My OCD has found new objects that I should be scared or worried about and I have this urge to hide them or throw them away. When I’m trying to watch tv I get really anxious that I’m trying to focus my attention elsewhere other than being in my own head, trying to sort my thoughts out & when I say I don’t want something I feel like I’m in denial. Does anyone else feel like this
Yes I have thrown away lots of stuff out of fear. I’m so sorry you’re going through this I know it’s so hard. Just keep remembering you are safe and it’s just your ocd and you wouldn’t act on your thoughts or urges!
@Stacey353 I’m worried that because I don’t have the anxiety anymore or feel as scared then does that mean I’m ok with it
@Holl1 It should be less worrisome if you aren’t worried about it anymore. Like you feel safe with those things?
@Stacey353 Ahh maybe I am still worried then😅
@Holl1 I can understand bc I feel the same way right now exactly! I’m terrified and want to self isolate I already hit the sos button on here!
@Stacey353 Same I’m just in bed waiting to go to sleep😂
@Holl1 I can’t bc I have my son here right with me
@Holl1 Hey girl just wanted to check on you and see how you weee doing?
@Stacey353 Hey hope you’re ok and yeah not been this app much been on chat gpt which is another compulsion😂
@Holl1 Yeah I understand lol
@Stacey353 How have you been?
@Holl1 The same still mostly doing the isolating but last night I pressed the sos button and this app and it helped me sit with the uncertainty and breathe through it. It’s a little round bottom in the bottom right corner for when you’re feeling overwhelmed and I messaged my therapist. I just hate these thoughts and want them to go away. :(
@Holl1 Can you talk I’m really upset? I just now went for a ride around the block with my mother and I kept thinking how easy it would be to just open the door and I would fall out. I don’t understand why I have these thoughts and feel like they are getting worse. I know you don’t know what to do but I’m so scared I’m going to actually open the door even though I can’t cause the child locks are on. I’m scared I might try and then that will solidify that I would do it.
@Stacey353 Yes course, I know reassurance doesn’t work for OCD but the fact that you’re scared shows you won’t do it & it goes against your values. I get the exact same thoughts as you and the fact it would just be so easy to do it but it’s just OCD using this to scare you. Have you ever been scared about doing that before your harm OCD episode? No, I don’t think you have and that’s proof you’re not that type of person.
@Holl1 So I’m reassurance seeking right? I do that a lot but I just don’t want to be a danger to myself and jump out of the car and not want to. I looked in the website and saw at least ten other people with this same fear though.
@Stacey353 No you’re just feeling anxious which is normal & I know it’s all just OCD messing with you , trust me
@Holl1 Ok thanks so much girl
@Holl1 Hey girl how are you doing today are you struggling big time cause I am?
@Stacey353 Struggling same! I’ve hardly been sleeping because of anxiety so it’s been making things 10 times worse
@Holl1 I started support groups and they are interesting for sure. It’s usually about 20 people and a moderator and people sharing their fears and stuff.
@Holl1 I’m not sure if they support groups are helping or hurting.
@Stacey353 Yeah I understand, sometimes it can be good to share or can be triggering too
@Holl1 Yes! Triggering is a good word!
@Holl1 Hey girl I saw your post, are you getting harm thoughts is that why you don’t go to your family’s house?
@Stacey353 Hiya and yes my anxiety was so bad this morning , I’ve never had it as bad. But I’ve calmed down a bit now so I’m on the way to their house not gonna let it win!
@Holl1 You go girl!!!!
@Stacey353 I’ve been getting vivid images though it’s really frightening
@Holl1 Is it self harm or to others?
@Holl1 I’m so sorry that you’re having this it just makes life so difficult when I shouldn’t be this hard:(
@Stacey353 Self harm. it’s when anxiety is high
@Holl1 Omg are you pregnant? I just saw one of your posts congratulations!!
@Stacey353 Yeah , thank you !!
@Holl1 Are you still feeling like your harm urge is bad? Like makes you feel like it’s pulling you or is it just me!? It’s like a strong urge :(((
@Stacey353 Yes I’m so glad I’m not alone, honestly and the images too 😭
@Holl1 I call it harm bc it’s the car situation everytime I try and ride :(
@Holl1 I’m glad I’m not alone too
@Stacey353 My triggers are everywhere I don’t get a break
@Holl1 :(
@Stacey353 Now my hocd is going on me all the time this is torture.
@Stacey353 Oh has your switched themes?
@Holl1 No it’s just gotten bad. Like 24/7 how do you deal with this all I want to do is lay in bed where I’m “safe” but I’m beginning to never feel safe :(
@Stacey353 Omg I feel the same way too & even staying in bed doesn’t feel safe anymore. Mines 24/7 and even my thoughts feel more louder and real, I don’t know if it’s hormones but it’s making me want to cry all the time
I keep getting I’m gonna thoughts
@Holl1 Me too how do you deal with these thoughts?
