Hiya! A bit of a trigger warning. I recently had a thought of what if i died and this is the afterlife and it isn’t going away. it’s been a week or two. i don’t think i believe but but i also don’t know, i’m scared i’ve crossed the line of ocd to delusion. any comfort would be appreciated, thank you!
The WHAT-IFS are one of the worst parts of OCD, in my humble opinion. This is where it's important to stay in uncertainty, one of the basic tenets of ERP therapy. Try saying to yourself, "Maybe it's true, and maybe it's bs, who knows, so I'm not going to worry about it." Then, go do something fun or constructive to distract yourself. The last thing you want to do is ruminate all day, trying to conclude with absolute certainty that it's bs. No way you'll ever win that argument, and it's precisely what OCD wants you to do: ruminate. Only makes it worse. Are you in therapy with a trained OCD therapist who uses ERP therapy?
@Steven55! not yet, i’m working on getting into a partial hospitalization program
If I’m being honest, it takes a very intelligent mind to come up with a theory that complex! You don’t have to be afraid of your thoughts, in fact, you should be proud! You just have to learn how to manage your OCD that you can be able to breathe a little. The thing about OCD is that it takes your thoughts, twists them and then blames YOU for it. You are NOT your OCD. You don’t have to believe what it tells you. In the meantime, keep using that brilliant mind of yours!! Hope this helps✨
OCD gives you intrusive thoughts about the things you are most scared of. in this case your mind is trying to trick you into believing something that is not real. I think it is called magical thinking
I’m really struggling with something related to me ocd, and I would appreciate kind and supportive advice. If you can’t relate or don’t think anything you have to say would be helpful, I kindly ask pls refrain from commenting this is a really sensitive topic for me. Recently, I’ve noticed a pattern that feels something extremely new and distressing. The first time it happened I remember telling myself before self pleasuring that I am in control no matter what thought comes into my mind because I wanted to prove to myself that these thoughts are just from OCD and I know who I am and an intrusive that came out of no where, and i suddenly felt an intense fear that I was acting on it. In the moment I genuinely felt like I did. And afterword, I panicked and started questioning myself. This SAME FEELING has happened three times in a row each time, the intrusive thought was unwanted and random, and completely against my morals most recently it involved pocd and it feels even worse because it generally felt like I acted on it the thought in the moment while I was self pleasuring the panic doesn’t hit until afterwards when I stop :/ I start thinking that maybe I generally made a mistake and I’m now just realizing that it’s wrong because it generally feels like that :( but when I actually think about it again goes against my morals and values doesn’t make sense it feels incredibly real, and I can’t seem to shake this feeling off that I may have acted on it I’m terrified because I never wanted these thoughts in the first place. And I definitely didn’t choose them. If I had known, I would’ve had these intrusive thoughts I wouldn’t have self pleasured in the first place but it’s extremely hard to convince myself that this may be OCD because I feel like I have no other reason to believe that I didn’t act on it :/
Lately my OCD has been very horrible, it’s been more convincing than ever to the point where I’m genuinely convinced that I like this stuff, when I get a thought, I’ll hear my intrusive thoughts go “oooh, I like that, I’d do that.” and I just don’t freak out nor feel bad, I just feel like I like it even more, and feel like I would do/act on it and like it, and the feeling is strong and it lingers forever? It genuinely feels like I do, and I’m just lying now, i can’t tell if I make these thoughts worse or anything All I remember mostly just being like confused sometimes when these thoughts happen, but since I’m getting strong emotions that I like it, my brain says that means I did and I’m worried about that being true because I don’t understand nor know It’s like I am resisting to like this stuff now, it’s even tougher now than it was before
I don’t know how to deal with the thoughts that come and barely gone. Usually, the brain often remembers and forgets things. People with OCD however struggle with trying to forget the intrusive thoughts because of the imbalance trying to convey what is real and if the thoughts in your head will come true. Just for the past few days, I was having fun and suddenly hit with a wave of obsessive thoughts and making me stuck with nowhere to go.
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