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I understand where you are coming from with this mindset. I still struggle off and on with moral scrupulosity where I compare my past actions to what my morals are now. It can be stressful to feel as if your morals now don’t line up with things you have done in the past, but who you were in the past does not reflect who you are now. We all continue to grow and change as we get older and so do our morals. What you’ve done in the past may or may not make you a bad person, but it is important to focus on who you are now and the wonderful values that you hold and carry out daily throughout the rest of your life!!

In the past, yes, but then I learned that I make the rules for myself and my brain/OCD, and I can do whatever I please with my life.

yup, it feels like i have a stain on my soul and that im a bad person if not everyone knows about the stain. im still trying to accept and forgive myself from mistake I made 5/6 years ago. but, its gotten so much easier. when I first started getting intrusive thoughts about my ptsd, it really freaked me out. now today, even though I still get the thoughts, it doesn't make me freak out anymore. sometimes it does, but not all the time. and thats improvement! maybe in the next 5 years i wont even be thinking about it anymore!