Urge?

@Annoying_OCD I don’t know anything about pocd I’m sorry!

@Stacey353 Thank you! And yes they are so scary, do yours feel like you want it in the moment and then once your out of it you think no definitely not

@Holl1 Mine are there 24/7 and never go away. It’s awful my brain tells me to just do it all the time I never get a break

@Holl1 Or it replays on my head over and over again and never stops and when I’m in the moment it’s like an urge I am fighting relentlessly

@Stacey353 Yes! My brain says “you must do it, you have to” I can never relax always feel on edge and I get intrusive images as well it’s awful

@Holl1 Yes 100% right there!

@dacholacommander How do I message you cause I need help!

@dacholacommander Same!

@dacholacommander Did you ever have urges you thought you might act on and not want to?

@Stacey353 Yes. A lot. And guess what? I never did

@Holl1 Again both of you are given permission to message me on instagram. Otherwise Ill answer all your questions here I dont care

@dacholacommander That gives me some relief

@dacholacommander Are yours self harm or harm against others?

@dacholacommander I have this horrible urge that I’m going to open the car door and jump out while in a car and the urge feels so strong I don’t k kw what to do

@Stacey353 ive had both. Self and others. Mainly others

@Stacey353 Well you havent jumped out of the car despite having that urge a hundred times already. Thats pretty comforting evidence no?

@dacholacommander No because I’ve been housebound for one year. The only time I ride is on short little rides around the block and the whole time I am terrified bc of the urge tho king this is it you’re going to do it this time! I keep the child locks on and ride in the backseat :(((

@dacholacommander Did you ever worry you were going to lose it and just act on a thought and how did you know you weren’t going to act on it? Sorry no more questions lol!

@dacholacommander Sorry I’ve never talked to anyone about these before so it’s nice being able to thank you so much!!!

@Stacey353 It first started against harm against others then switched to me

@Stacey353 It doesnt matter. The point is youve been in a car and havent jumped out. You could have taken the child locks off. Whether youre in the front or backseat you could still jump out. And you didnt. These thoughts are fake. Your brain just needs time to recognize that. And it will. In time.

@Stacey353 You can ask as many questions as you want. Ive been there. I did worry that I would lose it and act on a thought. I didnt know that I wouldnt do it. Its just that overtime, I recognized more and more that I hadnt done it. And I just started to realize that it was an unwarranted fear.

@dacholacommander Did you ever worry about losing control in public and doing something crazy that you didn’t want to?

@Stacey353 Yeah. And I didnt

@Stacey353 So should I just ride in the car and trust I’m not going to jump out? What if I did !?

@dacholacommander So should I just ride in the car and hope I don’t jump out? What if I do!?

@Stacey353 Thats what Id do were I you

@dacholacommander And you really don’t think I will??

@Stacey353 I dont.

@dacholacommander Can I ask you one more question? Did you ever ver used to isolate yourself bc you were afraid of losing control and acting on an intrusive thought?

@Stacey353 Yes. I used to hide in my room with my blanket over my head. Please recognize that your questions will never end. Accept that I’m telling you that most likely you have ocd, and make an effort to not let your fears control your actions.

@dacholacommander Ok thank you so much !

@Annoying_OCD I suggest that you avoid trying to be certain about your fears. Accept that they may be true or they may not be. You dont know. And thats okay. Thats normal.

@Holl1 Sure , how?

@Stacey353 On Instagram or Snapchat? Also do you ever get thoughts like “I’m gonna” and it almost sounds like a plan but you have no intentions of doing

@Holl1 Yes! Mine is always “you’re gonna jump out” “it’s only a matter of time”!

@Holl1 Do you only have the thoughts/ urges when you are around the object no other time? Mine are thoughts and images all the time it’s pure hell

@Stacey353 I get thoughts like that too, or that I’m gonna swerve the car. I can’t be in the car longer than half an hour

@Holl1 Same!

@Stacey353 No my thoughts are constant even when I’m not around objects, this led me to hide the objects just in case. But this urge felt more real today because I was near the object so it made it more scarier as if I was gonna act

@Stacey353 Even when I’m in bed ‘my safe place’ I think I could just lose it any second and act on my thoughts

@Holl1 I’ve been homebound for a year now bc of this I’m losing my mind from fear

@Holl1 No way that’s my safe place and yes I 100% think the same way!!!

@Stacey353 I’m like that sometimes. Some days I wake up and think I’m not gonna let ocd ruin my life, I went out on my own to get my nails done in like 6 months and I felt good for doing that , but other days I think is this really ocd or me and then I feel confused and don’t wanna leave the house or my bed

@Holl1 Same 100% 24/7

@Holl1 I worry sometimes I’m gonna snap in public and do something embarrassing and crazy!

@Stacey353 Yes same, I’m off work because of it. My brain is now convincing me that if I get too stressed I’m gonna act & it’s putting me off going back

@Holl1 What do you worry about happening if you don’t mind me asking

@Stacey353 That if I get too stressed, I’m just gonna lose my mind and act on my thoughts without wanting to. I think it’s more losing control than owt

@Holl1 That’s what mine is losing control and the thought that I would lose control of my actions. I’m sorry you had to take off work!

@Holl1 We have so much in common it’s crazy!

@Stacey353 We do! It’s just crazy how the doubt in your mind makes you overthink. I could reassure myself all the time but it doesn’t make a difference

@Holl1 You’re exactly right! I am still suffering right now as we speak!

