Could you guys just tell me if that's what it is

Wait. Is this a compulsion? Like I didn't realize compulsions can be something like this? Not looking for reassurance but just wondering if that sounds accurate? Thanks guys! I know I'll never get the certainty I want, but I want to feel safe to be around my nephew again. I was holding my nephew, he's a newborn, and he was getting hungry so he started squirming around and grazed my chest (yes I was fully clothed). Of course, that caused very intense groinals.. It didn't feel bad in the moment but just anxious, and without thinking, I was holding his head still right there and I was moving it closer in that spot (at least felt that way) to make the feeling continue I guess. It was such an anxious all over my body feeling. I was so anxious and triggered by that feeling. It's like my groinals were so intense I automatically leaned into them without thinking a second thought? So I ended up having another groinal. After that I put the baby down and realized what had happened then panicked so much.

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Anonymous

Date posted: 9w

Yeah that happens to me all the time

Anony1314

Date posted: 9w

@Anonymous Like really? Like you've done this before? What I'm not alone?!

Amilton

Date posted: 9w

I can’t make up 100% what you’re trying to say here but from what I can understand it sounds like a checking compulsion to me. “groinals sensations” is hyper body sensitivity and it’s usually accompanied by strong anxiety- and the anxiety tends to make it worse then you become even more sensitive ( monitoring more aggressively). The ideal exercise here would be maybe start by trying to relieve that moment and if those same sensations arise just sit there with it, try your hardest not to give in to any compulsions, don’t over analyze the moment, label it ocd, allow the anxiety to peak and then come down. It will help you create more distance between you and OCD symptoms and thoughts. With time your hyper body sensitivity will get better, which just really means you won’t be hyper monitoring your body for “unusual sensations” and when you feel your OCD trying to take you there you’ll be better equipped to resist the urge to monitor or over analyze it. Good luck 🍀

Anony1314

Date posted: 9w

@Amilton I'm saying my body automatically reacted to the groinal without second thought and I moved automatically due to anxiety and felt like I moved towards the feeling. Like I moved the baby back

Amilton

Date posted: 9w

@Anony1314 I’m sorry, I still don’t understand what you mean 100%. When you say you moved towards the feeling what do you mean exactly ? Moved the baby back away from your chest ?

Anony1314

Date posted: 9w

@Amilton I moved the baby away then back towards my chest but I don't recall if I ever brought him completely back to my chest. It was an automatic reaction and I had literally no conscious other than anxiety. I then put the baby down and panicked

Amilton

Date posted: 9w

Okay, thanks for clarifying. This actually makes it clearer for me that you literally dealing with classic OCD. Very small situation turns into a huge project of what that may mean about you. I feel more certain that it was a checking compulsion now even if happened involuntarily. I like to say that we develop these “reflexes” from constantly trying to counter intrusive thoughts. Holding the baby against your chest is normal behavior- the thoughts - hyper body sensitivity - that’s all OCD and you seem to be aware of it. The hard part is not giving into it. You are fine. In fact hiding your nephew might the perfect opportunity for an exercise to prove to yourself that there’s you and then there’s OCD, by practicing what I suggested above, instead of bringing up the thought you actually hold your nephew.

Anony1314

Date posted: 9w

@Amilton But I brought him back to my chest because of the groinals making me believe I wanted those feelings without consciously thinking? That's still classic checking compulsion right? And thanks friend

Amilton

Date posted: 9w

@Anony1314 Yes still classic checking compulsion but I think you already know that. Hear me out, whenever that anxiety kicks in, that uncertainty feeling, that itch to resolve a thought or to find out what it means about you. That is the PERFECT opportunity to make OCD weaker. Do not give in, this thing will take serious intent and almost a rebellious attitude towards it to be able to beat it/manage it. But you have to choose to sit there with all those feelings, think about it as big middle finger to OCD. But that is the only way friend.

Anony1314

Date posted: 9w

@Amilton Thanks friend. It just was an automatic response to the intensity of the groinal

Anonynmous19

Date posted: 18w

Pocd groinals

A compulsion i do is if i get a groinal or anticipate it i take a step. Adjust my legs and feet to avoid the groinals. I was carrying my daughter and worry about groinals which sucks. I had groinals when I picked her up but discarded it didnt give it attention. Then when i put her down i had intrusive thoughts about groinals worrying if i get it. I took a step to my right and just sat with the groinals and the thoughts. I do t remember if i took a second step or not but ocd hyper-focused in the groinal sensations and i feel guilty its telling me i took tbe step to get groinals and i sat with it to arouse myself but i think i took the step as a compulsion and my ocd hyperfocused on the ocd and was aware of it and just let it be but ocd is saying i acted on the thoughts and aroused myself i know thats not true.

sanshine

Date posted: 14w

Brain is frazzled adults only please

Worried about situation that happened with nephew new memory or not idk I'm scared Worried about situation that happened with nephew I'm so scared when I was holding my nephew I thought " I wonder if this would sexually stimulate him" ( not the exact words don't want to be extremely graphic) I began to bump him like how people bump babies on their hips he was on my stomach cuz that's how he was handed to me. Now I fear I remember also thinking if his diaper would stimulate his private part or something like that IDK LIKE I FEEL LIKE I REMEMBER THINKING THAT BUT ALSO DON'T??? LIKE O FEEL LIKE maybe I thought this at a different time for whatever weird reason but then I'm scared that it makes sense it would happen when I held him. Does it change the situation?????I feel extremely sick because I don't know why I would think that or if it was my brain or me. Idk if it was or wasn't cuz I felt his diaper against me? Was I curious if it would? It feels like I was curious but wth why???Was it just something weird I thought? Am I actually a monster? I had been having disturbing thoughts I'm pretty sure that were related to my POCD in general for a while before that. Ik my nephew didn't get hurt but I'm so scared why would I do something like that I feel so sick and disgusted. I know away from that situation I have no sexual interest or attraction towards him I'm just so freaked out and disgusted. I don't wanna be a bad person and I don't want my worst fear to be true.

Anony1314

Date posted: 9w

Please comment. I'm struggling so much. Thanks

POCD I was holding my nephew, he's a newborn, and he was getting hungry so he started squirming around and grazed my chest (yes I was fully clothed). Of course, that caused anxious groinals.. It didn't feel bad in the moment just very very anxious feelings, and without thinking, I was holding his head still right there and I was moving it closer in that spot (at least felt that way) to make the feeling continue I guess. It felt like an urge because of the groinals. It was such an anxious all over my body feeling. I was so anxious and triggered by that feeling. It's like my groinals were so intense I automatically leaned into them? So I ended up having another groinal. After that I put the baby down and realized what had happened. Did I just hurt my nephew without consciously realizing it till after? Is this OCD?

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