Anonymous
- Date posted
- 23w
I know its bad but i need answers
I get these violent urges thats started randomly and now i feel like ill hurt someone it feels impossible to control almost gets me shaking
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- Therapist
- Date posted
- 23w
I’m sorry you are experiencing what sounds a lot like Harm OCD. I have that too. ERP has helped me keep it under control and no longer live in fear of these intrusive thoughts, images, urges, and feelings. I hosted a Harm OCD Workshop last night. It was recorded and will be posted by NOCD. I highly recommend checking it out. I also post a lot on my Insta @tabootracie about Harm OCD and tips to navigate through it. It gets better with time and patience and ERP.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 23w
@Tracie Zinman-Ibrahim I was never a violent person or aggressive growing up but now i’ll just randomly see my family or my pets and feel like i have to hurt them , it makes me so scared of myself it feels like i shouldn’t be allowed to live anymore thank you for responding. Where can i watch the video? And ill be sure to follow your instagram
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 23w
@Tracie Zinman-Ibrahim Your whole reply got deleted before i could read it 😔
Love1another<3Love1another<3
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 23w
@Anonymous Ocd is ego-dystonic, meaning it goes against your values. So it makes complete sense that Ocd is now making you doubt whether you could act on harm thoughts, even though you were never a violent or aggressive person. Are you currently in ERP therapy?
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 23w
@OneDayAtATimee I’ve wanted to start but NOCD doesnt take my insurance so its $240 per session and I can’t afford that sadly so ive been stuck just trying to get better using this app
Love1another<3Love1another<3
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 23w
@Anonymous I’m sorry to hear. I’ve had to pay out of pocket as well. I do wish it was more affordable so it’s easier to get help :(
NOCD Therapist - Tracie INOCD Therapi...
- Date posted
- 23w
@Anonymous Oh goodness! Let’s try again. I was saying that we are not responsible for our intrusive content whether that be harm-related or not. We are not responsible and therefore need to be very kind and compassionate toward ourselves just like we are with other people who are suffering. There is hope and you are not alone. There is an excellent workbook I highly recommend called The Self-Compassion with OCD Workbook by Kimberly Quinlan. It helps you understand the concepts I mentioned above. Hang in there!
capresegirlcapresegirl
- Date posted
- 23w
SIT WITH IT. Accept the uncertainty. Your brain is craving certainty. You need to do the opposite.
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- Date posted
- 21w
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