@Stacey353 So am I, just waiting til I get tired so I can go to sleep haha. You can always message me on socials if you need to talk

@Holl1 I go to bed so early it’s not funny

@Holl1 How old are you just curious

@Stacey353 25, you?

@Stacey353 Have you ever had any other themes or just this one ?

@Holl1 41 lol

@Holl1 Just this one thank the Lord I couldn’t handle another one lol but have you?

@Holl1 Do you use a NOCD therapist? And do you live alone or with others?

@Holl1 Actually I’ve had health ocd!

@Holl1 I get terrified I have a heart condition that is undiagnosed and I can’t go to the dr bc of my car issue :(

@Stacey353 I live with my boyfriend but he works a lot. And I’ve had health OCD, contamination OCD & relationship OCD and no therapist yet

@Holl1 But just have harm OCD at the moment

@Holl1 Awww bless your heart, I start the NOCD therapy tomorrow and I’m nervous. Does your harm ocd ever have to do with your bf and does he know it?

@Holl1 Oh wait you said todays had to do with him

@Stacey353 Aww you’ll be fine & well I had relationship OCD & then one day I watched a horror film whilst I was on my own and I didn’t like it, anyway the next day I was in bed with my boyfriend and I had a panic attack (i don’t know why) and I had an intrusive thought to harm him and I was so scared because I never had a thought like that before so I actually slept in another room because the thought felt so real and I was scared I took a sleeping tablet to go to sleep and that’s when the harm ocd started I had thoughts about my boyfriend for about a month , he does know, but not the ins & outs about it. I was terrified to go to my mums Christmas meal I didn’t wanna go because there was knifes there, but I went and I was fine & then it switched to me and I’ve had it since December (sorry for long story lol)

@Holl1 Bless your heart that is awful. No worries about it being long I love to hear others stories. So you have these thoughts all the time right? Do you try and isolate? Do you worry all the time you’re gonna act on it?

@Stacey353 Yes all the time, it’s so overwhelming & I’ve never dealt with these type of thoughts before, I’m always crying about it lol

@Holl1 I have different type of thoughts too. But they all repeat itself all day every day. Thoughts, images , urges

@Holl1 Same here girl bless your heart how do you sleep next to him girl do you worry

@Stacey353 Oh no I don’t get thoughts about him anymore, it’s more I worry I’m gonna hurt myself, it’s been like this since December

@Stacey353 Now I worry when he’s asleep or at work, I just want to be with him all the time

@Holl1 Awww that’s sweet!

@Holl1 I too worry that I’m going to like do something to myself and not want to

@Holl1 What would you do if you were me about the car thought or being scared I’m going to jump out? It’s been a year since I’ve gone anywhere except little trips around the neighborhood here and there

@Stacey353 Well I’ve been in the same situation. If it makes you feel more comfortable then go on your phone play a game or put on some good music That’s what I do & build it up over time 10 mins,15mins, 20 and so on. Trust me I’ve had them thoughts plenty of times but you can’t let it hold you back from going out

@Holl1 But I’m scared I’m going to do it

@Holl1 You’ve been scared you would jump out of a car too??

@Stacey353 Yeah I’ve had that thought before whilst I was in the car

@Holl1 Oh gosh it’s the worst!

@Holl1 I don’t really get them thought until I’m in the car, but don’t like going in the car either

@Holl1 Well listen if you need to message me about your urges please do!

@Holl1 I also have thoughts when high up like “jump” even tho I don’t want to!

@Holl1 How did last night go? Are you doing ok today? I mean as ok as you can do with this crap

@Stacey353 Horrible tbh didn’t really sleep and kept waking up to thoughts 😩wby?

@Holl1 Horrible too. I have therapy with NOCD today and hoping it’s going to help. I’m just so scared of these thoughts and losing control!

@Holl1 Girl the only way I sleep is I take 140mg of Trazadone and still wake up every hour

@Stacey353 Yes it’s awful i have intrusive thoughts last night but i didn’t react to them & now im scared

@Holl1 Do you have anyone that you talk about this too just curious bc I don’t :( it makes it feel so taboo

@Stacey353 Not really no, I spoke to the doctors and they don’t know about OCD they just take it serious. I just have my mum & boyfriend. You can always talk to me tho

@Holl1 I really appreciate that so much girl. Do you ever feel like you are fighting an urge to act on your intrusive thoughts like it’s pulling you to do it

@Stacey353 Yep like it’s convincing you to do with reasons too

@Holl1 Ever with images like pics of you doing it like your going to

@Holl1 I feel so seen with you like you totally understand

@Stacey353 Yeah I get images of me acting on it too

@Holl1 Therapy starts in 4 minutes girl wish me luck I’m nervous my thoughts will scare her :(

@Stacey353 Good luck, you’ll be fine! They’d of heard it all before, trust me. Let me know how it goes!

@Holl1 It went really good she is so sweet and made me feel so seen and heard like I wasn’t crazy! I have another appointment on Monday. We are doing one appointment per week and she’s already sent me lots of videos and things on ocd which is what she diagnosed me with Harm OCD

@Stacey353 That’s really good! It’s really nice to find someone who understands you

@Stacey353 Hi I know your struggle I’m a little different but when I read ur comments this is me and no one understands