(18+) My real event ocd is back

I was reading an article here and it made me think of your post The feelings of guilt and shame are valid but not rational. The thoughts do not carry any intrinsic value. They are not good or bad. They are just thoughts.” You are not your thoughts. The fact that these thoughts cause you distress is proof enough that they don’t align with who you are. The more you learn to sit with them—without judgment or compulsions—the less power they will have over you.

Not to be sappy - but everyone deserves people that love them. Your thoughts are sabotaging you. They are real thoughts but not valid. Ok done haha.

my friend i totally understand why you feel this way, OCD’s constant pull finds those soft spots. but you’re so much more than whats in your head, and not to feed into reassurance seeking compulsions, and i know you know you can do this on your own (not saying you can’t reach out, just keep in mind ;) ). But without a do, try to believe me when i say that you don’t need to “waste time” on what your head is saying to you, our brains don’t always know everything. Even God would tell you to move forward, coming from an agnostic perspective. Life is so much more than the downsides even if they feel heavy, you know what i mean?

Of course! We are here for you

Funny enough this is one of my biggest issues. I over the years consumed porn that was intense (rape/cnc, incest etc) and only once I quit porn for good by the Grace of God did I ever begin to worry about the content of it. More so things like:”was that legal to watch?” Or “what if they weren’t all actually consenting?” And “what if they were actually underaged?” And so on and so forth. This mostly stems from I used some seedy websites such as motherless and 4chan. I’ve had success firstly avoiding rumination and avoiding compulsively googling things about legality, accidental viewing and etc. that will make me spiral. But also just sitting with the thought and honestly embracing it such as “ok all of thst was illegal nobody was consenting and they were underaged now what” and the brain stops in its tracks on it and goes “well then you goto jail” and I have to respond simply “ok then I guess I’ll goto jail” and that pretty much ends it usually. Living with the uncertain in your mind is what kills ocds core issue. Practice this and you will have much more success.