Lulu~

Date posted: 18w

PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME TT (lowkey begging)

I told a few people on social media about my OCD, including POCD and how distressing it is. But everyone went quiet, then a few hours later I posted that I don’t support pedophilia at all neither do I justify it or am a pedo. Then someone replied with: “I think someone might take it bc u have such an obsessive fear of it u might have actual p3 do philic tendencies” I can’t do this anymore, I’m terrified to spiral again like a few months ago but I’m on the brink of doing it again. I’m shaking and stressing tf out I hate this so so so so so much

POCD

Ms.shelovesf...

Date posted: 18w

Hey sorry about that. I've always said people who don't struggle with ocd would never be able tocomprehend it and our struggles. Even those with ocd that haven't experienced some themes can't fully comprehend that theme struggles. The most they can do is accommodate us+ research says people with p-ocd are the least likely of all individuals to commit pedopillic activities... don't let people's inability to comprehend our struggles or misinterprete them weigh you down..💕

Lulu~

Date posted: 18w

@Ms.shelovesfrogs Thank you sm T_T <333

Ms.shelovesf...

Date posted: 18w

@Luca_143 You're welcome (I don't struggle with pocd rn but I have before my current theme so I understand it)☹️🥀🥀

One_moment_a...

Date posted: 18w

Ocd is hard to understand if you don’t have it. And personally it doesn’t help that I’m terrible at explaining it when I try to. Sometimes videos on YouTube to a better job at explaining it. If you find a good one to send to them, it could help clear things up.

Lulu~

Date posted: 18w

“I am curious since i dont check posts much and idk much abt this, from what i read on google the symptoms seems actually p 3do philic is it true, im asking bc Google cant be always the right and correct source. The symptoms i read: -looking up photos to see if ur actually attracted to minors -fear that positive emotions could be s3 xual in nature -intrusive unwanted s3 xual thoughts and sensations around children -fear that contact with children was somehow intentional or pleasure driven -not fearing being a p3 do but fearing that the presence of intrusive p3. do thoughts wilk either ruin the possibility of being happy or somehow convert the thinker to become one” They replied with this too

oopiedoop

Date posted: 18w

whoever told you that is wildly uneducated on ocd. there is still such a horrible stigma against people with ocd, ESPECIALLY taboo themes like pocd. do NOT listen to that person, they are being ignorant & judging you based off a quick google search. they suck.

Lulu~

Date posted: 18w

@oopiedoop Thank you :,) I think I’m actually going to throw up, I sent them a video about pocd and I’m like friends w him and I’m in a gc w him. Idk what to do w myself, what if I have to delete my account. What if I am pedophilic actually TT like idk I think he thinks I am one

oopiedoop

Date posted: 18w

@Luca_143 i stopped talking about my ocd with people that dont also have ocd because i feel like no one truly understands unless they have it. whatever he thinks does not say anything about you, it shows how ignorant he is. social media is ruthless

Lulu~

Date posted: 18w

I don’t like this TT I don’t want this TT Usgsisbskbdissbisbdksnsisbdjdjsksj

LittleMissFo...

Date posted: 18w

You aren't a pedo. Also the people you told sound kinda rude, or just very un educated about OCD. You can delete the comment, and or show them this app to see all the subtypes if you find them difficult to explain. Also a friend of mine always tells me that "bad people don't worry about being bad people" same goes for this "pedophiles don't worry about being a pedophile"

LittleMissFo...

Date posted: 18w

https://youtu.be/6f3hxkdB4xA?si=aCF85678wuTidFcb

LittleMissFo...

Date posted: 18w

This is a video explaining POCD

LittleMissFo...

Date posted: 18w

@MiseSunnyWhenItRains The channel is made by a guy who is a specialist in OCD. And he had many videos on all subtypes or just OCD I'm general. You could show them this, or you could watch this yourself, or look through the other videos

Uhhhh15

Date posted: 20w

I feel gross

I shouldn’t have done this (trigger trigger trigger!!) So about a month ago..maybe I watched this video (as a compulsion to prove to myself) The video was called “interview with a p3d0” And basically it was what it says, I watched or more like listened to half of it…after I was disgusted by the person, but now all I can think of is every little thing I do, I feel as if tho I’m monitoring every thought/moment and feeling I have it’s torturous and I hate it..I feel disgusting, the person in the video has empathy and sympathy and had those feelings yk, I can’t explain it you’d have to watch the video yourself but please don’t it will ruin your journey…I feel more hopeless then before, my OCD is telling me so many things trying to convince me things that Ik aren’t true, I’m just really scared I don’t want to be that person I want to be a good cousin and person to my family, I’m sick of my head and myself, I’m so tired that sometimes I can’t even think straight, my head is always in pain and idek how to help myself..compulsions have been becoming more and more exhausting… I need advice or even someone to relate to, I understand I shouldn’t have done what I did but idk how to forget it.. I had made this post already but when someone replied I couldn’t see it for some reason so I’m uploading it again

Givenup

Date posted: 12w

Pocd and youtubers

Youtubers are constantly getting accused of doing p*dophilic activity and its making me think my real events are as bad or as worse as them... Ive vented a lot to a lot of people in the PM's about my OCD... some of them younger (minors)... because I wanted reassurance from everyone and anyone... but this situation triggers me the most because I was venting about my 18+ HOCD situations... In an HOCD support group I was in, I vented to 2 minors in the PM's about my 18+ HOCD situations... The leader of the support group (that i vented to) was 17... I was 19 at the time... the other minor i vented to was younger (14-15)... the younger one told me she was uncomfortable when i vented to her in the PM's twice... i stopped and blocked her after she told me the second time... i kept asking the leader of the support group for reassurance for my 18+ HOCD situations for months because she kept giving me reassurance... i thought she was cute but didnt pursue her because of my age... i dont ever want to ever be a P or a MAP or a groomer in any way... I keep getting this gut feeling in my stomach that i "flirted" with the younger one that I vented to, who i blocked after she told me twice she was uncomfortable about me venting about my 18+ hocd situations... i didnt ever vent to them for malicious intent... I was trying to get reassurance for my hocd... Plus my pocd keeps saying I cant have any opinions online because of my pocd and real events ocd situations and that Im not a good person so I cant say anything online... Also i keep getting intrusive thoughts of people labelling me as a P and a MAP in the future because of these pocd real events... And i keep getting intrusive thoughts of being outcasted and "cancelled" online when someone "exposes" me for my POCD and real events OCD...

Duke2020!

Date posted: 11w

Help

This is really ruining me and I’m at the lowest point of this. I’m not suicidal or anything and I’m not depressed but I can’t bear with this anymore. POCD is the worst ocd I’ve ever dealt with and I’m too scared to tell a therapist about this. What do I do

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