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- 5y ago
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- 5y ago
I can relate to this to a certain degree, its important that we become aware of this and start working on it ASAP, losing interest and excitement for things we used to enjoy is a symptom of depression, I dont want to make anyone overtly worried, but just be aware of your feelings guys, lets all work out damnest to be the best versions of ourselves we can be! We can get through this and we will!
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- 5y ago
I know but how tho? How do i get the joy from the little things back without forcing it? Its about feeling it i csnt force the feeling bevause that not natural and for me thst will cause anxiety because i csnt handle when i dont feel things genuinely
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- 5y ago
SAME SAME GIRL OMG. My friends and I usually sit around and watch movies on Fridays and that was THE SHIT. Omg the vibe was so goooood like just me and my mates chilling with the fireplace watching a movie and it’s especially amazing on Christmas cause the vibe is so cozy and comfortable. And last week I couldn’t even get into it omg. I was panicking like crazy because I thought I’d never be happy again
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Ugh i feel you (my nocd app acting up so i see all my notifications days later :( ) i hate it soo much to. My sister and i alwayd did this harry potter marathon in the winter and like this year shes all excited again like she used to be but im a whole nother perosn like im living in an alternative world where theres no happiness and cozyness and i wish i could match with her excitemend but all i can do is be anxioys
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- 5y ago
@hocdgirlsummer I can relate to this soo much. I just hope my Christmas isn’t ruined because I LOVE Christmas
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- 5y ago
This is so spot on. I used to be such a happy going person who is always laughing and now everything and I mean everything is so dark and numb. Like I am just nothing.
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- 5y ago
Period. I hope for you to get out of this state and feel things genuinely and naturally again. Its so hard like this i feel like it takes the meaning ofmy life away. Like im jusr floating around jn this world and being numb is all i can do. Know ur not alone! I suffer what you suffer and we both gotta get trough
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Also one of the things I do to fight this is to pick up an interest I used to have years ago and hadn't indulged in for a long time, sometimes when things seem routine they can lose their magic. I used to really like watching anime but after high school I kind of stopped, now that I'm going through a kind of rough time I started watching it again and it really helps me. Try to break from your routine once in a while! Go to a new coffee shop, a new Restaurant, a Museum a Park, anything that can help you out of this loop!
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- 5y ago
Hey! Thank you for the tip:) i will try this. I have been trying it but for me its more thst the oversll thing loses its magic. Like imagine makeup used to be my biggest passion but thst lost its magic but right before hocd fsshion was my passion and i lost it too. Its like evrything i try to enjoy and be excited over loses its sparkle. I really appreciate ur comment snd help and i will try it out becsuse trying will never do wrong :)
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This has literally been me. These thoughts have developed into incredibly suffering emotion, I feel like a bottle with everything holding inside of me, while everything on the outside is having the best time while I can’t feel it. I don’t feel any sorts of happiness. At all. This is so bad I’m sorry we all have to go through this. I don’t know about you guys, but I can’t get in touch with a therapist due to many reasons, which further crushes my hopes of becoming better.
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I can 100% relate trust me. Like u explained thst spot on snd know that ur not alone. It feels comforting to hear thst im not alone in feeling these weird feelings. I always think that if i got this bad and this fcked up in a year, it has tk be possible to switxh back in a year or more too righ??
