So I started therapy yesterday and I know the first session is always weird but she told me she doesn’t think I have OCD but instead repressed anger?! It wasn’t a definite diagnosis but now I’m just feeling even worse. And I don’t think the repressed anger would fuel intrusive thoughts and obsessions? Everything I do is OCD and I’ve also been told my other therapists it’s OCD. I don’t know what to do now, so any advice would be great.

You should get a second opinion. Therapists make mistakes, they’re human. But another therapist could give you another opinion and confirm that you do have ocd

Good thing she let this belief of hers slip in the first session. RUN AWAY now! This lady is NOT an OCD specialist. Psychoanalysis (aka Freud) is NOT effective for OCD. This theory assumes all intrusive thoughts have significant meaning— they most certainly do not! Find someone on the IOCDF website or who at least believes in strict CBt

Is she an OCD specialist? I’ve heard that a lot of therapists aren’t educated enough in OCD and don’t know how to properly diagnose it. Maybe she’s not educated in it enough

And at the end of the day, I know it’s hard. But trust yourself. Your thoughts aren’t desires. They’re just intrusive thoughts

It's biological and in my opinion trying to "relate" to your OCD is a total waste of time. Analyzing the "theme" means nothing- themes change all the time for people. Saying the OCD stems from some repression or something doesn't really help and in like your exact case it's just making you question yourself further causing more distress. Yes - run for the hills away from this lady - she's not the therapist for someone with OCD - she doesn't understand this illness at all imho.

You have compulsions right?

It sounds like she is from a psychodynamic background. Is she a psychoanalyst? Therapists with a psychodynamic background do not offer CBT. Why did u stop from your first therapist?

Thank you! I do think I need to find someone else - but now I think If i don’t have OCD hen I’d be wasting their time. It’s a never ending cycle ain’t it guys

If she isn’t familiar she’s gunna play talk therapy and try to work through your themes... your themes are not the problem... it’s the thoughts and there need to create a disconnect between your identity of sense of self and that of your intrusive thoughts... really powerful YouTube video called “Pure O” and At the end it talks about different therapy techniques, I think it’s worth a watch. (Not saying you have pure O, but that you may have compulsions too, but treatment is the same).

Yeah I do - and urges. And she said she specialises in OCD but then said she doesn’t offer CBT as she doesn’t think it is effective for OCD. I’m honestly so confused and am now worrying my thoughts are desires :(

Yeah good plan. I’m just worrying now that I’m not reacting to my thoughts/urges (not becoming sad by them) which means I want to do them. I just don’t understand what else intrusive thoughts could mean if not OCD or that I am a bad person? And I moved away and she didn’t specialise in OCD - she was more of a counsellor who kind of suggested I have it and that I find a specialist.

Like honestly it’s horrible now because I think I want to do the thoughts but hate the fact that I think I want to. Sorry for this guys

People do have intrusive thoughts without having ocd. The ocd portion is more worrying resulting from the intrusive thoughts and compulsions to stop the worrying. So having intrusive thoughts without being ocd is not a sign of you being a bag person. But ya see a specialist and they’ll help more :) and bad people don’t worry about being a bad person so you’re definitely not

Hmmm that’s weird she would say that... second opinion... also if she’s an ocd specialist then she should be offering cbt, ert, etc.. I would recommend contacting someone else who is highly specialized, which can be hard to find but probably worth it...