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Maybe you will, maybe you won’t. I used to be scared of being gay, and I turned out to be, and I am fine with it. IF you were to “turn” gay, you would be fine. I KNOW it doesn’t feel that way, but trust me, it is not the end of the world even IF your worst fear came true.
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But I don’t want it,i dont feel like being myself,it hurts and burns.
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I tried to do that,i tried to say its not the end of the world,but it keep hurts and makes me feels bad
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@LikeAnOnion That’s extremely triggering for someone with soocd.
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@anonymous00981 I know, but it’s the truth, and I had that too as a kid. And ERP is really triggering, it’s awful. But it’s what ERP teaches us to try to accept the possibility, even though yes that is extremely triggering and painful.
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@Mimo116 Remember that accepting it wouldn’t be the end of the world isn’t the same thing as accepting that you are gay. If you’re not gay, of course that’s not who you are. What you need to do is accept the possibility and that nobody can ever really know. I know it feels impossible to do, I’m struggling with it myself on other themes.
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@LikeAnOnion - But what if the pain makes me hate myself? What if the pain stops my life? I tried,i swear,but i just can’t do it
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@Mimo116 Then that means OCD is what is torturing you, not the uncertainty of sexuality, and you should practice ERP.
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@LikeAnOnion - Before ocd,i was sure about my sexuality,it was clear to me like moon,even if now ocd makes me believe that it was a lie,but I remember that i was comfort,and happy.now i lost my feelings for men when ocd became stronger,that makes me sad.i just want to feel again,im scared of ERP because im afraid that i find out something about me i never thought or want
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@mimo116 please do ERP with a professional and do not focus on other people’s stories! Your OCD is your own journey and OCD loves to latch on to things that have nothing to do with you! Focus on your journey and don’t compare to others!
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@anonymous00981 I agree with this. I didn’t tell my story to say it is what is likely at all, I told it to illustrate my point that even though OCD tells us we will die if our fears come true, it’s not the case, and with this particular theme, the worst case scenario can even turn out to be perfectly fine (even though that doesn’t make it ANY less terrifying!)
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I want to help myself so bad but believe me,I can’t get a therapist or help..no family support and no money
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@Mimo116 I’m so sorry :(( There are a lot of videos on ERP on YouTube. I recommend trying to teach yourself through those. There are also some ERP workbooks you can buy if you have enough money for a book. A therapist is just there as a guide, even in therapy you have to do all the work yourself, so it is definitely possible to do ERP on your own if you have to, using guidance made by therapists, like support groups on here (if they are free?), YouTube channels run by therapists and experts, and ERP workbooks. It’s harder, but it’s possible. And I’m sorry if I made things worse for you, I was trying to help you.
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@LikeAnOnion - no,its ok.i have read 3 stories with people with hocd and they end up being gay,and ok.at the beginning i was very afraid,but it have been a month,i can tell im still afraid but not like the meltdown I got when I read the first trigger story,its ok. But i just want some hope that i have my feelings for men back and be comfort like before again,but like this stories makes me loss hope, But a little less resistant than last month.I don't know if I'm slowly succumbing to OCD or if I'm doing something therapeutic
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