Am I the only one! I’m panicking

I went out with my partner today to spend the day together and try and do some ERP. the whole time I linked my arm and had my phone in my other hand. I would purposely move out the way for children or notify her so she could see I didn’t do anything. Please tell me I’m not the only one with this type of harm OCD. I’m really panicking and it’s making me feel sick. I had that feeling where my stomach drops and I’m scared of my thoughts

Harm OCD

Anony1314

Date posted: 17w

This is the perfect example of OCD friend. I know how debilitating this is, and the way it twists our brains into thinking we are something that we are not. You are not alone, and I just want you to know that. I've dealt with the same type thing before I had my child, and it got to the point I wouldn't go out in public. It's so hard. I'm here for you friend

.Anonymous

Date posted: 17w

@Anony1314 This makes me so emotional because it can feel like such an isolating experience having ocd. I’ve never really suffered with harm ocd up until the end of last year where I had a random instance thought when I walked past a pram and I thought what if I just stabbed that baby? Now it’s wherever I go. I’m constantly in fear I’m going to do something and hurt someone. My partners great and been helping me with dropping anchor and urge surfing (both techniques I’ve learnt in therapy) but honestly I’ve never felt panic like this

.Anonymous

Date posted: 17w

@Rayanswaid Thank you, this means a lot and I appreciate it. It’s hard to read though as all I’m telling myself is that your only saying this to make me feel better and I’m telling myself I don’t deserve to have that said to me as I’m a bad person who does bad things

Brian.Hope

Date posted: 17w

Harm ocd

Hey, I suffer from harm ocd and I feel as if it’s non stop everything I do everyday I believe I killed someone I believe it’s harm ocd and false memory but like today I went to the store and saw a older lady and my head thinks of images of me pushing them or killing then and right after that thought I feel as if I done it then the rest of the day I ruminate replaying everything. I know erp and I should just accept the thought and let it go but it’s not easy and I feel as if i really hurt or killed someone and I don’t want to go to jail for something I don’t want to do . Any tips would be appreciated I don’t know how to accept and move on when it feels so real that I did something!

Holl1

Date posted: 15w

OCD

I’ve tried living in the uncertainty today & kept myself busy but I can’t shake this feeling that I’m about to lose control & act on my thoughts. I keep feeling like I need to check in to see how I feel & keep my self safe & when I’m near my trigger it feels like I’m being pulled into doing it & feels like I want to but I’m not using compulsions. My thoughts feel like my own & feeling like I’ll be like this forever. Can someone relate or give advice 😩

Harm OCD

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 11w

This is too much to handle

I’m going to a waterpark with my friend in a few days. And I have very severe harm OCD that causes me to worry I’ll touch someone inappropriately. This is going to sound so fucking silly but because my hips moved during a hug one time I’m afraid I’m gonna fucking thrust on someone (bruh wtf lol) and anytime I walk by someone my hips will move a bit or my leg will stretch out too far when I’m walking and I’ll feel like I fucking like it. And I’ll think I was just trying to do a thrust or something (it sounds silly when I type it out and to be fair it is lmao) and I’ll freak out. I honestly don’t know what to do. I feel like a fucking psycho.

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