Idk
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- 5y
rlrrlr
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I feel like so many of the girls with hocd on here have this same problem of ruminating about liking lesbian porn (i do lol) it’s been basically the only type of porn I’ve watched since I started watching when I was younger and now it makes me go crazy with bad hocd thoughts. but we all know it’s so common for straight women to like lesbian porn!
hocdgirlsummerhocdgirlsummer
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Yes, the fact that we all easily commit that we did this must mean something. Because if we wouldve felt actual feelings for woman we wouldve commit that too. Its just we think nevause we did this that were into woman and hocd made us believe weer able to love a woman in a romantical Way. But bevause this is not our nature it gives anxiety. Now all we can hope for is that we slowely get to our senses and turn intou ourselves again.
hocdgirlsummerhocdgirlsummer
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@hocdgirlsummer Its just sad that becaude of the brainwash we lost feelings for man which makes it harder for us to believe and know were straight
LinaLina
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I think I may have but your story is very similar to mine. Lesbian porn as embarassing as it is became an addiction I would watch it every day so I would have to find more and more things that could continue to satisfy me. Anything to get me off basically. I hate that I did it.
hocdgirlsummerhocdgirlsummer
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Yes im the exact same. Its like porn made me like turn on, but my romanrical desire was to be with a boy. That gave me anotber feeling like warmth, feeling alive ukno like actual pleasure but it didnt turn me on. I always knew that inwould be turned on if a boy touches me. But i didnt really had a problem with not being turned on when i see a sixpack because i loved the feeling of the warmth and being alive i get from fantasizing so yeah. But idk what this means because porn made me turn on like really sexually. But yeah i thibk more girls have this
miroquiltmiroquilt
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I'm a straight woman and enjoy sex with men only but I also watch lesbian porn the majority of the time. The female body is more pleasing to the eye in many cases. I don't think the type of porn I prefer has any bearing on my sexual orientation and I know that I would never want a real life sexual relationship with another woman. I think I watch it because it's easier to fantasize when you relate to the person your looking at.
poprocks1poprocks1
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Yes but masturbation is interesting. I tried it once and decided I would rather be with an actual man. But then of course my OCD told me I was asexual because I didn’t find masturbation to be as mind-blowing as it is for some people. It really depends on the person I think. I’ve never used lesbian porn or had the desire to even watch it but I think a lot of women do.
Ridethewave Ridethewave
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Yeah. Only two men that Ive ever fantasized about though, my highschool crush and my bf. Otherwise I watched porn. I used to watch alot of lesbian porn as well, but then I switched to straight porn
IdkIdk
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So you’ve actually been able to finish with just fantasizing?
Ridethewave Ridethewave
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@advice? Yeah I can. I used to sext as well, that was my thing for a bit too
poprocks1poprocks1
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Also if this is something you are worried about- remember different strokes for different folks- lol- some things work for certain people, and others these things don’t work- not sure if that helps but it helped me rationalize my OCD
IdkIdk
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Thank youu
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- 9w
HOCD can anyone relate?
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