Hi I have suffered with depression/ocd/anxiety for a long time and was wondering if anyone else feels the same or knows how’s to help a big factor in my life that is affecting me which is my mindset as I am always constantly worrying/thinking and mainly I never know If i feel things or want things like I can’t tell if what I’m thinking is what I truly want/think or is my mental illness making me thinking these things so I am always confused and second guessing myself when I have bad thoughts or different thoughts hard to explain lol as these thoughts I get I have told people them and then destroys those relationships ect as I can’t help to say to people that I am really close to

Relationship OCD

charliebee

Date posted: 5y

I think a lot of us on here feel the same way, or similar in some way or another. I've been struggling for a long time too and some days I feel like I am running out of options, but other days I feel more positive and I know help is on the way. Medication has helped me and still being able to do things I enjoy, like gaming, however some days I seem to punish myself still for only being able to do this and not feel so much stress from my ocd. Definitely speak with a doctor or seek online for help in your local area, in my area I have something called Health in Mind, hopefully you have something similar. Mine starts on the 20th. I think people struggle to understand because they don't have the same issue, everyone I explain it to doesn't understand and every person I've dated seems to run away after I tell them. Definitely focus on yourself and not focus on relationships, but of course speak with family and close friends and try to explain it in a way where they can understand. I've recently told my mum and brother about this, and the easiest way was to say that I struggle to control my thoughts and any random thing can come into mind and cause stress. Socialising has been a big factor and relationships as well, so I explained those 2 themes with them. My other themes however, regarding harm, pocd and sexual thoughts, I feel like they wouldn't understand and it would destroy out relationships, so I'm waiting to discuss with a therapist. I think it might be best for you to do the same and seek professional help. I'm hoping it can help me, and hopefully it can help you. All the best, stay strong.

Natedog

Date posted: 5y

Thanks mate yeah I’m waiting too to talk to a therapist so hopefully it will help when you say about focusing on myself totally do you think there is possibility to have a relationship with someone as kinda do wanna relationship with someone but is complicated as this has ruined it and been the reason behind me finally getting help do you think now I’m getting it that it would be fine to both focus on myself but also have a relationship complicated lol thanks tho

charliebee

Date posted: 5y

@Natedog Honestly I think a relationship only complicates it further whilst you're still trying to understand it. I was with someone for 3 years whilst not knowing what this all was, and it's still sticking with me a year later after break up. So much guilt I carry for little reason, but can't help blame myself for not getting to the bottom of my issues. I mean it's different for everyone, you might find someone perfect that understands it fully, but since my break up I've been feeling empty as no one I've been trying to date understands, so I blame myself further. I'm trying to get my self under control, after therapy I think I'll be ready to date again. You might find that person for you mate, but imo it's a gamble and you might hurt yourself more as a lot of people don't understand or are willing to understand. You might feel better after a month or so of meds as I have in the past whilst being able to not pay much attention to thoughts, are you on anything to help?

Natedog

Date posted: 5y

@charliebee I had the same thing was with my ex for 2 years but my mental illness got much worse and couldn’t help but tell her the bad thoughts and the confusion in my head ect so destroyed it as before and now that I see more clearly really loved her I believe and now feel like If I sorted my head I could sort start again with her cos I don’t wanna lose it if ya get me but Ik I’m still not fully right only a little bit better and see clearer slightly but now I see what I should have done lol and not said my thoughts but is and was so hard not to as we were close and was the only one I spoke to. But everything is still really crap for me mentally but I am trying now atleast to make the right steps eventhough it doesn’t feel like it will change. Yeh I did two week trial of meds but need to get more as I think I need anything I can get to help me lol thanks bud sos for complicated long message ?

charliebee

Date posted: 5y

Yeah very similar to me mate, but at least we are learning from it all. Unfortunately we may never get that chance with them again but we can only learn from our mistakes. Def get back into your meds as I know a lot can take a good month or so until they start working properly, they've been helping me massively these past few months and I don't think I can live without them at the moment. Np for the long message, it helps getting stuff out even if it's through text, takes our mind away from the rubbish that goes on in our brains lol. All the best mate.

Natedog

Date posted: 5y

Thank you mate that helped a lot appreciate it

charliebee

Date posted: 5y

@Natedog Stay strong mate

Natedog

Date posted: 5y

@charliebee You too bud

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