Religious OCD

It started out with being upset how I was upset at life. I wanted to feel anything different than now, and hope improving myself and getting help would get rid of this resistance with in me. Therapy helped with the basic baggage I had, yet the strain was still strong so they referred to include going to support groups on top of therapy, and those talked about OCD support groups, and that led me to get a therapist here that helped me define the different types of OCD I had which include about religion. Before I could determine what was right I had to confront what was wrong to make space as it was a mental block. It was hard but for my example was ERP to writing demon and sit with it. Over time and discussion I saw there was no summoning or curse done which gave me evidence and was more open to hear alternative perspectives such as if God is great, then he's greater than the devil so why would paper writing be above his protection. That led me to remember and realize and even spot past and new stories that people challenged that notion that I used to be so defensive out of fear. Now I realize with love and faith is what I follow and practice building trust daily I'm capable to overcome such accusations. My favorite insight was "if a bad person who slept around came to the church and the priest had to re-bless the church, are blessings so fleeting and easily corrupted to claim this is protective?" I realize with fear and superstition as if my life has the ability to influence others can do bad, it's not my God but man made because if that was true, so many people would have crashed the planes more often because there's a lot of people who are scared and did not do the same rituals as me. Yet when I'm happy and love, I can see and remember so much more blessing and miracles than curses or horrors of life which was caused by random or people's own superstition. Spiritual = quiet whispers, light feeling, it's about being, forgiving, insightful. Moral scrupulosity/religious ocd = demands of an outcome with doings, loud, volatile guilting, hypocritical, changing goalposts, blame.

Do you mind sharing what religion you are? If you are a Christian I have some great resources.