I’m scared that the thoughts aren’t as distressing anymore but I don’t like having this thoughts still. It’s like I don’t care about them anymore but I still hate having them! Idk if I make any sense. Point is they don’t disgust or disturb me. It feels like i like them... does this mean it’s true? I just can’t be lesbian or bi. Maybe just a little bi but not to the point where I actually wanna do these things. Can anyone relate or give me any advice??

I truly hope so. Now I just feel like it’s all real.

@advice? that’s how i felt at first too. but then my thoughts came less and less and they’re still here just nowhere near as much. and when they are i just shrug them off and everything seems less real to me now. i used to freak out when i would just see a pretty girl and thought she was pretty. but that’s completely normal for a girl to think another girl is pretty. and now i’m able to see that and it doesn’t freak me out

@kaysf So you’ve come over hocd?

@advice? no. i still struggle with it, it’s just quite a bit better than it was a few months ago. it was really really bad for a while and now i have it more under control

@kaysf I more of live with it can’t say it’s under control I’m just used to living with it which is sad

@Mod22 So do the thoughts not disturb you?

@advice? They disturb me but they don’t occur as frequently as they used to, I suffer more from shame depression and this mouth sensation now and thoughts but not as much

This is why I’m freaking out rn! My thoughts weren’t scaring me anymore so I moved on to thinking I’m not weirded out or disgusted so now I actually feel like I could be into girls. But then I just had a full on mental breakdown relapse because now I’m moved on to thinking it’s all real and I am into girls because it’s not disturbing anymore. I can’t win. I don’t want this to ruin my relationship ?

@Ocdandme123 That’s so true I also feel that way right now as we speak I was flirting with a girl and it doesn’t really feel the same anymore

@Mod22 It’s so messed up and scary. I hope this is all because we are just numb and so depressed that nothing feels real anymore

@Ocdandme123 And hopefully overcome it all soon

@Ocdandme123 I’m breaking down right now I took a picture in December and then someone said I look gay in that picture I don’t even know why because I wasn’t even smiling or anything I didn’t take it personally And this was sent in December and now that I remember that I feel like shit almost as if people saw it coming before me ? I hate this shit so bad can’t stop tearing up I just needed to say that

@mod22

@Ocdandme123 That encounter for me happened years ago and it still haunts me. Especially the fact I didn’t have hocd after that even happened and here I am years later haha. I’ve been with plenty of guys my whole life and here one drunk thing can spiral everything lol

For me it’s crazy because I never even looked at guys like that or even tried shit with them but here I am At 21 years of age feeling like shit over my own sexuality

@Ocdandme123 I hope we will heal ?

@Mod22 It’s a super messed up thing. I hate that me and everyone else that’s going through this is going through it. It’s the devil. We will heal!

@Ocdandme123 It’s almost as if most of us on this app are mostly suffering from Hocd it’s shocking

@Mod22 I know :(