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This is killing me slowly day by day, im a straight female 20 years old, i started getting hocd after a break up with an ex and coming off intense use of 🍁🍃 for a few years on and off, i think it has messed up my brain so bad… my hocd is weird because ive been with men my whole life always wanted to be with men.. i also used to always question every relationship “do i love him? Does he love me? Am I with the right person?” Anyways after my hocd triggered my tocd due to researching hocd and finding they can often be linked, I started getting tocd and it’s worse then ever because it’s not who I want to be and I’m going back to situations where my abusive ex partner called me a “man” during a fight. I’ve always been a tomboy but never had same sex attraction. Help. This is killing me. I haven’t been able to study or leave the house most days, and work! I’ve lost motivation for everything and I’m in a dark hole. I need some success stories please

Ocidokie

Date posted: 30w

I'm so sorry you go through this. Yes, there is hope. Especially if you get professional targeted help. In NOCD website you can find more on how to battle with this. Remember, you are not alone. And it does and will get better.

anxiousgirlhelp

Date posted: 30w

@Ocidokie Have you been through it? Have you recovered? I just want to be my old self ☹️

Ocidokie

Date posted: 30w

@anxiousgirlhelp Not fully, I still have ups and downs but much much better now.

Ocidokie

Date posted: 30w

@Anonymous For me it was professional help (psychiatrist) and pills. And a lot of effort. If you try alone, check on NOCD website for concepts like reassurance seeking. Exposure is difficult but has results.

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