Reasons why I’m scared I fee like this will change the way I look at women forever Scared to tell my parents how I feel because my dad is a pastor and Me having HoCd will probably mean I have the devil in me Scared because I’m From South Africa and probably no one has ever went to a therapist about this before Scared because I can’t afford a therapist Scared because I’m not fully diagnosed of OCD and they might just say I’m Gay Scared because my dream of Having a wife and children might not come to a reality Scared that I might just start drinking everyday to numb the pain ☹️

Sexual Orientation OCD

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

Scared that this might taunt me for years. I need help☹️

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

First thing have you looked for any charity organisation that can help you?

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

Tried to look for the Kevin love foundation but I cant seem to find where I can apply. Do you know of any?

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

I'm not in SA but have a good look for one. It wont last forever and drinking wont fix it my friend

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

I know bro it fixes it momentarily I was in a dark space This June and I was even thinking about suicide but I realized that I have more to live for I’m just really trying to be better but whenever I try I seem to fail sometimes and sometimes I do well

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Take a look on YouTube for help lots of people out there you are not alone

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

I don’t have major anxiety I suffer more from external factors now like gay pictures Guys on tv And on my phone Pride flags and a constant heavy heart and head and sometimes Hocd dreams And these things sort of make me depressed because I never used to feel that way

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@Mod22 Yes but you can learn to cope with it bit by bit have a search

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

@Telecaster Yeah on Good days I do on bad days I don’t I went home this June and I felt really normal because I don’t get triggered by a lot of things they aren’t gays or pride flags etc and also being around the fam helps because I’m 10 hours away from home and here everything is different they are so many triggers so many gay guys etc etc

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@Mod22 Do you try to avoid pride flags etc?

albert79

Date posted: 5y

Ure Muslim brother?!

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

Christian

pureolife

Date posted: 5y

I’m so sorry you’re feeling this low right now. I’ve been in a similar place and I know how painful it can be. Unfortunately, if you’re in an area where access to an OCD Specialist is limited, you may have to go online and look for online or teletherapy. The resources for OCD our there can be pretty scant in many areas of the world. But you need a specialist. Most therapists/psychologists/psychiatrists aren’t well versed in Pure O themes. I’m not sure if this will help you, but here’s a resource page: https://iocdf.org/ocd-finding-help/find-help/

pureolife

Date posted: 5y

Also, a quick and easy way to feel more empowered on your own is simply to start reading. There are a lot of great books and workbooks out there that can help you understand what’s going on and how to treat it: https://ocdla.com/ocdreadings

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

Thank you so much

hocdgirlsummer

Date posted: 5y

I feel for you, i have the same fears. I prayed to god so much. But i just csnt feel better

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

I know it feels shitty as fuck

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