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Basically same thing that I mentioned on the other comment here but I did text my girlfriend and I didn't mean to but I scared her thinking j eas actually suicidal. I feel terrible. And I'm never going to forgive myself for scaring her like that god. It just made everything worse amd I was just starting to feel better and she called me crying saying I should never give up ill never forgive myself for scaring her like that ever again

@Ariana ♡ Yeah it made me have sucidical thoughts but they stopped when I kept taking it the only thing that was a big side affect for me was the nausea and the headaches it caused but they stopped as well when I kept taking it

@Ariana ♡ I understand how that’s hard rn, if it makes you feel any better I’ve been dealing with a lot of grief and have felt all over the place and just started a new medicine as well! I also took sertraline a couple years back and while I don’t have the same fear, I get where you’re coming from bc personally my grief feels like it’s to no end sometimes and I’ve had many suicidal intrusive thoughts over the past couple months. I know it’s terrifying especially because you think well how can I escape this? I don’t want to not live but don’t want to live with this. Just try to remember (this is what helps me) that there are many positive stories where people have found meds that work for them, the right one that helped them, etc. I know it’ll probably feel embarrassing admitting you haven’t taken the pill, but with so much distress I understand you wouldn’t want to make it worse with your already ongoing fear. Hopefully your doctor can suggest a medication that will help better. I’ve been on 4 different anxiety meds in the span of 5 years and I’m still trying to find something that’ll work but we’ll figure it out :) there’s always trial and error and hopefully your doctor is willing to understand your situation and reason to not taking the meds.

@Ariana ♡ for suicidal intrusive thoughts, I try to remind myself of plan and intention. If I do not have a plan, it’s just a thought. It does not mean you have to act on it and you are able to choose whether to let the thought dictate your mood.(ofc it’s easier to say) but I promise there will be a point where you are able to feel relief even if it doesn’t feel like it rn. I’m always on here if you want to talk more :)

@Summ3r_ Thank you so so much. I'm really struggling atm but I never plan on hurting myself, i am too in love with life (even though I'm struggling) to end it. I'm not sure what to do and I'm so tired of making everyone around me mad and frustrated because I refused zoloft but I also don't know what other options there are yet. Thank you again:)

@Ariana ♡ I get that, I feel the same way like very strong feelings of existential dread and then sometimes I feel so in love with life like you mentioned. I’d say to hold onto that love, especially the times where you weren’t struggling so it’s like a reminder that things can feel like that again :) sometimes it freaks me out too like I know I don’t wanna end it but I don’t know how to cope. there’s always a way though somehow and always something or someone out there to help :)

@Summ3r_ Yeah that's exactly how I feel.:)

Hi, thanks for replying. This is not an emergency if my posts made it sound like that, but long story short I was prescribed Zoloft or sertraline for my severe ocd, and my ocd is emetophobia based. If yoy don't know, sertraline js known for having horrific side effects and I feel as though I have no options and I'm slipping further and further into intrusive thoughts about suicidal ideation (ie: "I'd rather be dead than sick" or "it's easier to die than be sick because of this pill" etc). I'm 17, I live at home with my parents but they work from home so I really can't bother them right now, and my girlfriend is on vacation so I obviously also don't want to bother her either. I meet with my therapist on Thursday but I'm truly lost and I don't know what to do. I have a check up with my doctor who prescribed me the sertraline and I've gone so many weeks since I saw him last I don't know what he's going to say to me when I show up and go "actually I haven't taken it.." right? I'm just lost and everyone I know who I've already confided with is only getting more and more mad at me

@Ariana ♡ - Oh i see. I also take sertralin.i want you to know that this isnt gonna ladt forever and you can get out of this and live without sickness.you deserve to live and you deserve to be well again.im going to bed now but i hope you are ok now and that its okay i go.i might not be good at tips but maybe a breathing exercise on youtube or spotify or something could help to ease now in this moment.or doing something you love.i believe in you.

@Ariana ♡ Wow, first of all, I want to say it was strong of you to reach out. You're going through a lot right now, and despite what other people say, you are handling it the best that you can. You deserve validation and support just as much as anybody else does. Having OCD doesn't make you a burden, I hope you know that💗 I have never taken zoloft, so im sorry I can't help you with that. BUT I was prescribed Prozac, which also comes with a bunch of side effects. I have had emetophobia and health OCD for a long time, so when I was prescribed the drug, I was super anxious to take it. I ended up taking it and stopping after 2 weeks bc it didnt clash well with my other meds. That being said, just bc some people have had bad experiences, doesnt mean you will. I know a few people who have been on Zoloft who THRIVE on it. Same with Prozac. You'll never know whether something's wrong or right for you unless you give it a shot! Not to mention, medication can be flexible. If something doesnt work out for you its not the end of the world! There are plenty of solutions to try, so dont think that if this doesnt work, you've failed. You WILL get through this. (And dont forget, you dont have to feel ashamed for asking for help from the people you love. You deserve to feel supported ESPECIALLY when you are going through it. Much luck✨️)

@ChaoticCatterpillar Thank you so so much. Your kind words mean a lot! I've already decided to see if there are other medications that don't have such awful side effects as zoloft with my doctor so well see how that goes. 🫂

@Ariana ♡ Wonderful!! I'm so proud of you for choosing what you think is the best option for you. I really hope it works out🫶

@strugglebusmane Isn’t it a antidepressant though it’s just a side affect no?

@spy yeah I had some very scary thoughts going off of lexapro recently but after knowing it was a side effect I felt better. also because I know that’s probably the reason why I felt that way. antidepressants are weird sometimes they help sometimes but then don’t?? 😭

@Summ3r_ No seriously I read Zoloft one time and it’s so funny because it’s like Zoloft is a big joke of it’s self get this it makes you sleepy but also another side affect it makes you stay awake at night antidepressants can be funny 😭

@spy righttt?? I felt super tired when I was on Zoloft too and then I tried Prozac and was tweaking like some weird paranoia stuff 😭