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I go through something similar, I constantly feel like I am “cheating” on him and I’m confessing so often. He tells me I didn’t cheat every time, but that he doesn’t like hearing these things. They make his jealousy, his insecurities, his negative feelings flare. He has every right to feel that way, I think I’d feel the same if he was confessing the things I do. These are likely normal human things we’re confessing but bringing them to light so often, can cause confusion in our partners. It’s so hard to stop. I’m here if you want to talk about it

Hey, Relax, Nothing is wrong with you, having these thoughts means actually quite opposite, that you ARE NOT CHEATER and that you even hate Cheating more than any usual person So relax, This is Classic Ocd If anything, please learn from my example and dont become me. I was also in relantioship, and also i couldn t stop compulsing Reassuring asking etc etc,.. Eventually relantioship broke, and it made me say to myself ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. never ever i am going to let this Bully of ocd to destroy anything for me ever again. So you probably didn t touch the Darkness Enough.. I know we (people with ocd) are strong by nature and resistent, thats why we need couple of good punches in the head to REALISE when enough is enough Because when we are in our comfort zone, than you are fine, and okay , which is teritory for ocd to attack you and you being in comfort zone will not RESIST so much because life didnt broke you yet When you are out of the comfort zone when something happens bad your inner self will be much more activated and angry, but i hope you dont get in this zone like this, but only imagining yourself like you are So Hold on to the Dream of yours Please. And remember the future of the dream and feeling that gave you ... And all because of what. So ocd can tell you after it all ends You stupid girl.... You know that that was ocd deep down, and you didn t listen to yourself but your ocd Litterally ocd will tell you this and it will be too late...... So for now If you have reassure yourself TRY even though you dont FEEL LIKE OR FEEL RIGHT try! Try to not reassure again. Remember that you reassure yourself remember everytime EVERYTIME, i know that this is Hard I know And i know you migjt listen to me at first but in 5 minutes be back on track for ocd slavery .... Talk to your boyfriend Let him understand you to the deepest core It will be better for your future Because if he leaves he will be wrong bevause he thought that was real you and you will be wrong for not STOPING THIS TORTURE! Let the Dream became your guide Remember ocd attacked you 1000000 times so far about cheating and you NEVER say Okay i am not gonna engage in that thought Why? Because everytime every 100000 timea you cared That you are not cheater You see! Do you see how many times have you resisted to the belief of ocd Everytime you never back down That means that you care miliom times and that you will never break Although the key pf beatinf the problem is to realise That this THOUGHT is kust a THOUGHT thats when you will realise to not engage in that fake thought But you are engaging because ypu think that thought is real Trust me you are amazing person And your boyfriend should be EXTREMELY happy that he has you Unite together and beat the problem together 💪💪. I recommend you book Break free from ocd