Shaodidi
- Date posted
- 12w
Questions
TW So any feeling of attraction towards prepubescent kids is considered pedophilia right? So I cannot feel any attraction towards kids or I’ll be a pedo right?
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 12w
I've thought some kid looks attractive then yesterday found a character attractive and it turns out the character is 11 and this fact didn't stopped me just because 'the character doesn't looks 11' I feel really hopeless
OutstandingCutieDisorderOutstandingC...
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 12w
OCD makes you feel false attraction, so there isn’t really a concrete response to that question. For most people, yes. But for people with OCD, no not necessarily.
ShaodidiShaodidi
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- 12w
@Anonymustard K I was just diagnosss with ocd but I don’t believe it, the attraction feeling and thoughts just feel too real, I don’t understand it, I also lied on one of the questions about arousal for the ocd diagnosis, I said that I don’t feel aroused even when I sometimes do, I’m worried it isn’t ocd bc of that and the attraction feelings.
ShaodidiShaodidi
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- 12w
@Anonymustard I’m just worried that my diagnosis isn’t true and that I am a pedo bc of the attraction and arousal feelings I feel sometimes when I see kids or get thoughts of them, I think I don’t want those feelings, but I can’t tell anymore.
OutstandingCutieDisorderOutstandingC...
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@Shaodidi I obviously don’t know anything but it seems like you have ocd to me. I also doubted my diagnosis at first (and still sometimes) but my therapist told me that I have to just lean into it. Maybe I have ocd maybe I don’t. That’s what you will have to do as well.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 12w
I don't know if it was false
YouWillSurviveYouWillSurvive
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- 12w
@Anonymous You'll never be able to know if it was false that's the thing...you can't prove anything right or wrong with OCD. Don't try to stop anything you feel, the more you try to stop and figure it all out, the more anxiety you have because anything you do WON'T work, trust me. I've had the same doubts as you in was in a living hell...but it's bullshit! Have faith my friend.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 12w
@YouWillSurvive But I have done really bad things.. I know they don't decide my whole life but well.. as I described knowing that the character is 11 didn't stopped me I can't tell if my previous mistakes were just mistakes
YouWillSurviveYouWillSurvive
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- 12w
The fact that you're doubting everything so much shows that you have OCD. Trust me. It's "the doubting disorder". You will doubt your doubts, and then doubt your doubt about your doubts. It sends you on endless loops of questions with no answers, and when it gets tied in with groinal responses and false arousal it REALLY sucks. You will never prove anything to OCD that it won't doubt, you'll never win an argument with your mind when you have OCD. If you're having thoughts and feelings you don't like and feel that you can never let them go without an answer, it's OCD.
ShaodidiShaodidi
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- 12w
@YouWillSurvive For me the attraction feels so genuine, it comes along with the thoughts when I listen to love songs or smth, I used to fight it to try to prove I’m not a pedo, but now I’m too tired to fight it anymore, I’m worried that it means that I’m becoming a pedo, it feels like I’m accepting that I am a pedo.
ShaodidiShaodidi
- Date posted
- 12w
@YouWillSurvive Could you tell me what it mean?
YouWillSurviveYouWillSurvive
- Date posted
- 11w
@Shaodidi Again, it could feel like real attraction but it's not. The more you try to prove it isn't real attraction the more it will create fear and make it feel increasingly real.
YouWillSurviveYouWillSurvive
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- 11w
@Shaodidi I can't tell you if you are or aren't a pedophile, but to me it sounds like OCD your is taking over a bit and you haven't gained any insight about it. Anything can feel real if you have low insight about your OCD, basically meaning your perspective about it is very limited.
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Shaodidi
- Date posted
- 13w
I’m overwhelmed, I can’t stand it.
I keep getting thoughts of this 6 year old kid n I don’t know what to do, they keep coming and they give me a sense of attraction, I don’t wanna be attracted to kids, it feels too real as well, I feel a need to check if I was attracted or not constantly, and it genuinely feels like attraction, please help me I don’t wanna be a pedo. Whenever I try to think abt something romantic or about someone my age I’m actually into, that kid keeps popping up.
