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Anyone with harmocd play violent video games?
Or watch violent media and etc, and how does it affect you? Just curious on ppl who deal with it
Or watch violent media and etc, and how does it affect you? Just curious on ppl who deal with it
Assassin's Creed and BG3. Yes it gets me sometimes but Ive learned to let the thoughts go, just like any other OCD thought ❤️
I love BG3, im afraid to play my games cus im worried my brain will change me or idk ill snap or something crazy idk. Its stupid ik, but its like idk
Yes, I am a big horror fan. I also read horror/mystery/thrillers. I play Sims and off sims all the time. Most players do though because it’s just a game. It’s self ERP in a nutshell. Love your life and don’t let OCD tell you what/what not to do.
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I didn't have an issue with video games until my first bad episode. Playing RDR2 was really difficult at times, but I've been practicing to sit with it when triggered. I know that it won't bother me forever, even if it's scary in the moment.
Like for me it feels that my brain cant tell the difference from reality and fiction...
@James Hancock No, same! Like I know, it's fictional, but I still question if it'll somehow affect my sense of morality. You and the other person above mentioned BG3. I love that game, but I kept feeling bad if I chose an option that was even slightly "evil." It's so dumb 😭
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my favorite video game is the last of us. usually i know when i need to stop because i can feel the anxiety creeping in, but last summer it did trigger me for a good week. lately, however, i’ve been good at managing my harm thoughts. if you’re scared, try playing for a short amount of time and see where your headspace is. ease yourself into it. you can always turn it off if you feel an episode starting 🫶🏻
Thank you, I literally thought I was the only one struggling with games all of a sudden 🙃
Nah men too sensitive for that got family don't watch it nothing like that. Used to watch the haunting of discovery channel with this OCD it's like too sensitive got other stuff going on also
Personally video games never made me had issues but I think media affects everyone differently. I’m a huge fan of attack on titan and I’ve watched it so many times but it’s to the point that I would have recurring dreams; or better to put it nightmares about it. You can look up the plot but long story short some of the characters infiltrate the walls and are titans who are murderers. A lot of the titans are very gory and the show overall as the titans eat people. In the last season, it’s world war setting and titans trample almost everyone on earth. I’ve had these nightmares for a while but one particular one, I was with those murderers in my house and it didn’t make much sense because it was a jumbled up dream, but a merge of reality and that show. My cousins were in my home and particularly a younger cousin about 5 years old popped up from behind the couch and because of the way she did it, it resembled the first titan appearing over the walls in the show. Out of fear, or maybe because I was in perspective of one of the murderers i immediately killed her in this dream and violently stabbed her. I then stuffed her into a random cardboard box with no remorse at all but only worry of being caught and I hid the weapon. And while her family found her I was silent and acted as if I knew nothing. I believe in the dream I was playing the role of a character in the show that has to kill someone and keep it secret but when I woke up I genuinely felt like I was a sick person who became a murder. After waking up I kept getting intrusive thoughts about how I could have killed her more efficiently or discreetly and I felt insane. I couldn’t get it out of my head even though I knew it was about a dream I had of a show I watched. I’ve had disturbing dreams about this show before but not to that extent. I even went to the spots in my house where I “hid the knife” and “hid the box with the body” to see if I actually did it, although I knew I didn’t. The nightmare was so vivid and I could remember everything to the tee. I felt like a physcopath killer, safe to say I didn’t watch it again for a while.
Okay so I’ve dealt with harm OCD from the beginning. Started off with harming my kids, going to jail and then harming myself. The harm to myself stuck around for a long time. Then it went away and other themes picked up but it keeps coming back. This is like the third time it’s come back and every single time it comes back it feels worse. It feels like this is the time something is going to happen. Has anyone ever dealt with this? With old themes constantly coming back and feeling more real? Please any advice is greatly appreciated. Thanks
There are times my harm ocd has me convinced that my feelings of self harm or suicide and harm are real and that any moment I could commit the act on myself or my family. Is there anyone who can chime in on this. I feel like all the time I want to leave run away or avoid my family because of these thoughts. Like I shouldn’t be around my children and I don’t trust myself.
i’m back in a cycle of having harm related OCD thoughts and feelings and urges and i get these episodes where it’s like i’m disassociating and feel like i’m about to snap and go crazy violent. does anyone else experience this? i need help
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