Does anyone recall a time where intrusive thoughts didnt bother you then all of a sudden they bothered you and you couldn’t tell the difference between your memories and intrusive thoughts.

Thankfully the internet is a thing so no need for isolation :)

@? ilshid I just found this app yesterday. I had no idea it even existed. I'm glad I did tho. Just talking helps me feel not so crazy. I go to counseling for everything but I feel she tries to help but idk if it's actually helping because she don't quite understand my thoughts and the thought process with me. Idk maybe I need to find someone specialized in intrusive thought ocd.

@nikkilynne02 I also got the so yesterday, but just reading about OCD online was such a huge help, it turned everything around! Reading the experiences and thoughts of other people on here makes me feel normal because I recognize myself in most of them. I'm slightly afraid it might be a form of reassurance and that I'll have trouble moving on if I spend too much time on here though... But at the same time at medicating myself. From what I understand, all forms of OCD involve intrusive thoughts by the way, it's not a specific subcategory! I'm guessing you mean someone specialising in OCD where the compulsions are mental and but visible to others for the most part.

I think that the more you educate yourself the calmer you will feel. That's how it is for me

Great response I think the only thing that matters is bettering ourselves

@Mod22 Indeed! It's really hard to blame somebody else or something that happened and triggered you but the reality is that it would have almost certainly happened at some point anyway, just with a different trigger... There's this General saying that goes like "something that happens to you is not your fault but you are still the one that has to take responsibility over it" I think it applies really well in this case. We don't have control over it but we are the ones that have to do something about it

@? ilshid True because this is my second form and a lot of factors were driving mine I was wrongfully diagnosed with Diabetes, had a nasty break up this January with a girl I was faithful to for the first time in my life didn’t even try to heal from that and got into two relationships plus busy with other girls partying Weed and 5 days before it happened I felt off I didn’t want sex because I was so tired of having it And eventually I stopped getting erections for a day smoker weed then that was it but it doesn’t matter anymore because it happened and now I just have to heal

@? ilshid Crazy thing is with my Hiv/ health OcD I just woke up tested and said fuck it and it was the end never bothered me since and I had it for 6 months just woke up and ended it like that, also Living alone might have triggered me because it’s my first time living in a single room dorm

@Mod22 So it's not a specific thing that triggered you in this case, but rather a combination of bad experiences..?

@? ilshid I think me not Being on my sexual A game and constantly comparing the sex with my exes is what triggered it oh and not having a boner when I tried to have sex that day because it was the first time happening but I think it all adds up

@? ilshid I really loved her and I think I need time out and chose the wrong because I kept on thinking about her even when i was with these other girls hence why me having sex with them didn’t feel right well it did at first but I had more weed than usual that week and it made me think a lot about her

@Mod22 I think it's good to identify what cause you to feel the way you do because then you can distance yourself from the intrusive thoughts and see them as what they are... A brain misfire caused by an external stressor

@? ilshid Yeah I did but now working on this is extremely hard and often the thoughts feels real too

@Mod22 Yup, sadly, I know that! :( Nothing to do but work on it and try to live normally

You could try keeping a journal?

@? ilshid I just bought one. I just need to start writing. I've had the guilt that putting these thoughts on a piece of paper make it more real at how horrible I am. It's a never ending cycle sometimes

@nikkilynne02 Ah yes, that's a concern. Like, if I don't admit that the thought crossed my mind then it will just go away. But it doesn't. it will only go away if you acknowledge that it was there and you choose to not care because you realize that it doesn't say anything about you as a person. Easier said than done but it can be done, I'm sure. it doesn't have to be a physical paper Journal, perhaps it would be better to write electronically so that you can better protect the entries in case you're worried about somebody reading them and misunderstanding...