Update on my GIOCD

so, have been handling the thoughts much better - but now they have adapted to my self-ERP and now i have weird head feelings, or strange sensations on my chest. and i'm like "fuck i hope this is not actual dysphoria". i don't get panicked over it but OH ITS REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE, like wearing a really tight shirt at all times. anyway, something that helped me is to think that my chromossomes will never change and even if my mind forces me to transition my bones will be male after i die! so yay, i guess. anyway, this theme has been really a struggle, but the more i struggle with it the less likely it seens i actually want to be any gender other than male. also i believe ocd sometimes is a blessing and most times a curse, the blessing of this theme is that i've actually been picturing how to be a better man as an adult, how to improve our community with the strength this body gives me and also to be much kinder to those who struggle with actual dysphoria.

Kands

Date posted: 22w

to anyone struggling with this theme or any others, it does get better! the thoughts don't go away but you just learn to see them as just brain farts with no probability. remember to not interact or do compulsions when you experience the anxiety of OCD. exercise, drink lots of water, give yourself a gift everyday withou planing it, stay safe. i love you, we can do this, you are worthy of everything you love.

f7nn

Date posted: 20w

Thank you for posting this! I’m going through the exact same thing and my brain keeps trying to convince me I want to be a girl! Telling me I’m in denial. Do you have any tips if you feel comfortable sharing 🤍

Kands

Date posted: 19w

@f7nn What helped me a lot was just accepting that gender isn't real. Like, there are no behaviours, clothings or attitudes exclusive to one gender - that's all patriarchal bs. The only thing that matters is being comfortable in our bodies, working to get them as healthy as possible - maxing out all stats like in a videogame! Also it helps me to think i have no control over this situation, i'll just keep doing the things i like. In this lifetime i want to see it through as a male, and if OCD tells me ill be miserable or regret it i just think "well ill still find ways to be happy, this is not important - i don't need to know this with 100% certainty." Also the movie Conclave says that certainty is the poison of faith - and so i choose to have faith in my identity, in my reality, even if i'm not certain of anything.

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