Shaodidi
- Date posted
- 11w
Doubting pocd
So I just read a Reddit post about how this guy found out that he was a pedo because of how he started feeling that he was still attracted to middle schoolers as a 14 year old in high school and it never changed even when he got into adulthood. I’m currently under the age of 16 and I’m worried of my attraction feelings I felt towards some kids I’ve seen on social media and real life, I’m not sure if they are false or not. I have gotten a diagnosis, I remember lying on 2 questions, saying I didn’t feel aroused and that i don’t enjoy the thoughts n feelings. I’m not sure if i enjoy the thoughts and feelings, and now im worried i about it, i dont feel worry dread panic or shame and disgust when I get those thoughts and feelings anymore. I also remember that when i was 14 I felt attracted to a 12 or 11 year old, i kept going back to look at her idk why, but i think that i was worried because I didn’t want to be attracted to younger aged ppl. Im worried that all of these feelings of attraction aren’t false and that they are a reflection of who i am. I do not wish to be a pedo, nor do I wish to like kids. I know that I won’t hurt kids, but I’m scared that I am a pedo because of the feelings I get. I don’t understand myself anymore, I hope it’s pocd not actual pedophilia, I don’t trust that diagnosis I got because of those 2 questions I lied on, I said that i don’t like those thoughts n feelings even though I don’t know if I really do or not, can someone please help me? Idk what I have anymore, I don’t want it to be pedophilia
Shaodidi
- Date posted
- 11w
Pocd or not??
So I was never diagnosed with pocd but many ppl said that I have it and my therapist also said that I have ocd, I’ve recently been getting these thoughts and feelings of attraction towards kids, idk if it’s real attraction or not, but I worry that it’s true attraction because I don’t feel panic and anxiety towards those thoughts and feelings anymore, I used to feel that, but I also never felt shame or guilt for those thoughts and feelings. I also can’t tell if I want those thoughts and feelings or not. When I get those thoughts and feelings, I tell myself “I can’t be attracted to kids” and “being attracted to kids is bad” and “I wouldn’t like kids”. The main thing is I can tell if I am attracted to the kids or not, I feel like I want to know, but I also don’t know if I want to be attracted to kids or not, yet the attraction feeling feels so genuine, I can’t tell if it’s false or not, I try to compare my attraction towards a girl my age to the feelings I get when I see the kids. I’m also under the age of 16, and I’ve heard that people under the age of 16 are at risk of developing p#dophilia, I’m pretty sure I don’t want to become a pedo. But I can’t tell what I want anymore, I can’t tell if my feelings intrusive or not. Even though some people said that I have “textbook ocd” I still don’t believe it. These feelings and thoughts, I just don’t understand if I want and like them or not, idk if I WANT to like or want them. I also lied on 2 questions for the ocd diagnosis about liking the thoughts which I don’t know if I do or not, I said that I think I don’t when in reality I don’t know if I do or not. And the second question where I said I don’t feel aroused even though sometimes I do, idk why I get aroused for that stuff, idk if I want to be aroused or if I don’t want to be aroused. Can someone give me advice pls? ANT to like or want them. I also lied on 2 questions for the ocd diagnosis about liking the thoughts which I don’t know if I do or not, I said that I think I don’t when in reality I don’t know if I do or not. And the second question where I said I don’t feel aroused even though sometimes I do, idk why I get aroused for that stuff, idk if I want to be aroused or if I don’t want to be aroused. I also used to watch p#rn a lot, I was exposed to it at a young age cause I was a stupid ass kid once, I got addicted to it and watched it every day, when all of these feelings and thoughts started, I completely stopped watching p#rn which fixed that, but now I’m worried it was a sign of something bad because I heard that early porn exposure creates mental issues and stuff, so I don’t know if I have pocd or actual pedophilia anymore. I’m also currently tryin to get a relationship with a girl my age. Can someone give me advice on all of this pls? Idk what all of this means anymore :(
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