@Stacey353 I keep arguing with them but it makes it worse, I’m not dealing with it well at the moment
@Holl1 Praying for us
Hey girl what is chatgp
@Stacey353 Hi it’s a chat bot AI , it answers your questions , it’s really good but I just use it for reassurance 😂
@Holl1 😆
@Holl1 Girl I rode in the car today and didn’t get nervous and didn’t have the urge to open the door!
@Stacey353 That’s really good! How’d you feel?
@Holl1 I felt good I didn’t get nervous and I just used the erp I’ve bee taught! And my anxiety has been less today a lot less urges! How have you been girl?
@Stacey353 Sounds like you’re making huge progress! & still the same but I’m not working with a therapist so that’s why I’m not progressing, need to find one asap.
@Holl1 How girl how have you been doing?
@Stacey353 Hey am Still the same , wby?
@Holl1 I rode in the car for the third time recently and wasn’t nervous so that’s good. With the other harm ocd I’ve been trying to stay busy and it seems to be helping. I’m on my third session with my therapist too so that’s good and just doing the homework she assigned like looking at pics, which you could do! Like whatever is bothering tot take a pic of it and sit with the uncertainty of you might or might not and tot do that each day until you get down to a zero meaning it doesn’t bother you!
@Stacey353 Yes I will do that! I keep getting thoughts like am I making these up myself or is this ocd & then also thoughts like are you sure you want to carry on & I don’t understand why I have these, do you have anything similar?
@Holl1 I just mainly have the “your gonna “thoughts
Have you ever felt the need to hide knives because you’re scared someone might hurt you while you’re sleeping? Or have your thoughts ever tried to convince you that you have feelings for your family members? Maybe you feel like you need to tell your parents to “drive safe” every time they go somewhere, believing that it will prevent them from crashing, or that something bad will happen if you don’t. These are things I’ve experienced, but they didn’t last long, and because of that, I’m unsure if I actually have OCD, as these thoughts don’t happen frequently. I’m 17, so maybe it’s still developing, but I’m not sure. At one point, I even thought I might be a psychopath and would become a serial killer (i was analyzing my past and feelings but it went away quickly) When I was a kid, I was also scared I had a tumor and constantly needed reassurance from my parents that everything is okay, but it wasn’t as intense. Recently, I’ve been scared that ghosts would come or that a demon would possess me, or that if i open my eyes i will se my dead uncle (i was 16😂) which kept me from sleeping. Are these signs of OCD? Should I consider getting treatment? About three months ago, I had my first big obsession about possibly having OCD itself (i was scared of going crazy, of feeling like this forever, of not being perfect, of not having control), and now I’ve been struggling with HOCD for three months. But I’m scared that I don’t even have OCD, and that these thoughts might be true. It’s funny because just a few months ago, I was terrified of having OCD, but now I feel like I want to have it. I think a traumatic experience with weed might have made my OCD worse, but I’m not sure. What do you think? I also found out that my mom is also hiding knifes and that she was also obsession over sickness…
My ocd has been flaring up lately I’ve noticed some things that I don’t know if it’s ocd or something else whenever I seen someone like drugged or sick or just not “normal” I feel like or get scared that’s gonna end up being me? Does that make sense or then after a few minutes I feel like I’m them I don’t know exactly how to explain it I feel like I’m gonna start acting crazy or like I act weird or like them ? Idk exactly how to explain it and I have such a drop in my stomach thinking of it because it makes me feel insane, I haven’t had such an ocd episode so it’s getting hard again and making me feel insane specially because I don’t know how to explain this that I feel, I feel so scared rn can someone please comment on this?
I feel like I’ve had a lot of different categories of ocd. Some categories stick with me more and are repetitive. I’ve been doing well with mental health - not having anxiety stick around. When the physical feeling of anxiety sticks around, every thought is horrible, but when the feeling of anxiety is gone the obsessions don’t really impact me. If I can keep anxiety at bay, my life is good. I’ve been doing well lately, although this week I was scrolling through tictok and watched a video about someone in a coma and wondered if I was in a coma right now and didn’t know it. I had a panic attack for about 15 minutes. Anxiety, sweating, etc. It didn’t take ahold of me and it quickly lost its impact on me. It still shook me and I was just like “wow” where did that come from. Now I am staying away from social media. Is that avoidance? Should I make myself keep watching social media? Many ocd problems have come from social media or watching a movie or show that triggers something and then spirals. I am limiting what I watch, which I believe is good because I shouldn’t be watching that stuff anyway. What do you think?
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