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TW So any feeling of attraction towards prepubescent kids is considered pedophilia right? So I cannot feel any attraction towards kids or I’ll be a pedo right?

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Anonymous

Date posted: 27w

I've thought some kid looks attractive then yesterday found a character attractive and it turns out the character is 11 and this fact didn't stopped me just because 'the character doesn't looks 11' I feel really hopeless

OutstandingC...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 27w

OCD makes you feel false attraction, so there isn’t really a concrete response to that question. For most people, yes. But for people with OCD, no not necessarily.

Shaodidi

Date posted: 27w

@Anonymustard K I was just diagnosss with ocd but I don’t believe it, the attraction feeling and thoughts just feel too real, I don’t understand it, I also lied on one of the questions about arousal for the ocd diagnosis, I said that I don’t feel aroused even when I sometimes do, I’m worried it isn’t ocd bc of that and the attraction feelings.

Shaodidi

Date posted: 27w

@Anonymustard I’m just worried that my diagnosis isn’t true and that I am a pedo bc of the attraction and arousal feelings I feel sometimes when I see kids or get thoughts of them, I think I don’t want those feelings, but I can’t tell anymore.

OutstandingC...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 27w

@Shaodidi I obviously don’t know anything but it seems like you have ocd to me. I also doubted my diagnosis at first (and still sometimes) but my therapist told me that I have to just lean into it. Maybe I have ocd maybe I don’t. That’s what you will have to do as well.

Anonymous

Date posted: 27w

I don't know if it was false

YouWillSurvive

Date posted: 27w

@Anonymous You'll never be able to know if it was false that's the thing...you can't prove anything right or wrong with OCD. Don't try to stop anything you feel, the more you try to stop and figure it all out, the more anxiety you have because anything you do WON'T work, trust me. I've had the same doubts as you in was in a living hell...but it's bullshit! Have faith my friend.

Anonymous

Date posted: 27w

@YouWillSurvive But I have done really bad things.. I know they don't decide my whole life but well.. as I described knowing that the character is 11 didn't stopped me I can't tell if my previous mistakes were just mistakes

YouWillSurvive

Date posted: 27w

The fact that you're doubting everything so much shows that you have OCD. Trust me. It's "the doubting disorder". You will doubt your doubts, and then doubt your doubt about your doubts. It sends you on endless loops of questions with no answers, and when it gets tied in with groinal responses and false arousal it REALLY sucks. You will never prove anything to OCD that it won't doubt, you'll never win an argument with your mind when you have OCD. If you're having thoughts and feelings you don't like and feel that you can never let them go without an answer, it's OCD.

Shaodidi

Date posted: 27w

@YouWillSurvive For me the attraction feels so genuine, it comes along with the thoughts when I listen to love songs or smth, I used to fight it to try to prove I’m not a pedo, but now I’m too tired to fight it anymore, I’m worried that it means that I’m becoming a pedo, it feels like I’m accepting that I am a pedo.

Shaodidi

Date posted: 27w

@YouWillSurvive Could you tell me what it mean?

YouWillSurvive

Date posted: 27w

@Shaodidi Again, it could feel like real attraction but it's not. The more you try to prove it isn't real attraction the more it will create fear and make it feel increasingly real.

YouWillSurvive

Date posted: 27w

@Shaodidi I can't tell you if you are or aren't a pedophile, but to me it sounds like OCD your is taking over a bit and you haven't gained any insight about it. Anything can feel real if you have low insight about your OCD, basically meaning your perspective about it is very limited.

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