I used some hair removal cream today and I got in bath and put soap on my Arm pits and I screamed in pain because it hurt and my boyfriend rushed in and said what’s up and I told him and when he walked out he said oh I thought you hurt yourself and now I’m obsessing about what he meant by that like does he think I’m a psycho or dangerous.. do you think this is ocd latching onto that?
It’s certainly just a worry or thought spiral you are having. It seems like given the context of the situation, he didn’t not assume the worst, he just wanted to be there for you in case you were hurt. My husband does the same if he hears me screaming. The other day a spider crawled out of my drain and I screamed my head off. In his head, all he hears is screaming, so he rushed in thinking something is direly wrong. He then gets said spider and saves me. LOL.
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Picture this: you hear someone on the street scream. You probably imagine that they're in severe pain. Same thing applies to your case. You were in pain but your boyfriend probably just thought something worse happened than just the hair removal burning you. Could’ve been anything that happened. Maybe he thought you slipped and hit your head in the shower. Maybe he thought you accidentally cut yourself with the shaving razor. Etc. Anything is possible but your OCD is targeting one specific scenario as the reason for your bf’s concern (you purposefully hurting yourself), that may not even be likely. Ocd is sadly not logical and it throws out meaningless thoughts at you. To beat it, you have to try to ignore the thoughts. Although that's incredibly difficult.
Sounds like he was just worried you were hurt. Nothing more than that
Does anyone imagine they are doing their harm thoughts during an action, making you feel like you acted on your thoughts? For example, someone gave me a hug and at the last second I imagined I was touching something I shouldn’t during the hug? I want to make it clear it’s something I have zero desire to do! But the problem is, I thought it on purpose and it makes me sick !! Obviously nothing happened but my mind is telling me that was me trying to do it. Even though it was physically impossible to do. Am I a monster or could this be OCD? I’m freaking out and don’t want to be here anymore. I feel like I’m the exception and that this isn’t OCD. I know I post about this stuff a lot but I’m struggling and don’t know what to do.
Hey so a couple months ago (7-8) I remember being upset at my family member. Like she was talking too much while I was annoyed and remember wanting her to be quiet. I got an intrusive thought like a really bad image of doing something really bad to her, and my hand twitched to the side a little? Like it felt like I was about to?! And I remembered thinking "if I do this, I'll get in trouble". I got up and left to the bathroom and felt horrified! I was thinking "did I want to act out? Did the only reason I didn't act out was because of getting in trouble? If there was no consequences, would have I done it?! Does this mean this whole time I've been using OCD as an excuse?" I remember I couldn't sleep for 3 nights because of how bad the anxiety was, I was crying and I felt very guilty like I should turn myself in to a mental hospital. I couldn't eat for many days or be near her because of that thought and twitch I had! I'm worried it was an impulse or I actually wanted to hurt her. And even to this day I still ruminanate about this. Like last night I couldn't sleep well I kept waking up every two hours and asking myself "am I capable?" I couldn't eat last night. Sometimes I move on from it like I forget that happened but when I remember, I feel distressed about it! I don't want to be an evil person or do bad actions towards anyone! I'm even scared to be angry because of this because I'm scared I have more "chance" of acting out due to anger. Like was it an impulse and I held back? Is this even OCD? Please help, I'm really scared!
Just a little side note: I know this post has been made MANY times by me. However, I had a therapist respond to my post today saying that I need to reach out to my therapist on this because the context was not clear. This made me more stressed and ruminate more. It's not the therapist fault; but not I wonder if I'm really the monster. I'm a Christian mom who feels like I've ruined my life. My daughter was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt her that I might as well do something else because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it and causing another feeling (I literally had to question what to do during this and the only thing I could come up with was to move my elbow) but it came across my mind to elbow her, and I elbowed her crotch or side area. Which caused another groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out. Then I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be hers anymore. Idk what overcame me. PLEASE tell me if I am a monster. I was doing SO well! Is this really OCD?
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