hocdgirlsummer

Date posted: 5y

This gonna be so cringy but anyone else just not feeling vibes no more? Like imagine its dark outside and its raining and u listeninn to music? That shit used to feel like the shit but now its just anxious and not comfy and cozy at all. Or like long carrides where you just listen to music and like imagine scenarios that will never come true? All that i cant feel anymore. Its just emptyness, im just debating wether im gay or not the whole time so like my carrides are filled with anxiety instead of the chilness.It all gives me major anxiety trying to be like who i used to be but deep inside i know its not genuine. I wish it was real and i could just feel vibes again like summer vibes or when ur hangingn with friend vibes. I dont even feel the christmas vibe anymore u kno its just all so dark. Like is this ever going to come back? I really want it back.

Sexual Orientation OCD

AdversWarrior

Date posted: 5y

I can relate to this to a certain degree, its important that we become aware of this and start working on it ASAP, losing interest and excitement for things we used to enjoy is a symptom of depression, I dont want to make anyone overtly worried, but just be aware of your feelings guys, lets all work out damnest to be the best versions of ourselves we can be! We can get through this and we will!

hocdgirlsummer

Date posted: 5y

I know but how tho? How do i get the joy from the little things back without forcing it? Its about feeling it i csnt force the feeling bevause that not natural and for me thst will cause anxiety because i csnt handle when i dont feel things genuinely

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

SAME SAME GIRL OMG. My friends and I usually sit around and watch movies on Fridays and that was THE SHIT. Omg the vibe was so goooood like just me and my mates chilling with the fireplace watching a movie and it’s especially amazing on Christmas cause the vibe is so cozy and comfortable. And last week I couldn’t even get into it omg. I was panicking like crazy because I thought I’d never be happy again

hocdgirlsummer

Date posted: 5y

Ugh i feel you (my nocd app acting up so i see all my notifications days later :( ) i hate it soo much to. My sister and i alwayd did this harry potter marathon in the winter and like this year shes all excited again like she used to be but im a whole nother perosn like im living in an alternative world where theres no happiness and cozyness and i wish i could match with her excitemend but all i can do is be anxioys

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@hocdgirlsummer I can relate to this soo much. I just hope my Christmas isn’t ruined because I LOVE Christmas

Ocdandme123

Date posted: 5y

This is so spot on. I used to be such a happy going person who is always laughing and now everything and I mean everything is so dark and numb. Like I am just nothing.

hocdgirlsummer

Date posted: 5y

Period. I hope for you to get out of this state and feel things genuinely and naturally again. Its so hard like this i feel like it takes the meaning ofmy life away. Like im jusr floating around jn this world and being numb is all i can do. Know ur not alone! I suffer what you suffer and we both gotta get trough

AdversWarrior

Date posted: 5y

Also one of the things I do to fight this is to pick up an interest I used to have years ago and hadn't indulged in for a long time, sometimes when things seem routine they can lose their magic. I used to really like watching anime but after high school I kind of stopped, now that I'm going through a kind of rough time I started watching it again and it really helps me. Try to break from your routine once in a while! Go to a new coffee shop, a new Restaurant, a Museum a Park, anything that can help you out of this loop!

hocdgirlsummer

Date posted: 5y

Hey! Thank you for the tip:) i will try this. I have been trying it but for me its more thst the oversll thing loses its magic. Like imagine makeup used to be my biggest passion but thst lost its magic but right before hocd fsshion was my passion and i lost it too. Its like evrything i try to enjoy and be excited over loses its sparkle. I really appreciate ur comment snd help and i will try it out becsuse trying will never do wrong :)

ocdsucksbutt

Date posted: 5y

This has literally been me. These thoughts have developed into incredibly suffering emotion, I feel like a bottle with everything holding inside of me, while everything on the outside is having the best time while I can’t feel it. I don’t feel any sorts of happiness. At all. This is so bad I’m sorry we all have to go through this. I don’t know about you guys, but I can’t get in touch with a therapist due to many reasons, which further crushes my hopes of becoming better.

hocdgirlsummer

Date posted: 5y

I can 100% relate trust me. Like u explained thst spot on snd know that ur not alone. It feels comforting to hear thst im not alone in feeling these weird feelings. I always think that if i got this bad and this fcked up in a year, it has tk be possible to switxh back in a year or more too righ??

hocdgirlsummer

Date posted: 5y

By the way, same i cant get a therapist. Im 17, they hella expensive, the waiting list in my country is about 1-3 years long... i have to fight this shit on my own

Mt2019

Date posted: 20w

Question about HOCD

Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please

gabbys407

Date posted: 17w

How to start living?

I feel like im no longer living im only 17 and i use to be so excited to turn 18 recently i feel like life is pointless and its all i think about including philosophy and i never liked that before. It has taken complete joy out of my life anything simple like watching a movie feels pointless because it has no meaning and i feel as if my life has zero meaning because i am not important. I am constantly criticizing everything. For example i went to a concert ive been dying to see and when i got there i didnt enjoy it all because i felt like it was pointless. Is there anyone that has experienced this that has advice I feel like im in hell rn

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geodrimilis

Date posted: 16w

I’m sick and tired of this .

I just can’t do this shit anymore.im tired of these “arousal” sensations that feel real but when I go check my arousal to the same gender I just get anxiety. I’m tired of feeling like I can’t like girls anymore. I’m tired of my arousal getting blocked every now and then because I’m anxious. I’m tired of not knowing who I am anymore. I’m tired of having my mind putting me into an identity I never asked for. I’m tired of this life

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