- Date posted
- 5y
- Date posted
- 5y
Give it time ❤️ I know im not a lesbian because i just got a boyfriend, if i was a lesbian i wouldnt want to be with my boyfriend or have sex with him.
- Date posted
- 5y
Comparing yourself to others is a bad trap dont fall into it If you want something write it down and go out and get it
- Date posted
- 5y
Hey, i get what u mean but with hocd it aint that easy lol. But she helps me face my fear so im not comparing her with me, its more thst she helps me being able to still be my while in trying to heal :)
- Date posted
- 5y
But by * accepting* it my brain immediately says that i actually should start liking girls now which comes with a lot of fake attracred which turns into anxiety sooo... idk if this is gonna help
- Date posted
- 5y
You don’t need to accept that you are bi, you just need to accept that you have thoughts about it and ultimately they are just thoughts.
- Date posted
- 5y
@Kirk1334 Well i wish but i already did that and it s not helping. Its like, everyone who i know that has recovered had to face their fears. Its something thst really makes impact. Its like exposure therapy u know. Im so done with this and it actually gives me some hope ifni do this
- Date posted
- 5y
@hocdgirlsummer Well then maybe your right, you say there is a possibility that you could be bi, may be, may not be and sit with the anxiety until it passes.
- Date posted
- 5y
@Kirk1334 Well idk if theres a possibility tho lol im still too anxious to be able to say that but like this girl on yourube really made it easy for me to be bi u know. And if she makes it comfortable for me i cant lowkey fake accept and see if i could finally get to my senses and conclude thst these thoughts are nonsense and i could feel attracted to guys again.
- Date posted
- 5y
@hocdgirlsummer I can*
- Date posted
- 5y
I try accepting I'm bi but then I worry I'm only lesbian. You can give it a go. I think this could work for you, let me know how you get on x
- Date posted
- 5y
Yeah honestly being gay is like my biggest fear so accepting im bi is like a step? And like maybe it will gibe me peace of mind and realise that these thoughts are insane and find my true self again you know. I will let you know, thank u for commenting :)
- Date posted
- 5y
@hocdgirlsummer Be careful not to do this compulsively. I used to change my labels from bi to pan back and forth and it made me nothing but confused and doubt that I was either label in the first place. Once your HOCD settles and you know that you’ll be happy identifying as bi, then go ahead.
- Date posted
- 5y
Yeah for me it's like I don't want to give up on men even tho my attraction seems to have gone. (I get glimmers of attraction now and again which I love) But accepting I'm a lesbian just makes me so scared and doesn't sit right with me
- Date posted
- 5y
Period, i dont want to give up on men. If i would be truly into girls they wouldve made me feel the same was as men did period. And i came to the conlusion that i deadass miss men. I do and idk if it will come back but thats what i like. There cant be another explanation. But its so hard to truly truly believe that 24/7/ subconsciously if theres no attraction u know. Accepting im lesbian gives me deep anxiety i just odnt want to think about it. When it pops up i try to get it out of my head as fast as i can, bevause otherwise my hocd could become as bad as it used to be. Now im just not happy and im depressed nut having the first stage of hocd while being unhappy and depressed is like... hell
- Date posted
- 5y
@hocdgirlsummer If i liked girls i wouldnt be here fighting so hard to get attraction to guys back right? It dont make snese
- Date posted
- 5y
Accept the thoughts. They are just thoughts, they arent reality. Try to accept them, they are just thoughts. OCD cant change who u really are.
- Date posted
- 5y
I know sis:) thats the exact reason why im accepting being bi. Because if i do accept something im not, i will realise like wtf am i doing? This is not me! And i might come to terms and get my true self back. Because i tell myself this everyday but never does my brain believe me. If i make it believe something that aint real too it might bounce back and be like yo wait a minute, ur giving in? I hope it works
Related posts
- Date posted
- 23w
it feels like i accepted being gay and thats part of who i am but i still feel that tension and fake attraction whenever i see a man and i feel like i could be able to have a sexual intercourse with a man even though i dont want it is it still hocd or just denial? like i am feeling okey but there is still that doubt that how can i know that im not gay if i dont get disgusted by gay things or gay personality traits and at the same time i want to feel normal again like before
- Date posted
- 23w
trigger warning!!!!!! I’m really scared right now. I’ve been reading Elle Warren’s articles about her experience with HOCD/SO-OCD, and it feels so similar to mine. She went through the same fears of being a lesbian, felt distressed by her attraction to women, and spent hours ruminating, Googling, and analyzing her feelings. She even experienced groinal responses and revisited old memories, just like I do. Eventually, she had a moment of realization in college when she flirted with a girl, and everything clicked. She now identifies as a lesbian. I’m terrified that the same thing will happen to me. I thought the OCD fears were supposed to never be true and that HOCD thoughts are usually just compulsions that don’t end up being real. But reading her story, it’s like I’m seeing my own experience mirrored. What if it clicks for me, just like it did for her? What if I realize that I am a lesbian? Elle’s story makes me so scared. I thought my feelings of attraction to women were just OCD-driven, and now I’m questioning everything. I thought I was straight, but now, reading her journey, I’m wondering: could my OCD fears actually be real? Elle’s experience was very similar to mine: • She got distressed when she thought she might like women, not relieved. • She spent a lot of time ruminating, Googling, analyzing, and comparing. • Her attraction to women only became intense when her OCD flared up. • She said things like, “I feel peace when I believe I’m straight.” • She had already been diagnosed with OCD and had a history of this pattern. After years of fear and distress, Elle had a moment of calm and realized that it was true. I’m scared that this could happen to me too. Will I have a similar moment of acceptance, where everything clicks and I realize I’m gay? Or will I come to accept that this is all OCD, and that I’m straight, with the possibility that I’m not? I also keep thinking back to when my OCD lessened the first time. Did I go back to men because I wasn’t actually attracted to women, or was it just because the grip of the OCD had loosened? Elle also talked about the shame associated with non-heterosexuality. She mentioned that, like many of us, she had internalized stigma around being gay, and that it made her fear the possibility of being non-heterosexual. I can relate to this so much—growing up, I never saw it as an option to be anything other than straight, and now it’s hard to shake that fear and shame. Elle mentioned that she found reassurance in seeing other people with HOCD who worried that their fears would come true, but eventually realized they were just OCD thoughts. That idea is comforting, but also a little scary, because what if that moment of realization happens for me too? What if I finally accept that I am a lesbian? Or, what if I’m just struggling with OCD and eventually realize I’m straight? I just don’t know. The scariest part is that, just like Elle, I feel like I don’t have any obvious signs. She had no idea she was a lesbian until one day, everything clicked. She was 21, just like me when my OCD fears really flared up, and she had a breakthrough moment in Denver when she made friends with lesbians. That hasn’t happened for me yet, and it’s terrifying to think that it could happen in the future. I don’t know what’s going to happen, but I’m really scared about where this will lead.
- Date posted
- 19w
I’ve had hocd for around 11 months now. It’s gotten to the point where I’m just convinced that I am bi. I still like boys like I always have, but I feel like I like girls too. I have no anxiety either or active thoughts. It’s just kinda there like yep I’m bi and ok with it. Anyone else? Just curious.
Be a part of the largest OCD Community
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond