- Username
- hocdgirlsummer
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I can relate to this to a certain degree, its important that we become aware of this and start working on it ASAP, losing interest and excitement for things we used to enjoy is a symptom of depression, I dont want to make anyone overtly worried, but just be aware of your feelings guys, lets all work out damnest to be the best versions of ourselves we can be! We can get through this and we will!
I know but how tho? How do i get the joy from the little things back without forcing it? Its about feeling it i csnt force the feeling bevause that not natural and for me thst will cause anxiety because i csnt handle when i dont feel things genuinely
SAME SAME GIRL OMG. My friends and I usually sit around and watch movies on Fridays and that was THE SHIT. Omg the vibe was so goooood like just me and my mates chilling with the fireplace watching a movie and it’s especially amazing on Christmas cause the vibe is so cozy and comfortable. And last week I couldn’t even get into it omg. I was panicking like crazy because I thought I’d never be happy again
Ugh i feel you (my nocd app acting up so i see all my notifications days later :( ) i hate it soo much to. My sister and i alwayd did this harry potter marathon in the winter and like this year shes all excited again like she used to be but im a whole nother perosn like im living in an alternative world where theres no happiness and cozyness and i wish i could match with her excitemend but all i can do is be anxioys
@hocdgirlsummer I can relate to this soo much. I just hope my Christmas isn’t ruined because I LOVE Christmas
This is so spot on. I used to be such a happy going person who is always laughing and now everything and I mean everything is so dark and numb. Like I am just nothing.
Period. I hope for you to get out of this state and feel things genuinely and naturally again. Its so hard like this i feel like it takes the meaning ofmy life away. Like im jusr floating around jn this world and being numb is all i can do. Know ur not alone! I suffer what you suffer and we both gotta get trough
Also one of the things I do to fight this is to pick up an interest I used to have years ago and hadn't indulged in for a long time, sometimes when things seem routine they can lose their magic. I used to really like watching anime but after high school I kind of stopped, now that I'm going through a kind of rough time I started watching it again and it really helps me. Try to break from your routine once in a while! Go to a new coffee shop, a new Restaurant, a Museum a Park, anything that can help you out of this loop!
Hey! Thank you for the tip:) i will try this. I have been trying it but for me its more thst the oversll thing loses its magic. Like imagine makeup used to be my biggest passion but thst lost its magic but right before hocd fsshion was my passion and i lost it too. Its like evrything i try to enjoy and be excited over loses its sparkle. I really appreciate ur comment snd help and i will try it out becsuse trying will never do wrong :)
This has literally been me. These thoughts have developed into incredibly suffering emotion, I feel like a bottle with everything holding inside of me, while everything on the outside is having the best time while I can’t feel it. I don’t feel any sorts of happiness. At all. This is so bad I’m sorry we all have to go through this. I don’t know about you guys, but I can’t get in touch with a therapist due to many reasons, which further crushes my hopes of becoming better.
I can 100% relate trust me. Like u explained thst spot on snd know that ur not alone. It feels comforting to hear thst im not alone in feeling these weird feelings. I always think that if i got this bad and this fcked up in a year, it has tk be possible to switxh back in a year or more too righ??
By the way, same i cant get a therapist. Im 17, they hella expensive, the waiting list in my country is about 1-3 years long... i have to fight this shit on my own
I feel so weird these days. Like I feel blank empty person with no emotions. I mean i still do get anxiety here and there but like no emotions or guilt. I see scary movies and feel no reaction, I imagine hurting other and don’t feel any guilt more like the idgaf typa feeling, before I would be in mental torture crying and depressed about being scared I was a serial killer. I would break down but no I feel urges still by no anxiety or anything. I feel mental and crazy. I would be so excited to wear makeup and excited about impressing guys and dating, but now they don’t seem real to me. Before I would care about OCD and now I’m more like idgaf anymore or what I do. What is going on ?! Am I the only one experiencing this.?
I can’t anymore. I really can’t. The what if I am attracted to them. The “why does it have to be a man with a woman” (which by the way- I only now get when women are talking in love songs. And whenever I look at any couple). I am just tired. Tired of feelings like crap. I just want to go to what I was before, but was I like this before? Have I always been like this? I am tired. My anxiety levels are ALWAYS the worse at the morning. I am starting to obsess whether I like this friend now! And it doesn’t matter how much I try to accept it, it doesn’t go away. Like there is still something wrong. I hate this. I hate this so fucking much. At this point. How can I still be straight? I literally get triggered by everything. And how can I just not be gay? I have no reason to think that but it feels so real. It’s like I have no sexuality at all. And this is all that I can think about every single hour of my day. I am even thinking about this in dreams! I even wonder that the fact I am so upset right now is because I am scared of telling people and that they won’t accept me. When I don’t even know who I am myself. I am so done. What even is this? Have I always been like this? I am getting flashbacks and it’s telling me I have.
Okay so this has been on my mjnd for a while but like, every instagram model or like celebrity is always like: i have been depressed or i am depressed and life will get better and everything. But than i see the next post and its like them looking all happy partying or its a post with the caption like: i bought a new dog im sooooo happy. While i cant get it over my heart to go to a party or buy a dog while im like this. I dont wsnt to experience all the good things i always dreamed of when im not myself because it hurts. I dont know if that makes sense but its like i want to be the old version of me before hocd the careless one and the free one and then do all the fun stuff otherwise i wont enjoy it fully. I want to enjoy things fully like i used to. So i just dont get how all these people claim to be depressed but still are happy? They are like its a rainy day omg im so happy or something and jm just like, How? How are u happy. U said u were depressed if u were wouldnt u not be posting. Wouldnt you be sad 24/7. Because thats how i experience depression. So why arent they? Im just wondering like im not a depression expert and i dont know what they are feeling but i just get so jalouse like how do they get to be happy even tho theyre depressed as they claim. What are they going trough??. People always say that if u have depression and anxiety go lay in bed grab a snack grab a blanket and just chill and let the feelinggs be there but i cant chill. My mind is always on the run. I cant do any of the old stuff i did without feeling pain because im not expierencing the same feelings thst i used to get while doing the stuff. This whole post is so messy i hope Someone understands what im talking about because like depression and hocd littetaly changed everything. Eating, sleeping, breathing everything feels different and i dont wsnt to do fun stuff when i feel like this because in the back of my mind i know that if i didnt had hocd and depression i would be genuinely happy and not even thinking about anything other than the situation thst is going on and id just be focused on having fun while not even noticing it.
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