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Ok firstly, your OCD does not determine if your going to hell. If Jesus was merciful enough to go to the cross, He will obviously be merciful enough to forgive you for something you cant control. Im no expert, but really. You should speak to someone. If you can, try find a balance between spiritual help, and help from someone else who is trustworthy in a Christian community near you. He loved you enough to die for you, and He wont stop now. He doesnt go back. ❤️

I deal with the same issue. I have blasphemous thoughts almost everyday. They come while reading the Bible, while I'm praising the Lord, in the middle of prayer or just reflecting on where the Lord has taken me. My compulsion is to say a quick hallelujah. It drove me nuts. I love God but these thoughts brought decades of distress. They are extremely distracting and I use to turn all my attention towards those thoughts. What helped me is to really learn who God is. Our Father is merciful, compassionate, and extremely patient. This is how He described Himself. Our God does not lie, He is a promise keeping God. We can not control our thoughts. Why would our Creator, who created us, knew us before we were born, is the Author of our lives and is the final Word punish us for things that are out of our control? We were born into a broken world and we are also broken. Our faith is that it will all be fixed. Our guarantee is the Cross. These thoughts, let them come. What I've learned is that the harder you fight them, the more control and power you give to them. Let them come and let them go. These thoughts can not hurt you. They do not harm your salvation. God loves you, is for you and He will never abandon you. He goes wherever you will go. That is another one of His promises. You are an overcomer and in order to be an overcomer, you must overcome something. Victory is already yours because the war has already been won.