I feel like a bad Christian

The fact u have this thought make u a good christain bc ocd only attack what matters to u

I've had similar thoughts most of my life. It does get better once the fear response dies down I have found the thoughts die down too

I'm so sorry you're going through this :( I would like to think God would have love and compassion for all people, which includes us mental heath sufferers. No one should be judged or seen as a bad person for simply having intrusive thoughts. Those are uncontrollable and in general, thoughts are simply just thoughts. They are not actions

Hi Andrea - you should check out Mark DeJesus online. He is so good at understanding so many triggers that Christians with OCD have. I think A lot of what you are experiencing I feel is caused by a harsh view of God….like God is just waiting for you to mess up so He can bash you over the head. But He is the opposite, He is full of grace towards you - no matter how much you feel like the opposite. I wrote a book called “Waging War Against OCD - A Christian Approach to Victory.” It’s on Amazon. I think you would like Chapter 9 which is all about the grace of God. I hope this helps!

Hello 👋🏽 I personally have dealt with spirituality ocd as a Christian, and the truth is that you haven’t committed the unforgivable sin. Because one is surely aware and certain if they have committed it before, and I know that God sees your sincere heart. If you can, find a group of Christian friends who will pray with you and not judge you, based on your experiences. Praying that you can overcome 🙏🏽❤️

Hi Andrea, humans tend to imagine a lot of things especially if they are bored or stressed trying to keep the brain active. I used to be disappointed in God because I was taught God was supposed to do what I thought parents should be and if I did something i should be blessed as a reward or if I suffered I should get help. I saw miracles and downfalls to realize oh humans are supposed to follow God not God be humans image nor humans be God. They can try to follow God's will yet still expected to fail in the sense of we humans, God knows when we're trying versus a passing thought. So these bad thoughts i treat myself with kindness like loving a cat. Cat has their own rules and idea what is safe and what they want to happen and random acts of love and hate at me. Helps me get along with other humans too when they act out. I mean if God were supposed to be like the parents that protect, I've rarely seen a parent that could uphold every part of their life as an individual, parent, spouse, employee, church member, friend, etc. Usually the parent is over protective or under protective or was just enough protective yet now turned as under or over protective the moment the child reaches a certain state of mind that they don't need their parent anymore to be more free. We got our moments of tantrums, God can handle it. It doesn't make you love God less just because you have also other feelings. It helped me let go of my expectation of God as well as myself as I've done so many times thinking I knew better and I end up making it worse. Being loving and kind was the real credit while anxiety took the credit. Also I've witnessed many times God helped people or people saw God yet they still didn't believe in God, but if something goes wrong suddenly God exists and they are upset at God. People treat me the same way, don't want me to exist until they need something yet also not affected if I do or do not do something to their life. It's a weird we have little influence to people unless we both matter to each other and even then it doesn't promise expected results.

Mmmm there is thousands of religions you could have been born into a different one, I love God a lot but do u really think God would let his own son be tortured? I mean would you do that to your own son? I have been with Catholicism and Christianity since I was born but tbh seeing Jesus on the cross looks like witchcraft, Jesus didn’t wright the Bible men did. But one thing I do is pray to the creator or all things. To me it’s hard to believe everything in the Bible, after all Jesus didn’t wright it.

Trust me i have those all the time it suck but it makes me happy that we have a god that does not change bc of our thought i dont want to Concrete u bc it will Reinforce this thought

If god turn into what my ocd say he is a demon would be a angle lol