Shaodidi
- Date posted
- 23w
Pocd
Is pocd ment to feel so real and convince you that you’re a p with all of the attraction feelings, arousal, and thoughts? Are you supposed to not know if you like it or not?
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 23w
You are looking for reassurance which will not help you in the long run. But, yes, I believe the whole point behind ocd especially POCD is to make you doubt your thoughts, feelings and emotions. All of which are tormented with this subset. What helped me in terms of the arousal is knowing that the gronial response is the opposite of what you’re actually feeling… And, knowing that OCD wants you to ruminate on what the thoughts/ feelings actually mean, instead of realizing they are just intrusive thoughts that mean nothing!
maariamaaria
- Date posted
- 4w
Ohh this is actually very helpful and calmig. I am in the middle of the ”episode” and I was wondering the same thing. I feel guolty if I don’t stress about it because I think it means it is true and I am running away from it.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- Yesterday
I was inspired to start working with what Anonymous member has commented: Yes, you are looking for reassurance. You yourself, Anonymous member, have given some reassurance and some even likes your response. I like that you gave some reassurance by sharing what you have learned with your take on the pocd situation. I believe there is more to this and that POCD was never meant to happen. I believe that spiritually, bodily and mindfulluly(, -side note: individual's mind as a noun, equals the sum of the brain and the heart connections of any one individual,),(-side note: I truly believe there are some individuals who(m?) do not require brains or hearts to live mindfulluly, different,? -yes, yet, still ,(in this sense used similarly to the word, also), capable of mindfullness, yet may be a work in progress that The Two Male and Female Creators of All must still being working on or/and working with all involved from the present because times change; if they (they, in this message starting at the point where I, Amber Rose Ragusi B×, stated "I believe" referring to all the ways I have: at any point said, or typed, or stated, or written The Two Creators of All (- ,(or another way to say- there's synonyms), to the first and only truly naturally ritefully destinational new modern worldly humane two Creators of All as in there are two separate beings who ) were not here in the present time; we would be stuck in the past or a false future because I know that The Two Creators know that every individual even as small as the molecules within a single blade of grass or another way of saying piece of grass deserves free will that means
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- Yesterday
I, Amber Rose Ragusi B×, will comment more on the meaning of free as in free will for all or liberty for all, there isn't justice for all without liberty for all, as in what I meant in my previous message, along with some difficulties, causing a "premature comment send", but there were some adjustments that I added in the second comment,) free will, as in- truly: naturally riteful, destinational, new modern worldly free will. I (do) know
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- Yesterday
"Do you Realize"-Amber Rose Ragusi (Bx
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- Yesterday
No matter what you have done. -Amber Rose Ragusi (Bx If you have done something, anything, that you feel was a sin or unforgivable or even blasphemy you are all for givable we will all get to realize. I still need the existential conversational experience with the man I truly romantically ( and teamwork with as a partner,) because there is no romance without teamwork, love: who(m?) I called the one I love -Amber Rose Ragusi (Bx
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- Yesterday
Side note- there are synonyms with what I have named, just because one word is a synonym to the other does not always mean the exact same thing, yet sometimes the person who communicated in any form may have meant the same thing. Or been named differently, words are a form of name as well, yet mean the same, yet situational to natural connections involved. There are also synonyms forms of names -Amber Rose Ragusi (Bx
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- Yesterday
This original post is from 23 weeks ago. My comments are all from the same day in the present 2025 twenty-twentyfive as in the year two-thousand-twenty-five after death in the present time the day is or the date I am commenting from is November Sixth Twenty Twenty Five 🕠🕔 The Sun shares rays of sunshine. The Sun was the heart of The Creator of All's universe. One of The Two Creators of All is a Creator of All Except for Himself (The First God and or Goddess) The 2 Creators of All also created themselves. I really need to have that existential conversational experience with my future husband. -Amber Rose Ragusi (Bx
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- Yesterday
I, Amber Rose Ragusi (Bx have also asked the same question (,when I was a teenager living in my mom's house even though it was not under her name the house was under her "husband's" name,) as Shaodidi and felt as though I received the same response to my question of the "Anonymous member" and this app has been helpful to me as well. Never Alone
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Shaodidi
- Date posted
- 23w
Pocd or not??
