I don't even believe in God but I start praying every time I am anxious and when something doesn't go the way I planned I just think that it's because I disappointed Him. What the fuck is wrong with me?! I even keep a necklace that make me feel protected and when I get over the anxiety attack I just feel so stupid.
Talk to him it’s not stupid give him 3 days and talk to him for those days he will make a difference in your life you won’t wanna ever do life without him
I consider myself agnostic, but since I grew up in a very Catholic environment, I now understand that it's just not possible to exclude all the religious imagery and stigma I absorbed throughout the years. I know religion can be a very good thing for people, and I think one should lean into that if that's the case, but it just doesn't happens to be mine (I really tried). I still pray every night, and it's usually at that point that I start feeling guilty about how things went throughout the day. Still, I see it more as a standart ritual, one that could be around a whole set of other topics, if not religious. I decided to keep the praying for now, and focus on relieving the guilt I feel while doing it. Try and think about more positive things (like friends, family, videogames... none of the topics really related to religion, although naturally it still comes to me sometimes) instead of overanalyzing my day through a negative lens. I don't want to relive the same purgatory every night. Sometimes objects, words or the mere sense of routine can bring us comfort. Doesn't mean we shouldn't question if it also makes us feel guilty, but it's definitely something to try and think about. Hope you find your best personal way to deal with it :)
Why don't you believe in God?
I feel like I dont have control of what I say in my head that I feel like it's not me saying those things. I was trying to pray and I was cursing at God and the spirit and now I'm scared because I feel like it's me and not an intrusive thought. I have an appointment later and I was trying to pray about that in my head but now that I did that I feel like things will go wrong .
im scared. I keep compulsively praying for bad things or death on the people I love. I don’t understand why. It doesn’t make anything better. I’m scared that these prayers count. I seal them as I do with most of my prayers in Jesus name and with a double amen. I’m scared God will want to teach me a lesson and make something come true. I’m scared I mean these prayers, I’m petrified. If something happened, I wouldn’t be able to live with myself :( I don’t know where to go from here
Today I was trying to figure out something at work, and some people were watching and I was taking longer than expected. I said to myself, “why am I so stupid” and I felt like I was angry and I felt like I was angry at God. I’m worried because I felt like I cursed God in my heart. I’m worried because who am I to be mad at God. I want to have reverence, and I just don’t know what to do. It feels like my heart is hard.
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