Anonymous
- Date posted
- 17w
I know its bad but i need answers
I get these violent urges thats started randomly and now i feel like ill hurt someone it feels impossible to control almost gets me shaking
- User type
- Therapist
- Date posted
- 17w
I’m sorry you are experiencing what sounds a lot like Harm OCD. I have that too. ERP has helped me keep it under control and no longer live in fear of these intrusive thoughts, images, urges, and feelings. I hosted a Harm OCD Workshop last night. It was recorded and will be posted by NOCD. I highly recommend checking it out. I also post a lot on my Insta @tabootracie about Harm OCD and tips to navigate through it. It gets better with time and patience and ERP.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 17w
@Tracie Zinman-Ibrahim I was never a violent person or aggressive growing up but now i’ll just randomly see my family or my pets and feel like i have to hurt them , it makes me so scared of myself it feels like i shouldn’t be allowed to live anymore thank you for responding. Where can i watch the video? And ill be sure to follow your instagram
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 17w
@Tracie Zinman-Ibrahim Your whole reply got deleted before i could read it 😔
Love1another<3Love1another<3
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 17w
@Anonymous Ocd is ego-dystonic, meaning it goes against your values. So it makes complete sense that Ocd is now making you doubt whether you could act on harm thoughts, even though you were never a violent or aggressive person. Are you currently in ERP therapy?
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 17w
@OneDayAtATimee I’ve wanted to start but NOCD doesnt take my insurance so its $240 per session and I can’t afford that sadly so ive been stuck just trying to get better using this app
Love1another<3Love1another<3
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 17w
@Anonymous I’m sorry to hear. I’ve had to pay out of pocket as well. I do wish it was more affordable so it’s easier to get help :(
NOCD Therapist - Tracie INOCD Therapi...
- Date posted
- 17w
@Anonymous Oh goodness! Let’s try again. I was saying that we are not responsible for our intrusive content whether that be harm-related or not. We are not responsible and therefore need to be very kind and compassionate toward ourselves just like we are with other people who are suffering. There is hope and you are not alone. There is an excellent workbook I highly recommend called The Self-Compassion with OCD Workbook by Kimberly Quinlan. It helps you understand the concepts I mentioned above. Hang in there!
capresegirlcapresegirl
- Date posted
- 17w
SIT WITH IT. Accept the uncertainty. Your brain is craving certainty. You need to do the opposite.
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joshuadrennen
- Date posted
- 23w
struggling with harm OCD
i’m back in a cycle of having harm related OCD thoughts and feelings and urges and i get these episodes where it’s like i’m disassociating and feel like i’m about to snap and go crazy violent. does anyone else experience this? i need help
Andi 🤓☝️
- Date posted
- 21w
What is this?
Recently ive been getting very scared to even be angry bc of the horrible thoughts I have and it feels even more real when I'm angry or even annoyed. Rn I was not even super annoyed at my neice but I felt a twinge of annoyance since she went up to my face and was yelling at me while I was resting on the bed and I got this image of doing something bad to her and I felt my hand twitch very little. I got nervous and felt relieved when her dad told her to stop screaming for no reason. I've been hyperfocusing on my bodily reactions (mainly my hands or how I'm feeling like did I just enjoy that? Was I considering???) And I've noticed the small twitches whenever I'm mad or annoyed and it's scaring me so bad! Like do I want to act out? Am I holding back??? I used to not even twitch at all when mad and I felt 100% sure I'll never act out but now it feels like I don't know bc what do these twitches mean?, I do know I don't want to ever act out but it's so scary. Recently whenever I feel angry once the argument is over I cry really bad after I'm alone and I pray so i never want or act out. And when the annoyance passes I also feel so guilty and want to stay away. Im scared these are real urges and i research for many many hours to make sure they arent urges or impulses and i also tend to ask chatgpt or here if the anxiety gets so bad 😕
bradyx20
- Date posted
- 17w
don’t know what’s happening to me
i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd but I have anxiety about harming other people/family members and it’s like urges and im scared I actually want to do it? I don’t think I’ve ever been violent as a kid (im 21 now) and the intrusive thoughts don’t go away so im just stuck all day everyday for the past few weeks just thinking and being scared about it and im having all these weird emotions like being irritated and angry I don’t want to hurt people I don’t think idk why my mind is making me think I do I’ve had intrusive thoughts before that I could brush away sure it took like a day or two but this one is different it doesn’t go away and leaves me with the worst fear imaginable and nothing I look up that should be giving me relief is giving me relief + I feel like im not in control of my body and that im just gonna lose it and act on these thoughts it’s just all on a loop and im not sure how im supposed to live the rest of my life when im in constant fear of my self
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