So I was never diagnosed with pocd but many ppl said that I have it and my therapist also said that I have ocd, I’ve recently been getting these thoughts and feelings of attraction towards kids, idk if it’s real attraction or not, but I worry that it’s true attraction because I don’t feel panic and anxiety towards those thoughts and feelings anymore, I used to feel that, but I also never felt shame or guilt for those thoughts and feelings. I also can’t tell if I want those thoughts and feelings or not. When I get those thoughts and feelings, I tell myself “I can’t be attracted to kids” and “being attracted to kids is bad” and “I wouldn’t like kids”. The main thing is I can tell if I am attracted to the kids or not, I feel like I want to know, but I also don’t know if I want to be attracted to kids or not, yet the attraction feeling feels so genuine, I can’t tell if it’s false or not, I try to compare my attraction towards a girl my age to the feelings I get when I see the kids. I’m also under the age of 16, and I’ve heard that people under the age of 16 are at risk of developing p#dophilia, I’m pretty sure I don’t want to become a pedo. But I can’t tell what I want anymore, I can’t tell if my feelings intrusive or not. Even though some people said that I have “textbook ocd” I still don’t believe it. These feelings and thoughts, I just don’t understand if I want and like them or not, idk if I WANT to like or want them. I also lied on 2 questions for the ocd diagnosis about liking the thoughts which I don’t know if I do or not, I said that I think I don’t when in reality I don’t know if I do or not. And the second question where I said I don’t feel aroused even though sometimes I do, idk why I get aroused for that stuff, idk if I want to be aroused or if I don’t want to be aroused. Can someone give me advice pls? ANT to like or want them. I also lied on 2 questions for the ocd diagnosis about liking the thoughts which I don’t know if I do or not, I said that I think I don’t when in reality I don’t know if I do or not. And the second question where I said I don’t feel aroused even though sometimes I do, idk why I get aroused for that stuff, idk if I want to be aroused or if I don’t want to be aroused. I also used to watch p#rn a lot, I was exposed to it at a young age cause I was a stupid ass kid once, I got addicted to it and watched it every day, when all of these feelings and thoughts started, I completely stopped watching p#rn which fixed that, but now I’m worried it was a sign of something bad because I heard that early porn exposure creates mental issues and stuff, so I don’t know if I have pocd or actual pedophilia anymore. I’m also currently tryin to get a relationship with a girl my age. Can someone give me advice on all of this pls? Idk what all of this means anymore :(
Shaodidi
- Date posted
- 23w
Pocd??
So I was never diagnosed with pocd but many ppl said that I have it and my therapist also said that I have ocd, I’ve recently been getting these thoughts and feelings of attraction towards kids, idk if it’s real attraction or not, but I worry that it’s true attraction because I don’t feel panic and anxiety towards those thoughts and feelings anymore, I used to feel that, but I also never felt shame or guilt for those thoughts and feelings. I also can’t tell if I want those thoughts and feelings or not. When I get those thoughts and feelings, I tell myself “I can’t be attracted to kids” and “being attracted to kids is bad” and “I wouldn’t like kids”. The main thing is I can tell if I am attracted to the kids or not, I feel like I want to know, but I also don’t know if I want to be attracted to kids or not, yet the attraction feeling feels so genuine, I can’t tell if it’s false or not, I try to compare my attraction towards a girl my age to the feelings I get when I see the kids. I’m also under the age of 16, and I’ve heard that people under the age of 16 are at risk of developing p#dophilia, I’m pretty sure I don’t want to become a pedo. But I can’t tell what I want anymore, I can’t tell if my feelings intrusive or not. Even though some people said that I have “textbook ocd” I still don’t believe it. These feelings and thoughts, I just don’t understand if I want and like them or not, idk if I WANT to like or want them. I also lied on 2 questions for the ocd diagnosis about liking the thoughts which I don’t know if I do or not, I said that I think I don’t when in reality I don’t know if I do or not. And the second question where I said I don’t feel aroused even though sometimes I do, idk why I get aroused for that stuff, idk if I want to be aroused or if I don’t want to be aroused. Can someone give me advice pls? ANT to like or want them. I also lied on 2 questions for the ocd diagnosis about liking the thoughts which I don’t know if I do or not, I said that I think I don’t when in reality I don’t know if I do or not. And the second question where I said I don’t feel aroused even though sometimes I do, idk why I get aroused for that stuff, idk if I want to be aroused or if I don’t want to be aroused. I also used to watch p#rn a lot, I was exposed to it at a young age cause I was a stupid ass kid once, I got addicted to it and watched it every day, when all of these feelings and thoughts started, I completely stopped watching p#rn which fixed that, but now I’m worried it was a sign of something bad because I heard that early porn exposure creates mental issues and stuff, so I don’t know if I have pocd or actual pedophilia anymore. I’m also currently tryin to get a relationship with a girl my age. Can someone give me advice on all of this pls? Idk what all of this means anymore :( (edited) I also keep getting thoughts of kids and I’m worried I’m attracted to a specific part of them, because most of the thoughts include that specific part of the kid. Im also attracted to that specific part on adults, but I’m worried that it’s a sign I’m a pedo because it manifests on the thoughts of kids
Shaodidi
- Date posted
- 22w
How do I truly know if it’s ocd or not?
So how would I know if it’s truly ocd or not? Like by accepting uncertainty, will I eventually realize if it was false or true attraction and if it was actually ocd or not? For example I was out today, right after my therapy appointment, I saw a kid that looked exactly like this girl my age that I was into. I felt a sense of attraction and I immediately went into the restroom to hide or smth I don’t remember, but when I came out I think I avoided looking at the kid. Idk if it was false attraction or not, I hope it was but I’m not sure. I can’t really tell. FYI I was never formally diagnosed with pocd before, but my therapist said that I have it but I still don’t believe it. I still feel like it’s not pocd because of the attraction feelings, I can’t tell if I like the feelings or not. I don’t feel any of panic, worry, distress, guilt or shame after any of those feelings. I did start crying when I got home tho idk why or what for, but I went to take a nap for a while and when I woke up it kind of became clearer if it was real or false attraction, but it’s still really unclear, I don’t get why I would feel that way towards a literal child, is it bc she looked like this girl my age that I was into? I hope it was false attraction, still can’t tell.
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