1mg clonidine daily for anxiety attacks. i have heavy derealization and can’t tell what around me is real and fake. please someone tell me it gets better.
Everything is subject to change, including our mental states. I feel for you! I've written some posts on Existential OCD and DP/DR. Maybe you'll find some solace in them: https://app.treatmyocd.com/community/posts/2182874 https://app.treatmyocd.com/community/posts/2184717
@djflorio the link isn’t working 🥺
@ ୨ৎ Oh :( it might not work properly on the app. I think if you click them from the web browser version it might work, or paste them into the browser on your phone.
@djflorio just read it! very helpful in so many ways! can i ask a few questions about this?
@ ୨ৎ I'm glad! Sure fire away
@djflorio would anything ever make you afraid when you were in this state? like even looking at my reflection scares me, because my mind is like “i’m not real, who is this person” or with my dogs “do i really love you? are you real? or are you part of this stimulation?” 🥺
@ ୨ৎ - Yes I absolutely know what you mean! Those thoughts would come up in the same situations for me; looking at my reflection, family members, our family dog, etc. I started to get better once I realized that the answers to those questions didn't really matter, and that I didn't have to solve them. I could still cuddle with my dog, share meaningful conversations with family members, and continue to live my life, regardless of those questions. I know it's hard! But it's possible to make it through. I can't tell you how many times I thought, "I'm never going to feel happiness again" after these questions came up, and that simply wasn't true.
Can't sympathize with your situation but I believe in you. Just breathe
I understand during covid era I was living a nightmare with family members getting sick and my grandma dying. I had a hard time believing anything around was real as I was in denial. I was on prozac and I don't remember how long it took to take full effect but since it has almost been a month, I would bring it up with the doctor or psychiatrist. Also NOCD is a wonderful platform for therapy, I am currently under the nocd therapy and it has really helped. I hope the best for you.
And yes it does get better, my ocd was at its peak in 2020 and I am way better than I was before it just takes finding the right medication and going to specialized therapy for ocd to find improvement.
going through this right now, like literally!! i’m so scared that i’m not even real. or anything. i can’t be excited over anything because im like well i feel like nothing is real so there’s nothing to be happy about. i’m here to chat if you want!!
@ ୨ৎ that is exactly how i feel!! like decisions i make dont matter because it’s not real and everything feels so meaningless and colorless but of course if i tell someone life feels meaningless they’re like wow you need to go to the hospital and i’m like no no wait i didn’t mean it like THAT
@yoozie exactly!! like no i WANT things to have meaning, im trying to get back to that 🤦🏻♀️🥹 it’s exhausting. just woke up and the first thing i thought about was im not real, this isn’t real. even doing my daily routines, im like, almost afraid? like its just a stimulation and i feel nothing, so why make an effort. i seriously wouldn’t ever wish this on anyone. i feel so scared but also trying to accept the feeling and welcome it, so that way my body won’t be in fear as much when this happens 🥺
@ ୨ৎ i understand that dp/dr is a stress response, and my brain is just taking a break, but being conscious of that terrifies me. i feel like im not seeing life through my own eyes and i have no idea how to cope. im starting ERP soon its just hard for me to afford it
@yoozie i know you can try ERP some without a therapist. there’s this one guy who i watch who has helped a lot on youtube! his yt is ocd and anxiety!
I started medication and therapy I statted medication approximately two months ago and I m getting worse . I just can t focus on studying I forgot what I did and this didnt happen before my brain didnt stop even in my sleep I just feel exhausted I lost my belief to recover and I dont know what to do I just feel like I shouldnt have statted take medication because It just helo my depression a little but on contrary It makes my anciety much worse and totally I feel much worse I just dont know what to do my life is miserable I feel like no one could help me anymore If you read this could you response me? I just feel like no pne really gets me and my religious ocd hits me very badly
I hate that it takes so long for ssris to kick in. And I have a long way to go because I’m not even up to 10mg(my doc has me going up very slowly to have less side effects) yet. I know with Prozac specifically you get heightened anxiety which I’ve had here and there but it’s more so the tiredness and almost depressive mood that’s bothering me as well as loss of appetite. I know to stick it out but just sucks cuz I more so deal with anxiety not depression so it’s a weird feeling like not feeling motivated etc. just hope I’ll feel better in a few weeks :(
So I just started Zoloft 25mg almost a month ago and I’m still experiencing extreme panic and intrusive thoughts. It’s not fun, I genuinely just always think there’s no way I’ll “make it through life” living like this. And I’ve felt like this for four years straight I feel like recently it’s gotten a lot worse. Even when I feel like my brain is alittle quieter I was so obsessed w ocd that I just go right back to thinking abt it and scaring myself. Also I did ERP hated it I just started ICBT and I kinda like it. But when anyone else gets thought spirals and freaks out and has extreme panic do they have thoughts like they need to be admitted to a mental hospital and smth is seriously wrong with them? Bc the panic that comes with the ocd makes it feel soooo real and debilitating
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