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- 5y ago
By the way, same i cant get a therapist. Im 17, they hella expensive, the waiting list in my country is about 1-3 years long... i have to fight this shit on my own
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Idk what else to title this. I was watching a film cooper video cuz why not and he mentioned smthn about wall paper customization and icons and stuff and I just kinda had a groinal response followed by the memory of me having my first crush on a woman (my friend at the time) that helped me figure out that I’m bi and I felt kinda intensely for her but that’s cuz a) it was new and b) we were kinda on again off again friends who haven’t spoken in a few years now and I’m over her entirely. It was toxic I think. She was too much like the person who bullied me in elementary school (they were friends as well so my mom made me cut her off which is. Fair. Made me really sad but eh that’s life) I saw her at prom cuz someone brought her. It was nice to see her but yeah that was it. And now I’m mentally comparing what I felt for women in the past (idk intense crush, listening to a lot of gay songs (think she by dodie) dressing semi masc cuz funky, we had nicknames for each other despite not dating or anything) to men (less intense crush but still big crush, I’ve only dated and kissed men so sparks rhere) and now I’m just slightly nauseous and worried that I don’t like men as much as I like women but I think that’s normal for any bi person? To have different levels of attraction to different genders? Idk I feel gross and icky now like I shouldn’t even be thinking about it or her cuz I have a bf. And I do look fondly upon it, now I’m nervous cuz I got more excited about her calling me a specific nickname than I do from my bf calling me honey even at the beginning? Honey felt more traditional and I love it but we do switch around nicknames and it’s always nice, not many butterflies anymore, and sometimes I get anxious when he does lately, if it’s a nickname in Portuguese. Or if he called me a shortened version of my name. What does that mean? I’m nervous now. I was doing half decently today now I’m nauseous again. I’m worried that cuz I liked the nicknames she and I had that means I don’t like the ones my bf and I have and that I just don’t like him or men cuz I’ve been feeling off around him. But I love when he calls me honey, it still feels good when he does it now but no butterflies. Idk what’s wrong with me. Is it even ocd at this point. Even if I do like women slightly more it doesn’t erase that I love my bf. I’m worried I’m leaning too much towards women tho and I’m a lesbian. Idk if my bi cycle is cycling or if I’m just a lesbian entirely cuz I don’t feel much when my bf takes off his shirt, sex feels different, and things feel stale and slow. But maybe that’s cuz I’m checking and comparing. Now I’m anxious fuck. I’m trying not to think about her idk why. I’m worried I still find her attractive or am attracted to her or smthn. She’s in my city. I didn’t care before but now I do. Or if I think about her I’ll think about other women and will only want to have sec with women which not really tbh. I wanna be able to enjoy sec with my bf. It just hasn’t felt right lately cuz I’ve been so depressed and obsessive. I wasn’t obsessing much last night when we had sex but it still didn’t feel passionate. It didn’t feel uncomfortable but I thought it’d be more? Idk. I know it’s normal to not feel him inside me cuz the vagina isn’t very nerved up compared to the clitoris but it felt like more the motions. But tbh. I needed it. Idk I wanted to have sex and it was a nice stress relief. I just didn’t feel butterflies which kinda bummed me out but we’ve been having sex since august so that’s normal. Idk. I haven’t been able to fantasize about sex. The fact that I’m bi makes all of this so confusing. Cuz yes hypothetically I can enjoy the thought of sex with a woman. But I don’t want to rn cuz I’m dating a man. And I can’t fantasize about sex with him cuz I’m getting intrusive thoughts about my friends and I having sex. I have this urge to watch porn cuz it’s been a while but I’m not going to. I’ve cut down a lot on masturbation. Partially cuz this partially cuz I wanna do things with my bf (when I’m mentally ok) but jow my brain is saying “Oo you think all these women are so hot you’re gonna go feral blah blah blah” and yes women are hot but I don’t wanna have sex with a woman. Idk saying women are hot doesn’t bring me anxiety but the thought of sex with one or leaving my bf and saying I’m a lesbian bother me. Cuz I know it’s not true. I love him I know that. I’d be happy if we stayed together. I wouldn’t regret a thing honestly. I like having sex with him. Idc if it’s not like porn or the movies. As long as I’m being pleasured and he’s being pleasured we’re good. That’s what sex is about. I think the loss of butterflies is normal cuz the excitement of like (sorry tmi) fingering and oral eventually wears off right? But still feels good. I don’t feel as excited about intimacy anymore cuz we have done it so often but it still feels nice. But my brain perceives that as me not liking sex with men and therefore I’m gay. No I just don’t feel the need to jump his bones every single time I see him?? Idk the friend thing is bothering me. Idk if I feel any joy behind it. The groinal response really really throws my perception off
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- 9w ago
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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