anyone else on here with hocd who used to research hocd as a compulsion? cause that’s what i did and i’m really regretting it now. also sort of regretting that i told my mom because she was like “oh i’ve never heard of this until now and everything online about it is pretty new so i don’t know about this. you can make anything an ocd thing” and she told me that most things i was scared of were normal. like when i notice another woman with a nice body, she said is completely normal. but at the end of talking to her about it i said thank you and i told her i was scared to tell her because i was afraid she’d say “you’re just gay accept it” and she said “no i wouldn’t tell you that, that’s for you to figure out on your own” and now i keep thinking omg what if i’m gay and idk it yet but she does. and every time she brings something up about LGBTQ, my ocd makes me think she’s trying to get me to come out because she thinks i’m bi because i told her about my hocd. she’s very accepting but also doesn’t really like the whole labels thing. so part of me is like no she doesn’t think that and the other part of me is like she does think that and she’s trying to get you to come out because of it because she wants to to trust her and be comfortable with her and she thinks all of this because she doesn’t really understand hocd and to be quite honest she doesn’t really think it’s a real thing and that freaks me out irl.